1 00:00:17,500 --> 00:00:20,453 [soft piano music playing] 2 00:00:36,603 --> 00:00:38,938 [Daniel] In Herman Williams' seminal work on the joys 3 00:00:38,938 --> 00:00:43,343 of being a model train hobbyist, he writes, 4 00:00:43,343 --> 00:00:45,378 "Many an hour have I spent 5 00:00:45,378 --> 00:00:49,182 "blissfully lost in a world of my own creation. 6 00:00:50,750 --> 00:00:53,530 "For the model train enthusiast, 7 00:00:53,530 --> 00:00:57,657 "there exists a secret world of order and symmetry. 8 00:00:57,657 --> 00:01:01,494 "Nestled into the corners of our basements and attics, 9 00:01:01,494 --> 00:01:03,329 "we lord over a world 10 00:01:03,329 --> 00:01:06,800 "where the hobbyist plays omnipotent creator. 11 00:01:08,335 --> 00:01:11,671 "There, in 1:87 scale, 12 00:01:11,671 --> 00:01:14,341 "the neighbors are always kind, 13 00:01:14,341 --> 00:01:17,377 "the lovers always end up together, 14 00:01:17,377 --> 00:01:21,614 "and the trains always take you to the far-off places 15 00:01:21,614 --> 00:01:24,840 "you always swore you'd go." 16 00:01:25,652 --> 00:01:27,987 In life, of course, 17 00:01:27,987 --> 00:01:32,425 nothing is nearly as neat and tidy. 18 00:01:32,425 --> 00:01:36,329 [woman singing] ♪ Well, if you close the door ♪ 19 00:01:36,329 --> 00:01:37,630 [piano music playing] 20 00:01:37,630 --> 00:01:41,534 ♪ The night could last forever ♪ 21 00:01:41,534 --> 00:01:46,339 ♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪ 22 00:01:46,339 --> 00:01:50,110 ♪ And say hello to never ♪ 23 00:01:50,110 --> 00:01:52,445 ♪ 'Cause all the people are dancing ♪ 24 00:01:52,445 --> 00:01:54,848 ♪ And they're having such fun ♪ 25 00:01:54,848 --> 00:01:59,786 ♪ I wish it could happen to me ♪ 26 00:01:59,786 --> 00:02:02,322 - [piano music pauses] - [cheering, laughing] 27 00:02:02,322 --> 00:02:07,394 - ♪ So baby close that door ♪ - [piano music resumes] 28 00:02:07,394 --> 00:02:10,663 ♪ And never have to see the day again ♪ 29 00:02:10,663 --> 00:02:11,898 ♪ Oh, yeah ♪ 30 00:02:11,898 --> 00:02:14,968 ♪ I'd never have to see the day again ♪ 31 00:02:14,968 --> 00:02:16,436 ♪ That's right ♪ Sing! 32 00:02:16,436 --> 00:02:19,172 ♪ I'd never have to see the day again ♪ 33 00:02:20,600 --> 00:02:22,142 [all whooping and cheering] 34 00:02:22,142 --> 00:02:24,611 - [plays glissando] - Encore, Allie! 35 00:02:24,611 --> 00:02:26,246 - No! - [others groan] 36 00:02:26,246 --> 00:02:27,681 I am way too drunk 37 00:02:27,681 --> 00:02:29,182 to be singing in front of people. 38 00:02:29,182 --> 00:02:31,484 Aw, but we love you! Come on! 39 00:02:31,484 --> 00:02:33,286 And I wanna keep it that way. 40 00:02:33,286 --> 00:02:37,624 Um, okay. That was for my beautiful, sweet, 41 00:02:37,624 --> 00:02:39,859 darling fiance, Nathan. 42 00:02:40,760 --> 00:02:41,828 [laughter] 43 00:02:41,828 --> 00:02:43,730 Who loves that song very much. 44 00:02:44,631 --> 00:02:46,766 Bubba, you wanna come up here? 45 00:02:46,766 --> 00:02:49,200 - No. [chuckles] - [all laughing] 46 00:02:49,200 --> 00:02:51,471 [Allison] Come on! It's our engagement party. 47 00:02:51,471 --> 00:02:53,273 He's very shy! 48 00:02:53,273 --> 00:02:56,309 [all chanting] Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! 49 00:02:56,309 --> 00:02:59,913 Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! 50 00:02:59,913 --> 00:03:01,648 [whooping] 51 00:03:02,148 --> 00:03:04,684 - Hey, y'all... - [laughter] 52 00:03:04,684 --> 00:03:08,755 Um, I'll just briefly say that she played that song for me 53 00:03:08,755 --> 00:03:10,390 on our very first date 54 00:03:10,390 --> 00:03:12,459 on a beautiful, old piano she found 55 00:03:12,459 --> 00:03:14,600 at the back of an empty bar. 56 00:03:14,600 --> 00:03:16,329 - Well, you better go, girl! - Come on. Come on! 57 00:03:16,329 --> 00:03:18,865 - Always be closing. - [Molly] Absolutely! 58 00:03:18,865 --> 00:03:20,900 Welcome to the family! 59 00:03:20,900 --> 00:03:23,536 - Allison... [chuckles] - Yes... [chuckles] 60 00:03:25,710 --> 00:03:29,876 Every memory I cherish in my life has you in it. 61 00:03:29,876 --> 00:03:32,178 Some of them are just tiny seconds. 62 00:03:33,413 --> 00:03:34,981 The way you close one eye 63 00:03:34,981 --> 00:03:37,417 when you really wanna focus on tasting something. 64 00:03:37,417 --> 00:03:39,886 - [guests laugh] - I do that. I do that. 65 00:03:39,886 --> 00:03:41,154 I go, like... 66 00:03:41,154 --> 00:03:43,490 [guests laughing] 67 00:03:43,490 --> 00:03:45,558 [laughing] 68 00:03:47,994 --> 00:03:49,662 I can't believe this is real. 69 00:03:49,662 --> 00:03:50,997 It's real, baby. 70 00:03:50,997 --> 00:03:52,332 - Thank God. - [Allison] Mm. 71 00:03:52,332 --> 00:03:53,900 - I love you. - I love you. 72 00:03:53,900 --> 00:03:55,902 [all] Aw. 73 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:57,370 - Okay. - Hey... 74 00:04:06,146 --> 00:04:09,616 - ["Time" playing] - ♪ Time keeps on coming ♪ 75 00:04:10,750 --> 00:04:12,152 ♪ I've been all around ♪ 76 00:04:12,152 --> 00:04:14,187 [lighter clicking] 77 00:04:18,425 --> 00:04:21,227 ♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪ 78 00:04:21,227 --> 00:04:22,862 No! No, no, no. 79 00:04:22,862 --> 00:04:25,131 - No. Come on, baby. No phone. - Oh. 80 00:04:25,131 --> 00:04:26,700 When we get married, we have to make rules 81 00:04:26,700 --> 00:04:29,202 - about phones in the bed. - [scoffs] 82 00:04:29,202 --> 00:04:30,770 Oh, shut up. 83 00:04:30,770 --> 00:04:34,700 You are on your phone, like, ten times more than me, 84 00:04:34,700 --> 00:04:36,609 looking up rusty old trucks. 85 00:04:36,609 --> 00:04:40,613 Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco 86 00:04:40,613 --> 00:04:43,450 is a work of art, baby. It's not a truck. 87 00:04:47,200 --> 00:04:48,988 [Allison] Oh, calm the **** down. 88 00:04:50,523 --> 00:04:52,258 I swear, this road has been under construction 89 00:04:52,258 --> 00:04:53,993 my entire life. 90 00:04:53,993 --> 00:04:55,829 When will New Jersey be done? 91 00:04:55,829 --> 00:04:57,163 - She's a work-in-progress. - Never. 92 00:04:57,163 --> 00:04:59,432 [chuckles] Oh, by the way, how's Ryan doing? 93 00:04:59,432 --> 00:05:01,601 Oh, you mean your future niece? 94 00:05:01,601 --> 00:05:04,337 [gasps] Oh, my goodness. She's so pretty! 95 00:05:04,337 --> 00:05:06,406 Yeah, the varsity coach said she might start next year. 96 00:05:06,406 --> 00:05:07,474 - Oh, yeah? - [Jesse] Mmm-hmm. 97 00:05:07,474 --> 00:05:09,776 She scored 19 goals last season! 98 00:05:09,776 --> 00:05:11,440 - Tell her. Tell her. - Wow! 99 00:05:11,440 --> 00:05:13,480 Oh, my God. You must be so proud of her. 100 00:05:13,480 --> 00:05:14,614 I can't believe I haven't met her. 101 00:05:14,614 --> 00:05:15,782 I'm so sorry Nathan and I 102 00:05:15,782 --> 00:05:17,150 haven't made it down there yet. 103 00:05:17,150 --> 00:05:18,618 Don't worry about it. I mean, it's far. 104 00:05:18,618 --> 00:05:19,853 We're gonna try to come up more often 105 00:05:19,853 --> 00:05:21,154 now that our dad's getting older. 106 00:05:21,154 --> 00:05:22,922 [Allison] Yeah. 107 00:05:22,922 --> 00:05:26,326 Well, I've only met your dad a few times, 108 00:05:26,326 --> 00:05:28,628 but that we can't blame on distance. [chuckles] 109 00:05:30,463 --> 00:05:32,565 This is ****ing nuts. I'm sorry. 110 00:05:32,565 --> 00:05:33,733 Wait, so tell us about 111 00:05:33,733 --> 00:05:35,435 these wedding dresses we're seeing. 112 00:05:35,435 --> 00:05:37,170 Yes, please. I couldn't sleep last night thinking about it. 113 00:05:37,170 --> 00:05:39,506 - [laughs] Shut up! - You are such a good sport. 114 00:05:39,506 --> 00:05:42,308 No, he isn't. He just thinks that after we see dresses, 115 00:05:42,308 --> 00:05:43,643 - we're going to go... - Yeah? 116 00:05:43,643 --> 00:05:44,811 - ...on a pub crawl. - [Jesse] Mmm-hmm. 117 00:05:44,811 --> 00:05:46,279 But actually we're going to see a play. 118 00:05:46,279 --> 00:05:47,714 - You are? - No, we're not. 119 00:05:47,714 --> 00:05:49,282 You said that we'd have to get tickets already. 120 00:05:49,282 --> 00:05:51,317 No. We just gotta see some shit nobody else wants to see. 121 00:05:51,317 --> 00:05:52,719 - [laughing] - Oh, great. That's awesome. 122 00:05:52,719 --> 00:05:54,870 - Yeah, right? - Great. Great. 123 00:05:54,870 --> 00:05:56,890 Hey, look, it's finally opening up. 124 00:05:56,890 --> 00:05:58,525 All right, so I think it might be a little tight 125 00:05:58,525 --> 00:06:00,600 getting you to a play, 126 00:06:00,600 --> 00:06:03,596 but, um, let me just check... 127 00:06:06,466 --> 00:06:08,680 - Okay, so now it's saying... - [back-up alarm bleeping] 128 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:09,336 Allie! 129 00:06:09,336 --> 00:06:10,503 - [Jesse] Look out! - [tires screech] 130 00:06:24,351 --> 00:06:25,752 [device chimes] 131 00:06:25,752 --> 00:06:27,220 Here we are. 132 00:06:27,220 --> 00:06:29,622 You got me here so early. 133 00:06:29,622 --> 00:06:31,758 Yeah, well, it's 134 00:06:31,758 --> 00:06:34,194 better to be a half-hour early 135 00:06:34,194 --> 00:06:35,762 than one minute late. 136 00:06:35,762 --> 00:06:37,564 [chuckles] 137 00:06:37,564 --> 00:06:39,632 Grandpa, have you ever played any video games? 138 00:06:39,632 --> 00:06:41,401 - No. [scoffs] - [chuckles] 139 00:06:42,769 --> 00:06:45,500 You've got that perfect little brain up there 140 00:06:45,500 --> 00:06:47,640 and you're just melting it away with that crap. 141 00:06:48,108 --> 00:06:49,676 Okay. 142 00:06:49,676 --> 00:06:50,877 - [automated voice] Nathan. - [cell phone ringing] 143 00:06:50,877 --> 00:06:52,112 [Ryan] It's Uncle Nathan. Answer it. 144 00:06:52,979 --> 00:06:54,447 Why would he be calling me? 145 00:06:55,849 --> 00:06:56,883 Pick it up. 146 00:07:01,521 --> 00:07:04,691 [sighs] Thought we weren't talking anymore. 147 00:07:04,691 --> 00:07:06,693 [video game sound effects playing] 148 00:07:15,835 --> 00:07:18,872 Uh-huh. Uh-huh. Nathan. Nathan. 149 00:07:18,872 --> 00:07:21,374 I've... I've got Ryan here in the car. 150 00:07:21,374 --> 00:07:23,143 I'm just dropping her off at school. 151 00:07:23,143 --> 00:07:24,477 I'll call you right back. 152 00:07:26,813 --> 00:07:30,160 Yes, I heard what you said. I'm headed right there. 153 00:07:30,160 --> 00:07:31,918 I just gotta drop her off, okay? 154 00:07:34,721 --> 00:07:37,230 See, that wasn't so bad. 155 00:07:37,230 --> 00:07:39,492 Mom says she wishes you guys could find a way to get along. 156 00:07:40,894 --> 00:07:43,129 I... I've... I've got to leave, sweetie. 157 00:07:43,129 --> 00:07:45,198 But I look like a dork being here this early. 158 00:07:45,198 --> 00:07:46,633 I'm sorry. 159 00:07:47,567 --> 00:07:48,568 I'll, uh... 160 00:07:49,402 --> 00:07:51,338 I'll be picking you up today. 161 00:07:51,338 --> 00:07:52,872 Why can't Mom? 162 00:07:52,872 --> 00:07:54,274 She said they'd be back from the city today, right? 163 00:07:55,475 --> 00:07:56,609 Well... 164 00:07:58,645 --> 00:08:00,213 - she can't. - [sighing] Okay. 165 00:08:00,213 --> 00:08:01,414 I'll text her. 166 00:08:01,414 --> 00:08:02,716 [Daniel] Okay. 167 00:08:02,716 --> 00:08:04,184 Okay. Bye. 168 00:08:05,180 --> 00:08:06,353 Tell me you love me. 169 00:08:07,754 --> 00:08:09,723 I love you, Grandpa. 170 00:08:09,723 --> 00:08:11,157 I love you too. 171 00:08:11,157 --> 00:08:12,492 [chuckles] 172 00:08:13,793 --> 00:08:15,195 - Bye. - Bye. 173 00:08:16,629 --> 00:08:18,631 [somber music playing] 174 00:08:21,301 --> 00:08:22,235 [car door closes] 175 00:08:28,108 --> 00:08:29,109 [sighs] 176 00:08:34,180 --> 00:08:36,549 [machine beeping] 177 00:08:36,549 --> 00:08:39,552 [Allison weakly] Mom, my head hurts so much. 178 00:08:39,552 --> 00:08:42,956 I can't even explain how much pain my head's in. 179 00:08:42,956 --> 00:08:44,491 [Diane] Can you click on the morphine again? 180 00:08:44,491 --> 00:08:45,925 I've been clicking on it. 181 00:08:45,925 --> 00:08:48,940 I'm clicking on it, and nothing is happening. 182 00:08:48,940 --> 00:08:49,396 Oh, shoot, you're right. It is empty. 183 00:08:49,396 --> 00:08:50,764 We gotta get more. 184 00:08:50,764 --> 00:08:52,650 We'll have to get the nurse to get us more. 185 00:08:52,650 --> 00:08:53,266 Nathan, why are you looking at me like that? 186 00:08:53,767 --> 00:08:55,468 Like what? 187 00:08:55,468 --> 00:08:57,404 Is it bad? Do I look that bad? 188 00:08:57,404 --> 00:08:58,772 No, he's just upset, sweetheart. 189 00:08:58,772 --> 00:09:00,240 He's upset 'cause we've been 190 00:09:00,240 --> 00:09:01,708 - so worried all night long. - [Allison] Okay. Okay. 191 00:09:01,708 --> 00:09:03,810 This backhoe thing just reversed 192 00:09:03,810 --> 00:09:05,679 into the middle of the street. 193 00:09:05,679 --> 00:09:06,813 [Diane] I know, I know. 194 00:09:06,813 --> 00:09:08,481 [Allison] I didn't know what to do. 195 00:09:08,481 --> 00:09:09,716 I know, but you don't have to worry about that right now. 196 00:09:09,716 --> 00:09:11,251 - Right, Nathan? - Yeah. 197 00:09:11,251 --> 00:09:12,786 No, you just need to focus on getting better. 198 00:09:12,786 --> 00:09:13,853 That's all you need to think about, okay? 199 00:09:13,853 --> 00:09:15,522 - [Allison] Okay. - Right, Nathan? 200 00:09:15,522 --> 00:09:17,157 - Yeah. - [Nurse] Sorry to interrupt, 201 00:09:17,157 --> 00:09:18,825 but the police are here to collect a blood sample. 202 00:09:18,825 --> 00:09:20,160 Oh, no. Absolutely not. 203 00:09:20,160 --> 00:09:21,828 Now is not a good time. She is in a lot of pain. 204 00:09:21,828 --> 00:09:23,396 - You have to come back. - No. 205 00:09:23,396 --> 00:09:25,165 - [Nathan] She just woke up. - Why are the police here? 206 00:09:25,165 --> 00:09:26,800 Unfortunately, I can't. 207 00:09:26,800 --> 00:09:29,135 Legally, the sample has to be drawn as soon as possible. 208 00:09:29,135 --> 00:09:30,570 We waited for her to stabilize, 209 00:09:30,570 --> 00:09:31,671 but with an accident like this, 210 00:09:31,671 --> 00:09:33,390 it's imperative we test... 211 00:09:33,390 --> 00:09:34,808 What is he talking about? It wasn't my fault. 212 00:09:34,808 --> 00:09:37,110 - Officer, she doesn't know. - It wasn't her fault. 213 00:09:37,110 --> 00:09:38,411 With an accident of this magnitude 214 00:09:38,411 --> 00:09:39,846 involving fatalities, we're required... 215 00:09:39,846 --> 00:09:41,581 - She hasn't been told. - Fatalities? 216 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:42,882 She hasn't been told, 217 00:09:42,882 --> 00:09:44,284 - you ****ing ***hole! - [whispers] ****. 218 00:09:44,284 --> 00:09:46,152 - [Diane] She didn't know. - Mama, what's going on? 219 00:09:46,152 --> 00:09:47,420 - I'm so sorry, honey. - What is he talking about? 220 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:48,555 I'm so sorry. 221 00:09:48,555 --> 00:09:50,290 [Allison] Nathan? 222 00:09:50,290 --> 00:09:51,891 Nathan, what's going on? 223 00:09:55,762 --> 00:09:57,300 They're gone. 224 00:09:59,199 --> 00:10:00,700 They're both gone. 225 00:10:01,201 --> 00:10:02,302 Who's gone? 226 00:10:02,302 --> 00:10:03,536 [Diane] Honey... 227 00:10:07,607 --> 00:10:09,976 [melancholy music playing] 228 00:10:19,152 --> 00:10:21,721 [sighs] No, Mom. 229 00:10:22,455 --> 00:10:23,990 [gasping] 230 00:10:23,990 --> 00:10:25,925 [voice breaking] Why, Mom? 231 00:10:25,925 --> 00:10:28,280 [Diane] I'm so sorry, honey. 232 00:10:36,102 --> 00:10:38,471 [melancholy music continues] 233 00:10:50,830 --> 00:10:52,352 ["Wake Up With The Sun" playing] 234 00:10:56,890 --> 00:10:59,659 ♪ Wake up with the sun in morning ♪ 235 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:02,595 ♪ Go to sleep with the moon at night... ♪ 236 00:11:02,595 --> 00:11:04,640 [on speaker] Hey, guys! Bella here. 237 00:11:04,640 --> 00:11:05,532 Welcome to my bathroom! 238 00:11:05,532 --> 00:11:08,501 Today, we're gonna learn to cut our own hair. 239 00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:09,936 So let's jump in. 240 00:11:09,936 --> 00:11:13,273 To get started, we grab this first front layer 241 00:11:14,400 --> 00:11:15,508 just like this. 242 00:11:15,508 --> 00:11:19,450 And put your scissors at, like, a slight angle. 243 00:11:20,814 --> 00:11:23,817 Okay, it's now or never. [chuckles] 244 00:11:23,817 --> 00:11:25,151 Go for it! 245 00:11:25,151 --> 00:11:27,870 ♪ What their purpose is on earth ♪ 246 00:11:27,870 --> 00:11:29,856 ♪ To love and be loved in return... ♪ 247 00:11:29,856 --> 00:11:30,957 ****. 248 00:11:30,957 --> 00:11:32,359 [Bella] You nailed it! 249 00:11:32,359 --> 00:11:34,828 You're officially a stylist just like me! 250 00:11:34,828 --> 00:11:36,229 Now, go ahead 251 00:11:36,229 --> 00:11:38,932 and grab the same layer on the other side. 252 00:11:38,932 --> 00:11:40,967 And just go for it! 253 00:11:40,967 --> 00:11:43,303 Okay. [sighs] 254 00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:46,139 ♪ Happiness comes from inside ♪ 255 00:11:46,139 --> 00:11:48,541 ♪ At the center of your mind... ♪ 256 00:11:48,541 --> 00:11:49,642 ****. 257 00:11:49,642 --> 00:11:50,977 [Bella] Does it look even? 258 00:11:51,378 --> 00:11:52,979 Uh... 259 00:11:52,979 --> 00:11:54,748 Not exactly. No. 260 00:11:54,748 --> 00:11:57,250 Good job. You look amazing! 261 00:11:58,852 --> 00:12:00,253 Thank you. 262 00:12:00,253 --> 00:12:02,856 ♪ You can change the darkest day ♪ 263 00:12:02,856 --> 00:12:05,759 ♪ Simply by the things you say... ♪ 264 00:12:06,760 --> 00:12:08,395 Wow... 265 00:12:08,395 --> 00:12:11,431 ♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪ 266 00:12:12,999 --> 00:12:14,701 I love it. 267 00:12:14,701 --> 00:12:16,169 [indistinct tv chatter] 268 00:12:17,904 --> 00:12:21,341 Oh, my God. Allie, what the hell is all this? 269 00:12:21,341 --> 00:12:25,111 You have got to stop buying all this crap. 270 00:12:26,746 --> 00:12:30,283 Yeah, well, one of them is an acrylic nail set 271 00:12:30,283 --> 00:12:32,686 that I know you'll appreciate more than I will. 272 00:12:32,686 --> 00:12:34,540 And the others are ankle weights. 273 00:12:34,540 --> 00:12:36,560 Remember? We said we were gonna get in shape? 274 00:12:36,990 --> 00:12:38,558 Oh, my God. 275 00:12:38,558 --> 00:12:41,594 Allie, what the hell did you do to your hair? 276 00:12:41,594 --> 00:12:43,630 What? It's makeover Monday. 277 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:46,660 - It's Friday. - Oh. 278 00:12:46,660 --> 00:12:48,134 - It's so dark in here. - No, please, don't open that. 279 00:12:48,134 --> 00:12:49,502 Mama, that is so bright! 280 00:12:49,502 --> 00:12:51,571 [Diane] Did you go to physical therapy today? 281 00:12:51,571 --> 00:12:53,506 Um, well, I tried to, 282 00:12:53,506 --> 00:12:55,575 - but I overslept. - Allie... 283 00:12:55,575 --> 00:12:57,944 What? I don't need PT. I don't. 284 00:12:57,944 --> 00:12:59,346 Allie, your hair. 285 00:13:00,146 --> 00:13:01,715 You don't like it? 286 00:13:01,715 --> 00:13:03,817 I just don't understand why you would cut your own hair. 287 00:13:03,817 --> 00:13:06,186 Well, the girl said it was easy, and it was not. 288 00:13:06,186 --> 00:13:07,587 What girl? 289 00:13:07,587 --> 00:13:10,957 This girl on the Internet. She's an influencer. 290 00:13:10,957 --> 00:13:12,792 She influenced me. 291 00:13:12,792 --> 00:13:17,163 Such a pigsty in here. I am not happy about this. 292 00:13:17,163 --> 00:13:18,965 Hey, Mama, can you tell me where my pills are? 293 00:13:18,965 --> 00:13:21,468 Which ones? 294 00:13:21,468 --> 00:13:25,105 We said we were going to wean off of them. Remember? 295 00:13:25,105 --> 00:13:27,730 - Did we? - Yes. 296 00:13:27,730 --> 00:13:29,809 Because "we" are in pain 297 00:13:29,809 --> 00:13:31,678 and "we" need more. 298 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,460 They're not gonna give you more, Allie. 299 00:13:33,460 --> 00:13:34,481 - They have to! - No, they don't. 300 00:13:34,481 --> 00:13:35,982 I need them! 301 00:13:35,982 --> 00:13:37,617 Listen to me. 302 00:13:37,617 --> 00:13:39,753 You're not in physical pain anymore. 303 00:13:39,753 --> 00:13:41,855 Have you been doing the tapping thing 304 00:13:41,855 --> 00:13:43,256 that that one shrink taught you? 305 00:13:43,256 --> 00:13:45,492 Remember? For anxiety and stress, 306 00:13:45,492 --> 00:13:47,293 and it calms you down on the... 307 00:13:47,293 --> 00:13:48,995 - eyes, and then the lips. - Mom! 308 00:13:48,995 --> 00:13:50,697 [Diane] Or play your piano. That always cheers you up. 309 00:13:50,697 --> 00:13:52,650 I don't wanna talk about this, please. 310 00:13:52,650 --> 00:13:54,868 I have the worst headache! Can you just stop? 311 00:13:54,868 --> 00:13:57,804 Can you call the doctors and help me, please? 312 00:13:57,804 --> 00:13:59,572 Which one? Patel? He said no more. 313 00:13:59,572 --> 00:14:01,941 Okay, well, **** Patel. **** Patel! 314 00:14:01,941 --> 00:14:03,710 How about Goldberg, or... 315 00:14:03,710 --> 00:14:05,578 or Fong? 316 00:14:05,578 --> 00:14:07,213 - Allie... - Please, Mom. 317 00:14:07,213 --> 00:14:08,381 - Just call 'em. Just help me. - You're being a little... 318 00:14:08,381 --> 00:14:09,783 - No. - Just help me, please. 319 00:14:09,783 --> 00:14:11,384 Guess what? They all said "no." 320 00:14:11,384 --> 00:14:13,420 Patel. Goldberg. Fong. Rosenberg. 321 00:14:13,420 --> 00:14:15,321 Okay, well, I'll try Vromen. He loves me. 322 00:14:15,321 --> 00:14:17,257 Vromen is an orthodontist. 323 00:14:17,257 --> 00:14:18,725 Yeah, but he used to flirt with me 324 00:14:18,725 --> 00:14:20,827 when his fingers were really deep inside my mouth, 325 00:14:20,827 --> 00:14:23,329 and it was very inappropriate, and so, he really owes me one. 326 00:14:23,329 --> 00:14:25,231 Allie, I don't like how you're acting. 327 00:14:25,231 --> 00:14:26,433 You know what? Enough is enough. 328 00:14:26,433 --> 00:14:28,234 You gotta get out of this living room, 329 00:14:28,234 --> 00:14:29,836 take off your pajamas, 330 00:14:29,836 --> 00:14:31,738 and get your ***, and go get a job. 331 00:14:31,738 --> 00:14:32,872 I'm sick of this crap. 332 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:35,175 As if you have any right 333 00:14:35,175 --> 00:14:37,277 lecturing me on medicating myself. 334 00:14:37,277 --> 00:14:38,678 What is that supposed to mean? 335 00:14:38,678 --> 00:14:41,848 It means, Mom, you're such a ****ing hypocrite! 336 00:14:41,848 --> 00:14:44,684 You don't think that I clock how many Xanax you take? 337 00:14:44,684 --> 00:14:46,853 Or how many glasses of wine you drink? 338 00:14:46,853 --> 00:14:48,855 You think I'm just a zombie that doesn't notice anything, 339 00:14:48,855 --> 00:14:51,558 but I notice ****ing everything! I see you. 340 00:14:51,558 --> 00:14:55,161 So, can I have my pills, please? 341 00:14:55,161 --> 00:14:57,364 You're not listening. There's no more. 342 00:14:57,364 --> 00:14:58,898 [breathes heavily] 343 00:15:04,604 --> 00:15:06,506 [Diane] You get right back here, 344 00:15:06,506 --> 00:15:08,141 - you little brat! - No! 345 00:15:08,141 --> 00:15:10,577 What in the hell do you think you are doing? 346 00:15:10,577 --> 00:15:11,845 Get out of there! 347 00:15:11,845 --> 00:15:13,130 - Get out of there! - [Allison] Get off me! 348 00:15:13,130 --> 00:15:14,481 - No! Get out of there! - Let go! 349 00:15:14,481 --> 00:15:16,750 - [Diane] What are you doing? - No! Are they in here? 350 00:15:16,750 --> 00:15:19,519 - [Diane] Get back! Cut it out! - You are hurting me! 351 00:15:19,519 --> 00:15:20,887 [Diane] Stop it! 352 00:15:20,887 --> 00:15:22,655 - Stop it! Put that back! - [grunts] Mom! 353 00:15:23,757 --> 00:15:24,791 No. 354 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:26,226 - Open the door. - No. 355 00:15:26,226 --> 00:15:27,861 - Open the ****ing door! - Stop it! Stop it. 356 00:15:27,861 --> 00:15:29,195 - Mom, let me out. - No. 357 00:15:29,195 --> 00:15:31,364 Let me out. Let me out! 358 00:15:31,364 --> 00:15:32,632 Mama! 359 00:15:32,632 --> 00:15:34,401 - No! Stop it! - Give me those... Ow. 360 00:15:34,401 --> 00:15:36,603 - Stop it! - [Diane] Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow. 361 00:15:36,603 --> 00:15:38,738 - You ****ing crazy little brat. - [Allison] No! 362 00:15:39,639 --> 00:15:40,874 [groans] 363 00:15:41,341 --> 00:15:43,309 Shit! 364 00:15:43,309 --> 00:15:45,612 No, no, no, no, no, no. 365 00:15:45,612 --> 00:15:47,614 Mama, no! Please. No! 366 00:15:49,783 --> 00:15:51,818 Why the **** did you do that? 367 00:15:51,818 --> 00:15:52,986 I'm in pain! 368 00:15:52,986 --> 00:15:54,120 I don't give a shit! 369 00:15:54,120 --> 00:15:55,622 Your daughter is in actual pain! 370 00:15:55,622 --> 00:15:57,570 I don't give a shit! 371 00:15:57,570 --> 00:16:00,627 I ****ing hate you so much! 372 00:16:00,627 --> 00:16:02,262 [Diane] You're bleeding! 373 00:16:02,262 --> 00:16:04,431 [panting] 374 00:16:06,433 --> 00:16:07,801 You get back here right now. 375 00:16:07,801 --> 00:16:09,235 - ALLISON: Leave me alone. - You come back here. 376 00:16:09,235 --> 00:16:10,337 - ALLISON: Leave me alone. - I'm gonna grab your... 377 00:16:10,337 --> 00:16:11,638 [arguing continues] 378 00:16:11,638 --> 00:16:12,972 [Allison] Leave me the **** alone! 379 00:16:12,972 --> 00:16:14,140 [Diane] I'm not gonna leave you the **** alone, 380 00:16:14,140 --> 00:16:15,342 - you little brat. - Ugh! 381 00:16:17,770 --> 00:16:19,112 [mellow music playing] 382 00:16:21,140 --> 00:16:22,382 Allison! 383 00:16:22,382 --> 00:16:24,517 - Leave me alone! - [Diane] Where are you going? 384 00:16:24,517 --> 00:16:26,386 Leave me alone! 385 00:16:28,288 --> 00:16:30,457 [panting] 386 00:16:35,795 --> 00:16:37,597 [crowd applauding and cheering] 387 00:16:37,597 --> 00:16:39,399 [Daniel] Let's go, Ryan! 388 00:16:40,700 --> 00:16:42,535 Attagirl! Attagirl! 389 00:16:46,740 --> 00:16:47,874 [crowd groans] 390 00:16:49,175 --> 00:16:51,177 ****! [sighs] 391 00:16:51,177 --> 00:16:52,946 So you're the Ryan that's been talking to Damien? 392 00:16:52,946 --> 00:16:54,180 Get the **** outta my face. 393 00:16:54,180 --> 00:16:55,415 See, you talk to people like that, ****, 394 00:16:55,415 --> 00:16:56,950 that's why you have no ****ing friends. 395 00:16:56,950 --> 00:16:58,118 Why are you hitting on me, huh? 396 00:16:58,118 --> 00:16:59,586 Uh, I'm not the one named "Ryan." 397 00:16:59,586 --> 00:17:01,321 It's a ****ing dyke's name. You a dyke? 398 00:17:01,321 --> 00:17:04,257 - Only when I **** your mother. - Oh, at least I have a mother. 399 00:17:07,694 --> 00:17:09,262 What the **** did you just say to me? 400 00:17:09,996 --> 00:17:11,264 Hey! 401 00:17:11,264 --> 00:17:14,501 Stay away from Damien, you ****ing ******. 402 00:17:15,468 --> 00:17:16,503 Hey! 403 00:17:16,503 --> 00:17:18,471 Break that up, Ref! 404 00:17:18,471 --> 00:17:19,873 - [Ryan grunts] - [whistle blowing] 405 00:17:19,873 --> 00:17:20,974 [referee] Break it up. Break it up! 406 00:17:21,274 --> 00:17:22,308 Hey! 407 00:17:23,209 --> 00:17:24,911 [whistle continues blowing] 408 00:17:24,911 --> 00:17:27,981 [referee] Hey! That's it! You're both out. Red card. 409 00:17:27,981 --> 00:17:29,349 [Daniel] Ryan, what the hell was that? 410 00:17:29,349 --> 00:17:30,850 [huffs] I quit. 411 00:17:30,850 --> 00:17:33,153 [tearfully] I quit. I hate this ****ing game. 412 00:17:33,153 --> 00:17:35,188 Why? Because you got in a fight? 413 00:17:35,188 --> 00:17:37,223 Come on, that's not you. 414 00:17:37,223 --> 00:17:39,359 You're tough. You're not a quitter. 415 00:17:39,359 --> 00:17:42,429 - She made fun of Mom. - What? 416 00:17:42,429 --> 00:17:44,597 She said, "At least I have a mom." 417 00:17:47,367 --> 00:17:48,935 Well, **** her. 418 00:17:52,639 --> 00:17:53,740 Well... 419 00:17:55,750 --> 00:17:57,510 And what kind of a punch was that? 420 00:17:57,510 --> 00:17:59,779 You throw this hard right hook 421 00:17:59,779 --> 00:18:02,449 and then you leave yourself wide open for the jab. 422 00:18:03,516 --> 00:18:05,218 We're gonna have to work on that. 423 00:18:06,820 --> 00:18:08,822 [mellow music playing] 424 00:18:16,229 --> 00:18:18,231 [breathing heavily] 425 00:18:22,936 --> 00:18:24,104 Hi. 426 00:18:24,104 --> 00:18:26,673 I'm here to get a prescription refilled. 427 00:18:26,673 --> 00:18:29,509 Last name, Johnson. Birthday, August 24th. 428 00:18:29,509 --> 00:18:31,478 Okay. For which medication? 429 00:18:31,478 --> 00:18:34,581 Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin. 430 00:18:34,581 --> 00:18:36,783 It says here you are out of refills. 431 00:18:36,783 --> 00:18:39,386 I see you've been on them for over a year now. 432 00:18:39,386 --> 00:18:41,488 Your doctor's probably trying to wean you off of them. 433 00:18:41,488 --> 00:18:43,857 As I'm sure you know, they can be very addictive. 434 00:18:43,857 --> 00:18:45,725 Oh, really? I hadn't ****ing heard that. 435 00:18:47,594 --> 00:18:48,728 Sorry. 436 00:18:48,728 --> 00:18:50,497 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 437 00:18:51,231 --> 00:18:53,400 Listen... 438 00:18:53,400 --> 00:18:55,301 I was in a really bad car accident, 439 00:18:55,301 --> 00:18:58,405 and I need them, because I'm in a lot of pain. 440 00:18:58,405 --> 00:18:59,439 Just now? 441 00:19:00,674 --> 00:19:01,808 What? No. 442 00:19:01,808 --> 00:19:04,377 Your elbow is bleeding. 443 00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:06,146 Oh, shit. Look, it's fine. 444 00:19:06,146 --> 00:19:07,681 Let me go get you a bandage. 445 00:19:07,681 --> 00:19:09,549 I don't need a ****ing bandage. It's fine. 446 00:19:13,820 --> 00:19:14,888 Then take this. 447 00:19:17,724 --> 00:19:19,893 Oh, my goodness. Thank you so much. Thank you. 448 00:19:22,195 --> 00:19:24,864 I feel so much better now. Thank you. 449 00:19:25,398 --> 00:19:26,733 ****ing ****. 450 00:19:32,305 --> 00:19:34,307 [hip-hop song playing] 451 00:19:38,780 --> 00:19:39,979 [instructor on speaker] Burn, but guess what that burn is? 452 00:19:39,979 --> 00:19:43,490 That burn is in your soul. It is lifting you up. 453 00:19:43,490 --> 00:19:44,484 You are climbing that mountain 454 00:19:44,484 --> 00:19:46,419 and you are reaching higher heights 455 00:19:46,419 --> 00:19:48,540 than you ever have before. 456 00:19:48,540 --> 00:19:49,422 Keep pedaling. 457 00:19:54,294 --> 00:19:56,629 [breathing heavily] 458 00:20:05,739 --> 00:20:08,800 [unnerving music playing] 459 00:20:18,885 --> 00:20:20,887 [inhales sharply] 460 00:20:26,593 --> 00:20:27,627 [sniffles] 461 00:20:35,402 --> 00:20:36,803 [gurgles] 462 00:20:37,537 --> 00:20:38,905 [swallows] 463 00:20:39,606 --> 00:20:41,410 [exhales sharply] 464 00:20:42,275 --> 00:20:43,843 [whimpers] 465 00:20:47,947 --> 00:20:49,716 [panting] 466 00:20:53,953 --> 00:20:57,123 [back-up alarm beeping] 467 00:20:57,123 --> 00:20:59,259 [horn blaring] 468 00:21:02,295 --> 00:21:04,364 [gasping] 469 00:21:06,433 --> 00:21:08,435 [panting] 470 00:21:17,377 --> 00:21:19,512 [mellow music playing] 471 00:21:25,285 --> 00:21:27,520 - [gasps] Hi. - Hi! 472 00:21:27,520 --> 00:21:29,322 - Hey! - Hi! 473 00:21:30,457 --> 00:21:31,591 - [giggles] - [Allison] Hi. 474 00:21:31,591 --> 00:21:34,194 Oh, my God. I love your hair! 475 00:21:34,194 --> 00:21:37,864 - It is so chic. Who did it? - Ah, thank you! Um... 476 00:21:37,864 --> 00:21:40,467 I, uh, got a new gal. 477 00:21:40,467 --> 00:21:43,360 Well, I gotta get her number. [laughs] 478 00:21:43,360 --> 00:21:44,471 Okay. 479 00:21:44,471 --> 00:21:47,440 Oh, I was so happy that you reached out. 480 00:21:47,440 --> 00:21:50,410 Because you weren't responding to any of my texts. 481 00:21:50,410 --> 00:21:52,278 Of course, I wanted to give you your space, 482 00:21:52,278 --> 00:21:53,980 but I was worried. 483 00:21:53,980 --> 00:21:55,448 - [waiter] Hi, good morning. - Hey! 484 00:21:55,448 --> 00:21:56,750 Can I get you anything? 485 00:21:56,750 --> 00:21:59,619 Uh, yeah. Can I please get a Jack and Coke? 486 00:22:00,153 --> 00:22:02,155 Uh... 487 00:22:02,155 --> 00:22:04,591 Sorry, our bar doesn't actually open until 11:00. 488 00:22:04,591 --> 00:22:05,925 Oh. 489 00:22:05,925 --> 00:22:09,429 Uh, okay. In that case, I'll get a black coffee. 490 00:22:09,429 --> 00:22:11,197 - Oat milk latte. - You got it. 491 00:22:14,501 --> 00:22:16,903 So, how's, how's work? 492 00:22:16,903 --> 00:22:18,710 You're still at Purdue, right? 493 00:22:18,710 --> 00:22:19,639 - Still repping Purdue. - Yeah. 494 00:22:19,639 --> 00:22:21,410 You'd think it would've been a shit show 495 00:22:21,410 --> 00:22:22,876 because of the bankruptcy and all the lawsuits. 496 00:22:22,876 --> 00:22:24,744 - Mm. - But, between you and me, 497 00:22:24,744 --> 00:22:26,613 my numbers have actually increased. 498 00:22:26,613 --> 00:22:27,881 Wow. 499 00:22:27,881 --> 00:22:31,217 My bonus last quarter was insane. 500 00:22:31,217 --> 00:22:33,386 - It sells itself. [chuckles] - Yeah. 501 00:22:33,386 --> 00:22:34,621 Karl Marx was wrong. 502 00:22:34,621 --> 00:22:36,756 Turns out the opiate of the masses 503 00:22:36,756 --> 00:22:37,824 is opium. 504 00:22:37,824 --> 00:22:39,626 [both chuckle] 505 00:22:42,595 --> 00:22:43,763 Anyway. 506 00:22:43,763 --> 00:22:45,310 How are you doing? 507 00:22:45,310 --> 00:22:46,533 When are you going back to work? 508 00:22:46,533 --> 00:22:47,901 [smacks lips] Listen, I'm just gonna cut right to it 509 00:22:47,901 --> 00:22:48,968 because you're my friend 510 00:22:48,968 --> 00:22:50,970 and I know you're gonna understand. 511 00:22:50,970 --> 00:22:52,172 Um... 512 00:22:53,273 --> 00:22:55,909 I'm still in a lot of pain. 513 00:22:55,909 --> 00:22:57,410 Oh, Allie... 514 00:22:57,410 --> 00:23:01,548 I know, and my docs are cutting my Oxy scripts 515 00:23:01,548 --> 00:23:03,817 because everyone's really freaked out 516 00:23:03,817 --> 00:23:05,285 about addiction these days. 517 00:23:05,285 --> 00:23:07,120 Uh... [hesitates] 518 00:23:07,120 --> 00:23:09,823 So, I was wondering if it would be possible... 519 00:23:09,823 --> 00:23:11,691 Allie, please tell me you didn't invite me 520 00:23:11,691 --> 00:23:13,960 to breakfast to hit me up for pills. 521 00:23:14,361 --> 00:23:15,495 No. 522 00:23:15,495 --> 00:23:17,497 - No, no, no, no, no. - [sighs] 523 00:23:17,497 --> 00:23:19,699 It's just until I can get in, and see my docs. 524 00:23:19,699 --> 00:23:21,868 Um, because my ****ing mother, 525 00:23:21,868 --> 00:23:24,671 she threw my last refill into the toilet, so... 526 00:23:25,710 --> 00:23:26,706 No way. 527 00:23:26,706 --> 00:23:28,408 Are you ****ing with me right now? 528 00:23:28,408 --> 00:23:29,876 No. 529 00:23:29,876 --> 00:23:31,878 If you have a problem, you need to get some help. 530 00:23:31,878 --> 00:23:34,314 I can help you find the right rehab. 531 00:23:34,314 --> 00:23:36,383 Please don't hand me a pamphlet. 532 00:23:36,383 --> 00:23:37,884 I already have one. 533 00:23:37,884 --> 00:23:40,220 Well, then find them on the street if you have to. 534 00:23:40,220 --> 00:23:42,255 Every dive bar in this town's got a guy 535 00:23:42,255 --> 00:23:44,424 with a pharmacy in his front pocket. 536 00:23:44,424 --> 00:23:46,292 You know, Becka, 537 00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:49,662 I really didn't want to do this. 538 00:23:51,431 --> 00:23:52,532 But... 539 00:23:54,467 --> 00:23:55,902 there's a handful of things 540 00:23:55,902 --> 00:23:59,172 that happened at your bachelorette party 541 00:23:59,172 --> 00:24:02,742 that I'm pretty sure you want to be kept private. 542 00:24:02,742 --> 00:24:06,413 Allison, are you trying to blackmail me for OxyContin? 543 00:24:06,413 --> 00:24:08,248 I'm just asking you for help. 544 00:24:09,349 --> 00:24:11,584 Like, as a friend. 545 00:24:13,420 --> 00:24:15,588 But you did blow that dancer. [chuckles] 546 00:24:16,556 --> 00:24:17,824 It happened for a second. 547 00:24:17,824 --> 00:24:20,927 I know, I know. But you did it, and I saw. 548 00:24:21,928 --> 00:24:23,290 It never went in my mouth. 549 00:24:23,290 --> 00:24:26,599 It was in your mouth. 550 00:24:26,599 --> 00:24:27,867 Past the tip. 551 00:24:28,835 --> 00:24:31,338 Past the ****ing tip. 552 00:24:32,372 --> 00:24:33,740 Allie, you need help. 553 00:24:34,908 --> 00:24:36,576 Destroy my life if you have to. 554 00:24:36,576 --> 00:24:40,180 But for the love of God, get some ****ing help! 555 00:24:40,180 --> 00:24:41,648 Okay, bye. **** you. 556 00:24:41,648 --> 00:24:43,830 **** you! 557 00:24:47,954 --> 00:24:49,220 [grunts] 558 00:24:49,220 --> 00:24:51,324 Uh... I don't... Oh, ****. 559 00:24:51,324 --> 00:24:53,727 [sighs] 560 00:24:53,727 --> 00:24:55,395 I don't have any money. I'm really sorry. 561 00:24:55,395 --> 00:24:56,763 I can't pay for those. 562 00:24:56,763 --> 00:24:59,232 That's okay. Take it. 563 00:24:59,232 --> 00:25:01,167 I mixed in a little tequila for you. 564 00:25:05,805 --> 00:25:07,400 [slurps] 565 00:25:09,776 --> 00:25:11,111 That's disgusting. 566 00:25:12,645 --> 00:25:13,646 Thank you. 567 00:25:16,750 --> 00:25:19,519 [woman] Mr. Adams, we really wanna do 568 00:25:19,519 --> 00:25:21,688 everything we can to help Ryan. 569 00:25:23,957 --> 00:25:25,558 But she needs to take some responsibility 570 00:25:25,558 --> 00:25:27,560 for her behavior. 571 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:30,663 That girl does not listen to a thing I say. 572 00:25:32,332 --> 00:25:33,800 To be honest, 573 00:25:33,800 --> 00:25:35,535 I was hoping you were calling me in here 574 00:25:35,535 --> 00:25:37,237 to give me some advice. 575 00:25:38,972 --> 00:25:40,807 I need help. 576 00:25:40,807 --> 00:25:42,809 [man] It's just that we're a public school. 577 00:25:42,809 --> 00:25:45,712 We have 2,000 kids to look after. 578 00:25:45,712 --> 00:25:47,280 We don't have the bandwidth 579 00:25:47,280 --> 00:25:49,949 to micromanage her in ways that she deserves and needs. 580 00:25:49,949 --> 00:25:51,685 So, what are you saying? 581 00:25:52,686 --> 00:25:54,387 I will give her an extra strike 582 00:25:54,387 --> 00:25:56,823 because of the circumstances. 583 00:25:56,823 --> 00:25:58,458 But if she doesn't tone down her language 584 00:25:58,458 --> 00:26:00,126 with her teachers 585 00:26:00,126 --> 00:26:01,995 and gets into one more fight, 586 00:26:02,962 --> 00:26:04,297 we'll have to expel her. 587 00:26:23,583 --> 00:26:24,751 [chair scraps] 588 00:26:25,985 --> 00:26:28,855 Hi, can I get a double tequila, please? 589 00:26:36,830 --> 00:26:37,831 Allison. 590 00:26:38,765 --> 00:26:40,867 Yo, I know you. 591 00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:43,300 It's Mark. 592 00:26:43,970 --> 00:26:45,138 Yeah, hey. 593 00:26:45,138 --> 00:26:47,700 Yeah. 594 00:26:47,700 --> 00:26:49,642 I haven't seen you since high school. 595 00:26:49,642 --> 00:26:52,780 This is Diego. You remember Diego? 596 00:26:52,780 --> 00:26:53,279 - Hey. - [Diego] Hey. 597 00:26:54,314 --> 00:26:56,820 You just having a little breakfast? 598 00:26:56,820 --> 00:26:58,885 Uh... Um... I just... 599 00:27:00,487 --> 00:27:02,422 I just needed to get out of the house. 600 00:27:02,422 --> 00:27:04,491 [chuckles] Yeah, I feel that. 601 00:27:04,491 --> 00:27:06,926 I heard what happened to you. The accident. 602 00:27:06,926 --> 00:27:08,940 Saw it in the Star Ledger. Sorry. 603 00:27:08,940 --> 00:27:09,529 What happened? 604 00:27:09,529 --> 00:27:10,764 [Diego] She was in that accident on the turnpike. 605 00:27:10,764 --> 00:27:12,332 Two people died. 606 00:27:12,332 --> 00:27:13,900 Holy shit. 607 00:27:14,934 --> 00:27:16,336 That was you. 608 00:27:17,303 --> 00:27:19,305 Oh, bro. 609 00:27:19,305 --> 00:27:21,241 That would've ****ed me up. 610 00:27:21,241 --> 00:27:22,475 It wasn't my fault. 611 00:27:22,475 --> 00:27:25,780 Yeah, I'm sure. But, like, still... 612 00:27:30,950 --> 00:27:31,918 [Mark] Damn. 613 00:27:35,355 --> 00:27:38,358 [exhales sharply] Hey, can I have another one, please? 614 00:27:39,659 --> 00:27:40,827 You having a tough day? 615 00:27:42,620 --> 00:27:43,396 Just a day. 616 00:27:44,831 --> 00:27:47,100 I just wanna get as far away from here as possible. 617 00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:48,468 Yo, there's this app, 618 00:27:48,468 --> 00:27:49,836 it tells you the exact opposite 619 00:27:49,836 --> 00:27:51,771 of where you are on the globe is. 620 00:27:51,771 --> 00:27:53,840 That's where you should go. I'll look it up for you. 621 00:27:53,840 --> 00:27:56,409 [Mark] Yo, that's how I feel every ****in' day of my life. 622 00:27:56,409 --> 00:27:58,845 I can't seem to escape this town. 623 00:27:58,845 --> 00:28:00,513 It's like there's a force field around it 624 00:28:00,513 --> 00:28:02,148 or something. 625 00:28:02,148 --> 00:28:04,851 Like, some people know how to get outta here. 626 00:28:04,851 --> 00:28:06,386 But the rest of us, 627 00:28:06,386 --> 00:28:08,121 we just keep banging our heads up against the glass. 628 00:28:08,121 --> 00:28:10,290 It's Perth. That's the city 629 00:28:10,290 --> 00:28:12,158 on the other side of the globe from here. 630 00:28:12,158 --> 00:28:14,600 You should go to Perth. 631 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,596 I don't have enough money to get to Perth, 632 00:28:16,596 --> 00:28:18,980 but thank you. 633 00:28:18,980 --> 00:28:20,660 Aren't you engaged to Nathan Adams? 634 00:28:21,267 --> 00:28:23,236 I was, yeah. 635 00:28:23,236 --> 00:28:25,805 He was an amazing running back in high school. 636 00:28:25,805 --> 00:28:26,973 He used to run every ****ing play. 637 00:28:26,973 --> 00:28:28,108 - You remember him, Mark? - [Mark] Yeah. 638 00:28:28,108 --> 00:28:29,242 [Diego] Every ****ing play, 639 00:28:29,242 --> 00:28:30,844 they'd come on the PA system like, 640 00:28:30,844 --> 00:28:34,447 "Nathan Adams, the ball carrier." 641 00:28:34,447 --> 00:28:36,416 He was the whole ****ing team. You remember him, Mark? 642 00:28:36,416 --> 00:28:38,284 Yeah, I remember him. 643 00:28:38,284 --> 00:28:39,853 Isn't he deaf? 644 00:28:39,853 --> 00:28:43,256 Uh... In one ear. Since birth. 645 00:28:43,256 --> 00:28:44,557 Wow, that's impressive 646 00:28:44,557 --> 00:28:46,159 that he could be, like, that good, you know? 647 00:28:46,159 --> 00:28:47,827 And half deaf. 648 00:28:47,827 --> 00:28:49,129 So you're, like, single? 649 00:28:49,129 --> 00:28:52,165 [Mark chuckles] Yo. Shut the **** up, Diego. 650 00:28:52,165 --> 00:28:54,601 What? You think she's gonna date you? 651 00:28:54,601 --> 00:28:56,302 Where are you gonna take her? You live with your mom. 652 00:28:56,302 --> 00:28:59,139 [chuckles] God damn. 653 00:28:59,139 --> 00:29:00,340 Allison, I'm sorry. 654 00:29:00,340 --> 00:29:03,443 My ****ing friend has no tact at all. 655 00:29:03,443 --> 00:29:06,179 [chuckles] We're not used to having 656 00:29:06,179 --> 00:29:08,848 pretty girls such as yourself come in here. 657 00:29:08,848 --> 00:29:10,583 So, you gotta excuse his 658 00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:12,318 lack of decor. 659 00:29:14,587 --> 00:29:15,789 Decorum. 660 00:29:16,623 --> 00:29:17,724 What? 661 00:29:18,858 --> 00:29:21,127 "Decor" is 662 00:29:21,127 --> 00:29:25,198 the Bud Light lamp above my head. 663 00:29:26,299 --> 00:29:28,935 "Decorum" is his behavior. 664 00:29:30,570 --> 00:29:32,872 Neither is currently ideal. 665 00:29:34,174 --> 00:29:36,242 [men cheering] 666 00:29:37,577 --> 00:29:39,379 Hey, can I ask you something, like, 667 00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:42,182 between us old friends? 668 00:29:42,182 --> 00:29:44,451 You weren't our friend. You were popular. 669 00:29:44,451 --> 00:29:46,619 - You were a ****, actually. - All right. Diego. 670 00:29:48,355 --> 00:29:51,157 That's old shit. Right, Allison? 671 00:29:51,157 --> 00:29:53,626 We're past that. We're grown-ups. 672 00:29:53,626 --> 00:29:56,529 Those of us stuck behind this force field, 673 00:29:56,529 --> 00:29:59,499 - we gotta stick together. - [Allison] Yeah. 674 00:29:59,499 --> 00:30:03,703 Um, do you know where I could get some Oxy? 675 00:30:03,703 --> 00:30:05,238 [chuckling] God damn, girl. 676 00:30:05,238 --> 00:30:07,407 No foreplay. No nothing. 677 00:30:07,407 --> 00:30:10,643 No "How are you? How's your family?" 678 00:30:10,643 --> 00:30:12,780 No, we don't **** with pills. 679 00:30:12,846 --> 00:30:14,247 I remember in high school 680 00:30:14,247 --> 00:30:16,182 you were the guys that could, like, 681 00:30:17,830 --> 00:30:18,284 get anything. 682 00:30:18,284 --> 00:30:20,253 And now you're just buttering us up. 683 00:30:21,855 --> 00:30:23,957 I don't have any money. 684 00:30:23,957 --> 00:30:26,393 How are you gonna pay for that tequila? 685 00:30:26,393 --> 00:30:29,950 I hadn't got that far yet. [sighs] 686 00:30:29,950 --> 00:30:30,997 - Is that Rolex real? - Wait a second. 687 00:30:31,698 --> 00:30:33,700 Wait. Allie Johnson. 688 00:30:33,700 --> 00:30:36,670 Miss lovely Allie Johnson. [grunts] 689 00:30:37,804 --> 00:30:39,939 You just stroll in here. 690 00:30:39,939 --> 00:30:41,841 [chuckling] You got no money. 691 00:30:41,841 --> 00:30:44,310 And you expect us to get you Oxy? 692 00:30:44,310 --> 00:30:47,130 For free, and then you want us to pay for your drink. 693 00:30:48,548 --> 00:30:50,160 Why the **** would we do that? 694 00:30:51,518 --> 00:30:52,952 Nostalgia? 695 00:30:53,987 --> 00:30:55,422 Old friends? 696 00:30:55,422 --> 00:30:57,230 You thought you were such hot shit in high school. 697 00:30:57,230 --> 00:30:58,224 You're no ****ing different now. 698 00:30:58,224 --> 00:30:59,693 All right. Shut up. 699 00:31:00,930 --> 00:31:01,528 Sorry. 700 00:31:01,528 --> 00:31:04,864 This guy. No decorum. 701 00:31:04,864 --> 00:31:06,320 No, he's right. 702 00:31:07,434 --> 00:31:10,300 I didn't think I was better than you. I knew it. 703 00:31:11,370 --> 00:31:12,706 I looked down on guys like you. 704 00:31:14,174 --> 00:31:17,110 I thought you were Jersey trash 705 00:31:17,110 --> 00:31:19,713 that would never be able to make it out of town. 706 00:31:20,613 --> 00:31:22,148 [snorts, laughs] 707 00:31:23,490 --> 00:31:24,584 ****ing ****. 708 00:31:24,584 --> 00:31:26,419 But now you're sitting here 709 00:31:27,153 --> 00:31:28,788 right beside us 710 00:31:28,788 --> 00:31:31,458 and you're looking for a fix. 711 00:31:31,458 --> 00:31:33,260 A favor. 712 00:31:33,260 --> 00:31:35,261 The favor is a fix. 713 00:31:36,796 --> 00:31:39,650 - You're a ****ing junkie now. - No, I'm not. 714 00:31:39,650 --> 00:31:41,167 - You're a ****ing junkie. - No. 715 00:31:41,167 --> 00:31:42,268 - [Mark] Yeah, you are. - Yeah, you are. 716 00:31:42,268 --> 00:31:43,636 Come on. You're a ****in' junkie. 717 00:31:43,636 --> 00:31:44,938 No. I'm not like you. 718 00:31:44,938 --> 00:31:46,373 Allie Johnson, 719 00:31:46,373 --> 00:31:48,775 you're so much more like who you think we are 720 00:31:48,775 --> 00:31:50,310 than we actually are. 721 00:31:52,178 --> 00:31:54,581 Come on. Say it, say it, say it. 722 00:31:54,581 --> 00:31:56,349 "I'm a ****ing junkie." You might like it. 723 00:31:56,349 --> 00:31:58,184 **** you. It's a pill. 724 00:31:58,184 --> 00:32:01,321 It's heroin in a pretty little dress. 725 00:32:01,321 --> 00:32:03,230 I thought you were the nice one. 726 00:32:04,357 --> 00:32:06,960 Why don't you say it? Say... Say, 727 00:32:07,827 --> 00:32:10,230 "I'm a ****ing junkie," 728 00:32:10,230 --> 00:32:12,799 and then I'll get you whatever you want. Anything. 729 00:32:14,334 --> 00:32:17,604 Say it. Just, like, just come out with it. 730 00:32:17,604 --> 00:32:18,772 I'm currently reliant... 731 00:32:18,772 --> 00:32:22,308 No, that's not what I ****ing said. 732 00:32:22,308 --> 00:32:25,178 You sneaky little ****. That's not what I ****ing said. 733 00:32:25,178 --> 00:32:26,413 - Is that what I said? - No. 734 00:32:26,413 --> 00:32:28,248 That is not what I said. 735 00:32:30,116 --> 00:32:32,619 Say you're a ****in' junkie. Look at me. 736 00:32:32,619 --> 00:32:33,787 Look at me! 737 00:32:34,788 --> 00:32:37,624 Look me in the eyes, and say, 738 00:32:37,624 --> 00:32:40,827 "I'm a ****ing junkie." 739 00:32:40,827 --> 00:32:42,228 Say it! 740 00:32:46,332 --> 00:32:48,100 I'm a ****ing junkie. 741 00:32:52,205 --> 00:32:53,239 Good girl. 742 00:32:55,775 --> 00:32:57,210 Beth, I got these tequilas. 743 00:32:58,511 --> 00:33:00,814 I'm sorry for raising my voice. 744 00:33:00,814 --> 00:33:01,981 We're just catching up. 745 00:33:02,582 --> 00:33:04,250 Allie, this is Beth. 746 00:33:04,250 --> 00:33:06,286 She's divine. She's the best. 747 00:33:06,286 --> 00:33:08,521 [soft music playing] 748 00:33:13,693 --> 00:33:15,280 That's not Oxy. 749 00:33:15,795 --> 00:33:16,996 Same shit. 750 00:33:30,100 --> 00:33:32,450 [coughs hoarsely] 751 00:33:32,912 --> 00:33:33,913 [inhales sharply] 752 00:33:36,249 --> 00:33:37,384 [exhales] 753 00:33:37,384 --> 00:33:39,419 [breathing heavily] 754 00:33:42,422 --> 00:33:43,923 [vomits] 755 00:33:43,923 --> 00:33:45,425 [groaning] 756 00:33:56,269 --> 00:33:57,437 Thank you. Ooh, she just walked in. 757 00:33:58,738 --> 00:34:00,206 Oh, my God. I was so worried about you. 758 00:34:00,206 --> 00:34:01,307 Where were you? 759 00:34:01,307 --> 00:34:04,310 - I'm so sorry. - Oh, babe, oh. 760 00:34:04,310 --> 00:34:06,212 - I'm sorry. - Uh-huh. No... 761 00:34:06,212 --> 00:34:07,914 I need help. 762 00:34:07,914 --> 00:34:09,282 I know. I never should have 763 00:34:09,282 --> 00:34:10,750 flushed those pills down the toilet. 764 00:34:10,750 --> 00:34:13,286 I had no right. I'm so sorry. I was just so worried. 765 00:34:13,286 --> 00:34:14,487 Can you help me, please, Mama? 766 00:34:14,487 --> 00:34:16,289 Yes, yes, I already did. 767 00:34:16,289 --> 00:34:18,324 Here, I got these from Linda. 768 00:34:18,324 --> 00:34:19,926 She's the woman who works next to me 769 00:34:19,926 --> 00:34:21,594 in the toy kiosk at the mall. 770 00:34:21,594 --> 00:34:23,630 Her doctor gave them to her 771 00:34:23,630 --> 00:34:24,864 after she got punched in the face by a shoplifter, 772 00:34:24,864 --> 00:34:26,660 but she said she didn't need them. 773 00:34:26,660 --> 00:34:27,367 She swore by the neck brace. 774 00:34:27,367 --> 00:34:29,169 But you need 'em, honey. So here. 775 00:34:29,169 --> 00:34:31,805 That right there is a gift from Linda, okay? 776 00:34:31,805 --> 00:34:33,373 And we can worry about kicking it later. 777 00:34:33,373 --> 00:34:34,808 Let's not rush things. 778 00:34:34,808 --> 00:34:37,430 What matters the most is that you're home safe. 779 00:34:37,430 --> 00:34:40,213 Oh, babe. [kisses] Oh, my baby. 780 00:34:44,818 --> 00:34:46,353 Hey, Ry? 781 00:34:46,353 --> 00:34:47,954 [muffled music playing on speaker] 782 00:34:47,954 --> 00:34:49,889 Got Chinese food! 783 00:34:50,790 --> 00:34:53,326 I got sweet and sour chicken, 784 00:34:53,326 --> 00:34:56,960 beef with broccoli, steamed rice. 785 00:34:56,830 --> 00:34:57,797 Where are ya? 786 00:34:58,465 --> 00:34:59,766 Hey, Ry? 787 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:02,135 Ryan! 788 00:35:02,135 --> 00:35:03,803 [hip-hop music playing on speaker] 789 00:35:03,803 --> 00:35:06,239 [gasps] What the... Daniel, get out! 790 00:35:06,239 --> 00:35:07,540 - [boy whimpering] - Hey. Hey! 791 00:35:07,540 --> 00:35:09,242 [boy] Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay. 792 00:35:09,242 --> 00:35:11,344 Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down! It's not what you think. 793 00:35:11,344 --> 00:35:13,580 I'm pretty sure it is what I think. How old are you? 794 00:35:13,580 --> 00:35:14,781 Daniel! Get off of him. 795 00:35:14,781 --> 00:35:16,116 Shut up! 796 00:35:16,116 --> 00:35:17,717 I asked you a question, boy. How old are you? 797 00:35:17,717 --> 00:35:20,860 - I'm 20. - She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop. 798 00:35:20,860 --> 00:35:21,654 Looks like you picked the wrong girl. 799 00:35:21,654 --> 00:35:22,856 You're choking him! 800 00:35:22,856 --> 00:35:24,691 She said she was 18 online. 801 00:35:24,691 --> 00:35:27,394 If I ever catch you near my granddaughter again, 802 00:35:27,394 --> 00:35:29,290 I'm gonna rip your ****ing **** off 803 00:35:29,290 --> 00:35:30,663 and shove it down your throat. You feel me? 804 00:35:30,663 --> 00:35:32,298 [gasping] Yes, sir. Yes. 805 00:35:32,298 --> 00:35:34,100 Get the **** out of here. 806 00:35:34,100 --> 00:35:36,536 Yes, sir. Uh, I need my clothes. 807 00:35:36,536 --> 00:35:39,239 They're in my house. They're my clothes now. 808 00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:40,407 Run away! 809 00:35:42,809 --> 00:35:43,943 [Ryan] Daniel! 810 00:35:43,943 --> 00:35:45,979 Get out of my ****ing room! 811 00:35:45,979 --> 00:35:47,313 What the ****? 812 00:35:47,313 --> 00:35:49,315 [loudly] Hey, look, everybody! 813 00:35:49,315 --> 00:35:51,818 Statutory rapist from Williamsburg! 814 00:35:51,818 --> 00:35:53,190 I need my keys! 815 00:35:53,190 --> 00:35:56,389 Oh, his keys! His keys! Look at him! 816 00:35:56,389 --> 00:35:59,726 He's scrambling to his car! Statutory rapist! 817 00:35:59,726 --> 00:36:00,960 Hey, Belinda, 818 00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:03,463 I found this fool in bed with my Ryan. 819 00:36:03,463 --> 00:36:05,331 She said... She said she was 18 online. 820 00:36:05,331 --> 00:36:06,766 You're a ****boy. 821 00:36:06,766 --> 00:36:09,350 He's a ****boy! That's what the kids call them! 822 00:36:09,350 --> 00:36:11,604 Get out of our neighborhood, ****boy! 823 00:36:11,604 --> 00:36:13,173 [grunting] Okay. Okay! 824 00:36:13,173 --> 00:36:14,274 [Belinda] Get out of here, ****boy! 825 00:36:14,274 --> 00:36:15,342 All right! All right! 826 00:36:15,342 --> 00:36:16,609 Right ****ing now! 827 00:36:16,609 --> 00:36:18,712 - Wet, flaccid ****boy! - [boy] Okay, okay! 828 00:36:18,712 --> 00:36:19,779 Okay! 829 00:36:23,160 --> 00:36:25,510 I cannot believe you just did that! 830 00:36:25,510 --> 00:36:26,152 Give me your phone. 831 00:36:27,487 --> 00:36:29,222 Give me the ****ing phone right now! 832 00:36:34,294 --> 00:36:35,762 You're grounded. 833 00:36:35,762 --> 00:36:39,320 You hear me? You're grounded until... 834 00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:42,168 Shit, I can't think of when you won't be grounded. 835 00:36:42,168 --> 00:36:44,400 You can't just lock me up, Daniel. 836 00:36:44,400 --> 00:36:46,940 For the last ****ing time, Ryan, 837 00:36:46,940 --> 00:36:49,900 you call me "Grandpa." 838 00:36:49,900 --> 00:36:50,100 [door slams] 839 00:36:51,745 --> 00:36:55,515 [Ryan crying] I hate you! I ****ing hate you! 840 00:36:55,515 --> 00:36:57,784 [unnerving music playing] 841 00:37:03,890 --> 00:37:05,492 [breathing shakily] 842 00:38:05,151 --> 00:38:07,887 ["To the Mountains" playing] 843 00:38:11,191 --> 00:38:15,280 ♪ Oh, I'm headed to the mountains ♪ 844 00:38:17,297 --> 00:38:20,767 ♪ I'll be back in a week or two ♪ 845 00:38:22,602 --> 00:38:24,871 ♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪ 846 00:38:24,871 --> 00:38:27,607 ♪ 'Cause I won't pick up for you ♪ 847 00:38:30,877 --> 00:38:33,546 ♪ I've got some things I neeed to do ♪ 848 00:38:48,795 --> 00:38:53,330 ♪ Oh, I'm headed to the mountains ♪ 849 00:38:55,350 --> 00:38:58,400 ♪ The only place I feel at peace ♪ 850 00:39:00,607 --> 00:39:03,760 ♪ And I knew you'd come after me ♪ 851 00:39:03,760 --> 00:39:04,244 ♪ So I threw away your keys... ♪ 852 00:39:04,244 --> 00:39:05,812 [indistinct chatter] 853 00:39:07,514 --> 00:39:14,200 ♪ But I know you'd never go when I say leave ♪ 854 00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:19,159 ♪ I'm headed to the mountains don't wait up for me ♪ 855 00:39:19,159 --> 00:39:21,594 [Allison breathing heavily] 856 00:39:28,935 --> 00:39:30,637 Allison, don't go. 857 00:39:32,372 --> 00:39:35,675 - This was a mistake. - No. No, it isn't. 858 00:39:35,675 --> 00:39:39,679 Trust me, I know how hard it is to get here. 859 00:39:39,679 --> 00:39:42,649 It's damn near impossible, and you did it. 860 00:39:42,649 --> 00:39:44,784 Don't run away now because of me. 861 00:39:44,784 --> 00:39:46,520 There are thousands of meetings. 862 00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:47,654 - I'll find another one. - Well, yeah, 863 00:39:47,654 --> 00:39:49,389 but this one has the best snacks. 864 00:39:49,389 --> 00:39:51,570 - I wanna go. - No. 865 00:39:51,570 --> 00:39:53,560 No, no. You've made it this far, and I wouldn't. 866 00:39:53,560 --> 00:39:55,762 I don't wanna be here. 867 00:39:55,762 --> 00:39:57,297 Nobody does in the beginning. 868 00:39:57,297 --> 00:39:59,766 [tearfully] I don't wanna be anywhere. 869 00:39:59,766 --> 00:40:02,402 Then you are definitely in the right spot. 870 00:40:03,503 --> 00:40:04,838 I thought you were sober. 871 00:40:05,638 --> 00:40:07,700 Ten years. 872 00:40:07,700 --> 00:40:10,777 I kinda slacked off coming to regular meetings, 873 00:40:10,777 --> 00:40:12,512 and then lately, I... 874 00:40:13,546 --> 00:40:15,548 I realized I need the support. 875 00:40:16,549 --> 00:40:17,784 Because of what happened? 876 00:40:17,784 --> 00:40:20,887 No, no, no! No, it's... 877 00:40:20,887 --> 00:40:22,455 Is the accident the reason why you came back? 878 00:40:22,455 --> 00:40:23,890 No, I just feel that... 879 00:40:23,890 --> 00:40:25,658 Daniel, am I the reason why you're back here? 880 00:40:25,658 --> 00:40:26,793 Yes! 881 00:40:30,730 --> 00:40:32,980 Yes, of course. 882 00:40:34,134 --> 00:40:35,668 What the hell do you want me to say? 883 00:40:36,536 --> 00:40:38,438 - I'm sorry. - No. 884 00:40:38,438 --> 00:40:40,340 Look. 885 00:40:40,340 --> 00:40:44,811 I got ten years, and lately, I've been feeling 886 00:40:44,811 --> 00:40:48,314 like I really, really want a drink. 887 00:40:50,150 --> 00:40:51,484 This works. 888 00:40:53,753 --> 00:40:54,854 Thank you. 889 00:40:54,854 --> 00:40:57,891 Um, I'm gonna find somewhere else. 890 00:40:57,891 --> 00:40:59,693 There are thousands of these meetings. 891 00:40:59,693 --> 00:41:02,929 Yeah, but somehow you found your way to this one. 892 00:41:04,564 --> 00:41:05,932 Now isn't that something? 893 00:41:08,868 --> 00:41:10,470 All right, come on. 894 00:41:15,750 --> 00:41:16,209 Come on. 895 00:41:18,311 --> 00:41:19,346 Okay. 896 00:41:20,914 --> 00:41:22,916 [woman] Everybody, welcome. 897 00:41:22,916 --> 00:41:24,451 This is the regular meeting 898 00:41:24,451 --> 00:41:27,153 of the Live and Let Live group of Alcoholics Anonymous. 899 00:41:27,153 --> 00:41:28,455 My name is Simone, 900 00:41:28,455 --> 00:41:31,224 and I'm an alcoholic, and your secretary. 901 00:41:31,224 --> 00:41:34,160 Let us open the meeting with the Serenity Prayer. 902 00:41:36,329 --> 00:41:37,464 God... 903 00:41:37,464 --> 00:41:38,631 [all] ...grant me the serenity 904 00:41:38,631 --> 00:41:41,167 to accept the things I cannot change, 905 00:41:41,167 --> 00:41:43,803 the courage to change the things I can, 906 00:41:43,803 --> 00:41:46,873 and the wisdom to know the difference. 907 00:41:52,645 --> 00:41:56,316 Hey, you got up awfully early this morning. 908 00:41:56,316 --> 00:41:58,318 I went to an NA meeting. 909 00:41:58,318 --> 00:42:01,540 - [gasps] What? You did? - Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm. 910 00:42:01,540 --> 00:42:04,791 Oh, Allie. I'm so happy to hear that. 911 00:42:04,791 --> 00:42:07,127 [Allison] Well, I'm not saying I'm gonna go again. 912 00:42:07,127 --> 00:42:09,429 Well, you gotta start somewhere, 913 00:42:09,429 --> 00:42:10,997 and sounds like you did. 914 00:42:10,997 --> 00:42:12,565 - Mm-hmm. - So that's good. 915 00:42:12,565 --> 00:42:17,203 I don't know if I'll be able to just quit, though, Mom. 916 00:42:17,203 --> 00:42:19,272 I think I need real help, 917 00:42:19,272 --> 00:42:21,908 like an in-patient program or something. 918 00:42:21,908 --> 00:42:23,777 Well, honey, neither of us has insurance, 919 00:42:23,777 --> 00:42:26,446 so how the hell are we supposed to pay for that? 920 00:42:26,446 --> 00:42:28,140 I mean, you gotta get a job. 921 00:42:28,140 --> 00:42:30,817 Mom, who's gonna hire me like this? 922 00:42:30,817 --> 00:42:32,919 - Come on. - Like, no... 923 00:42:32,919 --> 00:42:34,870 What do you mean? 924 00:42:34,870 --> 00:42:35,789 You're a beautiful 26-year-old woman. 925 00:42:35,789 --> 00:42:38,458 - You're smart, you're funny... - No, I'm not. No, I'm not. 926 00:42:38,458 --> 00:42:40,226 - Yes, you are. - No, I'm not. 927 00:42:40,226 --> 00:42:41,961 That's the old me you're describing. 928 00:42:41,961 --> 00:42:43,290 You're still you. 929 00:42:43,290 --> 00:42:45,999 No, I'm not! I'm... 930 00:42:45,999 --> 00:42:48,301 [sighs] I'm something else. 931 00:42:50,103 --> 00:42:51,271 I'm something... 932 00:42:52,305 --> 00:42:53,840 Ugh. Um... 933 00:42:59,279 --> 00:43:01,314 I was thinking, um... 934 00:43:04,884 --> 00:43:08,555 You know how Dad was probably gonna get me a wedding gift, 935 00:43:08,555 --> 00:43:10,857 or, well, at least he was gonna come, right? 936 00:43:10,857 --> 00:43:12,726 Maybe instead of whatever it was 937 00:43:12,726 --> 00:43:14,561 that he was gonna give me, 938 00:43:16,620 --> 00:43:20,433 maybe he could help pay for me to get help. 939 00:43:20,433 --> 00:43:22,869 And so, I was wondering if you 940 00:43:23,570 --> 00:43:25,171 would call him for me. 941 00:43:25,171 --> 00:43:28,475 Allie, I will never speak to that man as long as I live. 942 00:43:28,475 --> 00:43:29,976 Do you know what he did? 943 00:43:29,976 --> 00:43:32,612 He packed his car up, and he left us with nothing. 944 00:43:32,612 --> 00:43:34,614 But it is what it is, okay? 945 00:43:34,614 --> 00:43:38,510 So, you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps, now. 946 00:43:39,652 --> 00:43:40,887 Thanks, Mom. 947 00:43:40,887 --> 00:43:42,655 Yeah, I'm sorry I can't get over this 948 00:43:42,655 --> 00:43:44,491 as fast as you want me to. 949 00:43:44,491 --> 00:43:46,920 - Allie... - Nah. 950 00:43:47,160 --> 00:43:49,429 [somber music playing] 951 00:43:57,237 --> 00:43:58,905 [Daniel] Well, look who it is. 952 00:43:59,639 --> 00:44:01,941 Hi, Dad. 953 00:44:01,941 --> 00:44:05,111 What brings you to the less glamorous side of the river? 954 00:44:05,111 --> 00:44:07,514 Ryan asked me to come see her. 955 00:44:07,514 --> 00:44:10,183 Turns out, she really wanted me to talk to you. 956 00:44:10,183 --> 00:44:12,519 - Oh? - She's worried about you. 957 00:44:12,519 --> 00:44:14,220 She's worried about me? 958 00:44:15,221 --> 00:44:17,900 That girl's crazy. 959 00:44:17,900 --> 00:44:20,260 She says she thinks you need a friend. 960 00:44:20,260 --> 00:44:21,795 Hell, I don't need a friend. 961 00:44:21,795 --> 00:44:23,963 I need a dog crate the size of a teenager. 962 00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:29,536 Look, Nathan, I understand your need 963 00:44:29,536 --> 00:44:31,504 to move on after the breakup... 964 00:44:33,940 --> 00:44:34,974 but, hell, I never imagined 965 00:44:34,974 --> 00:44:37,911 I'd be doing this all by myself. 966 00:44:37,911 --> 00:44:39,546 You raised two kids. 967 00:44:39,546 --> 00:44:40,814 I had your mother. 968 00:44:42,649 --> 00:44:45,251 And you and your sister were much better behaved than Ry. 969 00:44:45,852 --> 00:44:46,853 [Nathan scoffs] 970 00:44:47,987 --> 00:44:50,423 What? Come on. Speak your mind, son. 971 00:44:50,423 --> 00:44:53,360 We were good because we were terrified of you. 972 00:44:55,610 --> 00:44:56,830 So, I'm not surprised 973 00:44:56,830 --> 00:44:58,264 you don't have any tools in your arsenal 974 00:44:58,264 --> 00:45:00,500 since you lost the only one that you had. 975 00:45:00,500 --> 00:45:01,968 Fear. 976 00:45:04,971 --> 00:45:10,543 I have apologized 100 times to you for the way I was. 977 00:45:13,790 --> 00:45:16,583 Your sister found a way to give me another chance. 978 00:45:16,583 --> 00:45:18,251 How come you can't? 979 00:45:18,251 --> 00:45:21,721 'Cause Molly never really got the brunt of it, did she? 980 00:45:21,721 --> 00:45:24,758 I guarantee you that if she was standing here now, 981 00:45:24,758 --> 00:45:27,394 she would be begging you to drop this shit, 982 00:45:27,394 --> 00:45:28,962 and help me raise her child. 983 00:45:28,962 --> 00:45:30,463 Well, she isn't. 984 00:45:32,399 --> 00:45:33,867 No, she's not. 985 00:45:37,904 --> 00:45:39,639 I have to catch the train. 986 00:45:40,840 --> 00:45:42,275 I saw Allison. 987 00:45:46,746 --> 00:45:47,881 Where? 988 00:45:47,881 --> 00:45:49,983 Not supposed to say. 989 00:45:51,510 --> 00:45:52,619 AA? 990 00:45:52,619 --> 00:45:53,853 Not supposed to say. 991 00:45:53,853 --> 00:45:55,188 What the hell does she need AA for? 992 00:45:55,188 --> 00:45:56,990 - I'm not supposed to... - To say. 993 00:45:59,459 --> 00:46:00,460 I got it. 994 00:46:02,195 --> 00:46:04,564 Of all the meetings, she ends up at yours? 995 00:46:04,564 --> 00:46:07,670 She saw me, she tried to run away, 996 00:46:07,670 --> 00:46:09,302 but I pulled her back. 997 00:46:09,302 --> 00:46:10,503 Why? 998 00:46:11,671 --> 00:46:12,906 She's suffering, Nathan. 999 00:46:14,474 --> 00:46:15,508 Broken. 1000 00:46:16,376 --> 00:46:17,477 Lost. 1001 00:46:17,477 --> 00:46:19,879 You're the one who blamed her! 1002 00:46:21,140 --> 00:46:22,382 I stood by her! 1003 00:46:22,382 --> 00:46:25,652 Yeah, until she left your ***. 1004 00:46:25,652 --> 00:46:29,155 Sorry. Sorry, that came out harsher than I meant. 1005 00:46:29,155 --> 00:46:31,191 I have to catch the train. 1006 00:46:31,191 --> 00:46:32,525 [Daniel] Please, Nathan. 1007 00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:35,528 I need help. 1008 00:46:35,528 --> 00:46:38,331 Ryan asked me to come by and say "hi" to you. 1009 00:46:39,366 --> 00:46:40,633 And I did. 1010 00:46:41,968 --> 00:46:42,969 Okay. 1011 00:46:45,672 --> 00:46:46,773 Hi. 1012 00:46:58,618 --> 00:47:00,787 [playing classical music] 1013 00:47:05,925 --> 00:47:08,528 - Best first date ever. - I heard that. 1014 00:47:14,834 --> 00:47:16,102 [Allison laughing] 1015 00:47:22,542 --> 00:47:25,412 [Daniel] I used to drink whiskey until I blacked out. 1016 00:47:26,846 --> 00:47:28,948 Wake up the next morning to find out 1017 00:47:30,116 --> 00:47:32,385 what I had done, who I had been. 1018 00:47:34,954 --> 00:47:36,220 [chuckles] 1019 00:47:38,291 --> 00:47:40,930 My father was a drunk. 1020 00:47:42,996 --> 00:47:47,133 He beat me right up to the day he died. 1021 00:47:49,669 --> 00:47:53,139 And I vowed I would never lay a hand on my children. 1022 00:47:55,442 --> 00:47:56,776 And I didn't... 1023 00:47:58,845 --> 00:48:00,347 while I was sober. 1024 00:48:03,283 --> 00:48:04,884 But in the blackness... 1025 00:48:08,688 --> 00:48:12,425 I always denied because I really couldn't remember. 1026 00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:15,995 Sometimes there'd be a bruise. 1027 00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:21,468 "Oh, you must have fallen down. 1028 00:48:21,468 --> 00:48:23,570 "I'm your daddy. I would never hurt you." 1029 00:48:25,138 --> 00:48:27,640 August 11th, '99... 1030 00:48:30,944 --> 00:48:35,382 I woke up on my front porch to the sound of church bells... 1031 00:48:38,318 --> 00:48:40,200 and an ice cream truck. 1032 00:48:41,540 --> 00:48:43,156 So, I knew it was Sunday. 1033 00:48:43,156 --> 00:48:47,327 First thing I saw was my captain 1034 00:48:48,595 --> 00:48:51,970 standing over me, 1035 00:48:51,970 --> 00:48:53,733 poking me in the ribs with his nightstick. 1036 00:48:57,370 --> 00:48:58,371 An ambulance. 1037 00:49:00,206 --> 00:49:03,943 My son, Nathan, sitting in the back, 1038 00:49:05,345 --> 00:49:06,780 bleeding from the head. 1039 00:49:08,214 --> 00:49:10,817 Medics had bought him a popsicle. 1040 00:49:13,119 --> 00:49:14,988 Turns out that... [sighs] 1041 00:49:16,990 --> 00:49:18,825 in the blackness... 1042 00:49:22,395 --> 00:49:25,532 I had beat him so bad 1043 00:49:25,532 --> 00:49:28,768 that he lost the hearing in his right ear. 1044 00:49:28,768 --> 00:49:29,836 Forever. 1045 00:49:31,271 --> 00:49:34,574 And to this day, every time I see him, 1046 00:49:34,574 --> 00:49:38,111 I beg for his forgiveness. 1047 00:49:39,546 --> 00:49:41,581 It's just a little dance we do. 1048 00:49:42,882 --> 00:49:44,517 A mere formality. 1049 00:49:46,519 --> 00:49:48,121 Because we both know... 1050 00:49:50,957 --> 00:49:53,460 that there are some things that are just 1051 00:49:55,128 --> 00:49:57,970 impossible to forgive. 1052 00:50:01,301 --> 00:50:06,306 I do believe even God knows that. 1053 00:50:13,680 --> 00:50:16,116 When I was a cop, I used to eat here every day. 1054 00:50:17,500 --> 00:50:18,752 Free coffee refills. 1055 00:50:21,588 --> 00:50:22,589 You hungry? 1056 00:50:24,290 --> 00:50:25,291 No. 1057 00:50:26,260 --> 00:50:27,270 [Daniel] Hmm. 1058 00:50:29,496 --> 00:50:31,731 Funny, the things we stop caring about. 1059 00:50:33,833 --> 00:50:35,502 I used to want to travel. 1060 00:50:37,170 --> 00:50:39,406 I would leaf through National Geographic 1061 00:50:39,406 --> 00:50:41,408 and dog-ear all of the exotic places 1062 00:50:41,408 --> 00:50:43,710 I would visit once I retired. 1063 00:50:46,479 --> 00:50:48,481 Never do that now. 1064 00:50:48,481 --> 00:50:51,217 - You still could. - No, no. I couldn't. 1065 00:50:56,322 --> 00:51:01,961 I wasn't drunk, or on anything, by the way. 1066 00:51:02,762 --> 00:51:03,763 What? 1067 00:51:05,310 --> 00:51:07,467 When I saw you the other day at the meeting, 1068 00:51:09,169 --> 00:51:13,306 I instantly got worried that you may have thought 1069 00:51:13,306 --> 00:51:16,476 that I was drinking or on drugs 1070 00:51:16,476 --> 00:51:18,178 on the day of the accident, and I wasn't. 1071 00:51:18,178 --> 00:51:20,613 I was sober. It wasn't my fault. 1072 00:51:22,349 --> 00:51:24,617 I have every report ever written 1073 00:51:24,617 --> 00:51:26,386 committed to memory. 1074 00:51:27,530 --> 00:51:28,121 Right. 1075 00:51:30,457 --> 00:51:31,691 So, you know that it was 1076 00:51:31,691 --> 00:51:33,460 the backhoe guy's fault, Alvarez. 1077 00:51:33,460 --> 00:51:35,128 I don't wanna get into that all right now. 1078 00:51:35,128 --> 00:51:36,663 Okay, yeah, you're right. 1079 00:51:41,634 --> 00:51:44,337 Nathan said that he was deaf since birth. 1080 00:51:45,672 --> 00:51:47,700 He never told you? 1081 00:51:48,408 --> 00:51:50,577 Maybe he wanted me to like you. 1082 00:51:52,145 --> 00:51:53,813 I doubt that. 1083 00:51:57,484 --> 00:52:01,554 I thought that raising Ryan would offer me the chance 1084 00:52:01,554 --> 00:52:04,224 to be a better father than I ever was. 1085 00:52:05,910 --> 00:52:06,826 Shit. 1086 00:52:06,826 --> 00:52:09,796 I'm in way over my head. 1087 00:52:09,796 --> 00:52:13,330 I got one of those audiobooks from the library. 1088 00:52:13,330 --> 00:52:14,300 How to Talk to a Teen. 1089 00:52:14,300 --> 00:52:16,269 [chuckles] Oh, yeah? 1090 00:52:16,269 --> 00:52:17,937 How's that working out? 1091 00:52:17,937 --> 00:52:20,540 - Well, it's from the '80s... - [laughs] 1092 00:52:20,540 --> 00:52:21,875 It's on a cassette. 1093 00:52:21,875 --> 00:52:22,976 Right. 1094 00:52:22,976 --> 00:52:24,577 Its advice is, 1095 00:52:25,945 --> 00:52:27,414 "Chaperone a dance." 1096 00:52:27,881 --> 00:52:29,549 [laughs] 1097 00:52:31,151 --> 00:52:33,420 "Chaperone a dance." 1098 00:52:33,420 --> 00:52:35,321 I just caught her having *** 1099 00:52:35,321 --> 00:52:37,590 with a boy who looked like a man. 1100 00:52:39,993 --> 00:52:41,861 A dance would be delightful. 1101 00:52:43,263 --> 00:52:45,198 Can I give you some advice 1102 00:52:46,199 --> 00:52:48,201 from a former teenage girl? 1103 00:52:50,300 --> 00:52:51,471 She's gonna have ***. 1104 00:52:52,906 --> 00:52:55,875 And nothing you say is gonna change that. 1105 00:52:58,345 --> 00:53:00,547 Just make sure she's on birth control. 1106 00:53:00,547 --> 00:53:01,748 - Birth control? - Yeah. 1107 00:53:01,748 --> 00:53:04,184 She's 16! 1108 00:53:04,184 --> 00:53:06,419 No, we'll be going the abstinence route. 1109 00:53:07,487 --> 00:53:08,788 No offense, Daniel, 1110 00:53:08,788 --> 00:53:11,591 but, uh, there's a knot in your logic. 1111 00:53:13,590 --> 00:53:14,461 You're trying to solve a problem 1112 00:53:14,461 --> 00:53:16,296 by looking in the other direction. 1113 00:53:19,733 --> 00:53:21,668 I could talk to her if you want me to. 1114 00:53:21,668 --> 00:53:23,636 Oh, well, no thanks. 1115 00:53:23,636 --> 00:53:25,238 - It's okay. Of course. - That's not appropriate. 1116 00:53:25,238 --> 00:53:26,673 I don't even know why I just said that. 1117 00:53:26,673 --> 00:53:27,941 - I'm sorry. - No, it's okay. 1118 00:53:27,941 --> 00:53:29,476 It's just that I don't think that it's... 1119 00:53:29,476 --> 00:53:31,440 I just felt the need, 1120 00:53:32,512 --> 00:53:35,482 um, the instinct to help in some way. 1121 00:53:36,449 --> 00:53:37,951 It's the least I could do. 1122 00:53:45,525 --> 00:53:47,460 I don't know how to do this. 1123 00:53:48,461 --> 00:53:49,396 What? 1124 00:53:49,929 --> 00:53:51,464 Start all over. 1125 00:53:53,233 --> 00:53:54,601 How do you do it? 1126 00:53:55,835 --> 00:53:57,237 [Daniel] Takes work. 1127 00:54:00,240 --> 00:54:03,209 - Can I tell you a secret? - Sure. 1128 00:54:08,214 --> 00:54:10,417 I'm not sure I have the will. 1129 00:54:32,572 --> 00:54:35,108 What does "amor fati" mean? 1130 00:54:36,676 --> 00:54:37,744 [Daniel sighs] 1131 00:54:39,120 --> 00:54:40,647 Certain things are private. 1132 00:54:41,815 --> 00:54:43,650 Do you think I'm ****ed up? 1133 00:54:45,850 --> 00:54:47,120 Are you high right now? 1134 00:54:48,421 --> 00:54:49,556 No. 1135 00:54:50,957 --> 00:54:52,959 I was a cop for 40 years. 1136 00:54:52,959 --> 00:54:54,661 I was an addict for 50. 1137 00:54:56,162 --> 00:54:58,264 So, I'm gonna ask you again. 1138 00:54:59,466 --> 00:55:01,000 Are you high right now? 1139 00:55:02,100 --> 00:55:03,203 Well, I... 1140 00:55:05,380 --> 00:55:06,706 I broke a pill in half. 1141 00:55:06,706 --> 00:55:08,141 So, half. 1142 00:55:09,976 --> 00:55:12,412 Yes, I think you're ****ed up, Allison. 1143 00:55:15,315 --> 00:55:16,616 Not half. 1144 00:55:17,484 --> 00:55:19,352 All ****ed up. 1145 00:55:19,352 --> 00:55:21,287 Do you think I'll ever pull out of this? 1146 00:55:23,123 --> 00:55:28,428 I mean, like, maybe one day I might be the kind of person 1147 00:55:29,863 --> 00:55:31,331 that people want their granddaughter 1148 00:55:31,331 --> 00:55:33,366 to hang out with? 1149 00:55:33,366 --> 00:55:35,680 I have no idea. 1150 00:55:36,870 --> 00:55:38,138 Me neither. 1151 00:55:40,940 --> 00:55:43,309 [soft country music playing] 1152 00:55:53,453 --> 00:55:56,456 Can I have my phone back, please? 1153 00:55:56,456 --> 00:55:59,259 I'm running out of ideas on how to handle you, Ryan. 1154 00:56:00,360 --> 00:56:01,928 Grandpa, everybody at my age has ***. 1155 00:56:01,928 --> 00:56:03,797 It's, like, not a big deal. 1156 00:56:03,797 --> 00:56:05,198 I know it was different when you were younger, 1157 00:56:05,198 --> 00:56:08,340 but that's just, like, not how it is anymore. 1158 00:56:11,971 --> 00:56:14,341 [smacks lips] Well, let me ask you something. 1159 00:56:20,547 --> 00:56:21,614 Are you... 1160 00:56:24,117 --> 00:56:26,186 Are you using 1161 00:56:26,986 --> 00:56:29,289 any protection? 1162 00:56:29,289 --> 00:56:30,924 Oh, my God! 1163 00:56:30,924 --> 00:56:33,626 I am so not gonna talk about this with my grandfather. 1164 00:56:33,626 --> 00:56:35,628 How the hell do you think I feel? 1165 00:56:37,931 --> 00:56:39,666 [both sigh] 1166 00:56:39,666 --> 00:56:42,202 - I know you're upset. - I'm not upset. 1167 00:56:42,202 --> 00:56:43,436 Maybe you should go back 1168 00:56:44,304 --> 00:56:45,839 and see that therapist again. 1169 00:56:45,839 --> 00:56:47,140 No. I just 1170 00:56:48,274 --> 00:56:50,944 want my phone back. 1171 00:56:50,944 --> 00:56:54,147 I don't have any friends at Columbia 1172 00:56:54,147 --> 00:56:56,449 and I want to 1173 00:56:56,449 --> 00:56:59,119 hang onto the few I still have on Long Beach Island. 1174 00:57:00,453 --> 00:57:02,155 How come you can't make friends? 1175 00:57:02,155 --> 00:57:03,823 I've been through a lot this year. 1176 00:57:04,324 --> 00:57:05,592 [Daniel] Hmm. 1177 00:57:06,559 --> 00:57:09,290 And nobody really understands. 1178 00:57:10,263 --> 00:57:12,699 They try. Some, but... 1179 00:57:13,666 --> 00:57:15,268 I mean, it's fake. 1180 00:57:15,268 --> 00:57:17,103 Don't you think most people are so fake? 1181 00:57:18,538 --> 00:57:21,141 I would probably say "duplicitous." 1182 00:57:22,142 --> 00:57:23,243 What does that mean? 1183 00:57:24,440 --> 00:57:25,578 Fake. 1184 00:57:25,578 --> 00:57:26,713 [chuckles] 1185 00:57:28,682 --> 00:57:30,160 I'm on your side. 1186 00:57:31,985 --> 00:57:33,190 I know. 1187 00:57:33,687 --> 00:57:35,321 Tell you what. 1188 00:57:35,321 --> 00:57:38,191 You can have your phone back 1189 00:57:38,191 --> 00:57:42,620 if you promise to start taking birth control pills. 1190 00:57:42,620 --> 00:57:44,640 Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel! 1191 00:57:44,640 --> 00:57:45,198 Grandpa! 1192 00:57:46,660 --> 00:57:47,670 [sighs] 1193 00:57:48,340 --> 00:57:49,135 Grandpa. 1194 00:57:50,570 --> 00:57:53,440 Is it a deal? I'll make the appointment. 1195 00:57:55,750 --> 00:57:57,344 Fine. Fine. 1196 00:57:57,344 --> 00:57:58,812 I just 1197 00:57:58,812 --> 00:58:01,881 never want to talk to you about *** ever again. 1198 00:58:03,830 --> 00:58:05,218 Oh, really? 1199 00:58:06,860 --> 00:58:07,887 'Cause I just love this shit. 1200 00:58:14,794 --> 00:58:16,629 Have you ever been on campus before? 1201 00:58:16,629 --> 00:58:18,331 Not since I was a kid. 1202 00:58:18,331 --> 00:58:19,966 I used to do swim meets here. 1203 00:58:19,966 --> 00:58:21,301 - Oh, yeah? - Yeah. 1204 00:58:21,301 --> 00:58:23,303 - You were a swimmer? - [chuckling] Uh, yeah. 1205 00:58:23,303 --> 00:58:25,805 Well, I was 12, but yeah, I was pretty good. 1206 00:58:25,805 --> 00:58:27,941 I still have all the trophies and the ribbons. 1207 00:58:27,941 --> 00:58:29,909 - That's cool. - Mmm. 1208 00:58:29,909 --> 00:58:32,779 - What stroke? - Mostly freestyle. 1209 00:58:34,180 --> 00:58:35,415 Why'd you stop? 1210 00:58:36,316 --> 00:58:39,519 Um, my dad left. 1211 00:58:39,519 --> 00:58:42,355 Yeah, it was kinda the thing that we used to do together. 1212 00:58:42,355 --> 00:58:44,791 He would cheer so loud I could hear him underwater. 1213 00:58:44,791 --> 00:58:46,126 [chuckles] 1214 00:58:46,126 --> 00:58:48,128 Seemed kind of pointless to do it without him. 1215 00:58:49,496 --> 00:58:51,865 - Where'd he go? - Ohio. 1216 00:58:53,233 --> 00:58:54,801 Started a whole new family in Ohio. 1217 00:58:54,801 --> 00:58:56,369 Wow. 1218 00:58:56,369 --> 00:58:59,105 He has 10-year-old twins. Yeah. 1219 00:58:59,105 --> 00:59:01,207 I don't know if they swim or not, though. 1220 00:59:01,207 --> 00:59:03,777 Oh, man. I am always just amazed at people 1221 00:59:03,777 --> 00:59:06,346 who can, like, up and leave their kids like that. 1222 00:59:06,346 --> 00:59:07,447 [Allison] Mmm. 1223 00:59:07,447 --> 00:59:08,815 I just don't know how you could, 1224 00:59:08,815 --> 00:59:11,885 like, ****ing sleep at night. 1225 00:59:11,885 --> 00:59:15,989 For so long, I thought that I'd done something wrong. 1226 00:59:15,989 --> 00:59:19,426 Like, it was my fault, or I'd let him down. 1227 00:59:20,593 --> 00:59:23,463 And then I just realized, 1228 00:59:23,463 --> 00:59:26,800 I don't know, maybe some people just aren't good. 1229 00:59:26,800 --> 00:59:27,901 [Simone] Hmm. 1230 00:59:29,436 --> 00:59:31,738 It's kinda like he, like, restarted a level 1231 00:59:31,738 --> 00:59:34,174 in a video game with a fresh life. 1232 00:59:34,174 --> 00:59:36,710 - [both laugh] - That's exactly what he did! 1233 00:59:36,710 --> 00:59:40,714 He packed up the car, and left his Rolex 1234 00:59:40,714 --> 00:59:43,383 in the attic of my dollhouse, 1235 00:59:43,383 --> 00:59:44,918 and he drove away. 1236 00:59:48,755 --> 00:59:49,823 Hey, let's sit for a second, okay? 1237 00:59:49,823 --> 00:59:51,591 - Yeah, yeah. - [clears throat] 1238 00:59:53,259 --> 00:59:56,863 Uh... So, I'll sponsor you. 1239 00:59:56,863 --> 00:59:59,999 - Okay. - But, um, 1240 00:59:59,999 --> 01:00:01,901 you gotta start taking this shit seriously. 1241 01:00:03,403 --> 01:00:05,839 You can't keep coming to meetings high. 1242 01:00:05,839 --> 01:00:07,273 What? [chuckles] 1243 01:00:10,760 --> 01:00:11,845 How did you know? 1244 01:00:11,845 --> 01:00:13,179 [laughs] 1245 01:00:13,179 --> 01:00:15,949 Uh, because I was you. 1246 01:00:15,949 --> 01:00:18,885 And I've helped dozens of women who were you. 1247 01:00:20,320 --> 01:00:24,900 And some beat it, and some are dead. 1248 01:00:26,926 --> 01:00:28,194 But, you know, 1249 01:00:29,362 --> 01:00:31,798 if you want my time, you gotta commit. 1250 01:00:31,798 --> 01:00:33,990 Because I have a toddler so I just 1251 01:00:33,990 --> 01:00:34,434 - don't have time for bullshit. - Yeah. 1252 01:00:34,434 --> 01:00:38,171 No, I do. I... I... I really wanna beat it. 1253 01:00:38,171 --> 01:00:40,940 Then I want you to do 90 meetings in 90 days. 1254 01:00:40,940 --> 01:00:42,509 - Wow. - Yeah. 1255 01:00:42,509 --> 01:00:45,345 And, um, we're gonna get you started on step one. 1256 01:00:46,446 --> 01:00:47,380 Okay. 1257 01:00:48,648 --> 01:00:49,783 Okay. 1258 01:00:49,783 --> 01:00:53,553 Also, enough hiding out, man. 1259 01:00:53,553 --> 01:00:54,821 It's time you shared with the group. 1260 01:00:56,923 --> 01:00:58,925 - All right. - Uh... 1261 01:01:01,528 --> 01:01:07,567 [nervously] Hi, I'm Allison, and I'm addicted to, uh, 1262 01:01:08,968 --> 01:01:10,503 pills. 1263 01:01:10,503 --> 01:01:12,672 [group] Hi, Allison. 1264 01:01:12,672 --> 01:01:13,807 [Allison] Uh... 1265 01:01:15,275 --> 01:01:17,477 Sorry. Can I start again? 1266 01:01:17,477 --> 01:01:19,679 I've never done this before, and I'm nervous. 1267 01:01:19,679 --> 01:01:20,814 You got it. 1268 01:01:21,981 --> 01:01:23,650 [breathes deeply] 1269 01:01:25,485 --> 01:01:30,523 Hi, I'm Allison, and I'm an addict. 1270 01:01:30,523 --> 01:01:32,392 [group] Hi, Allison. 1271 01:01:35,562 --> 01:01:36,730 I... 1272 01:01:38,998 --> 01:01:39,966 Um... 1273 01:01:43,136 --> 01:01:44,738 I was the driver 1274 01:01:46,172 --> 01:01:48,174 of a car 1275 01:01:48,174 --> 01:01:50,100 that was in a really bad accident. 1276 01:01:53,279 --> 01:01:54,681 Two people died. 1277 01:01:58,284 --> 01:01:59,586 The woman was... 1278 01:02:03,323 --> 01:02:06,760 The woman was about to be my sister-in-law. 1279 01:02:10,730 --> 01:02:13,333 We were on our way to try on my wedding dresses. 1280 01:02:16,360 --> 01:02:17,704 [shudders] 1281 01:02:17,704 --> 01:02:18,838 And then we weren't. 1282 01:02:20,306 --> 01:02:21,574 It wasn't my fault. [sighs] 1283 01:02:23,209 --> 01:02:26,713 I wasn't on drugs or booze, or drunk, or anything. 1284 01:02:28,782 --> 01:02:29,983 But, uh... 1285 01:02:40,360 --> 01:02:44,970 [voice breaking] Surviving that day was, is... 1286 01:02:47,467 --> 01:02:49,369 the most painful thing 1287 01:02:49,369 --> 01:02:51,237 I will ever have to live through. 1288 01:02:53,807 --> 01:02:56,109 [sniffles] I got hurt, too. 1289 01:02:57,110 --> 01:02:58,878 They put a hole in my head. 1290 01:02:59,913 --> 01:03:01,948 And, um, [sniffles] 1291 01:03:01,948 --> 01:03:03,616 that helped because at least I had something 1292 01:03:03,616 --> 01:03:05,180 I could blame the pain on. 1293 01:03:07,754 --> 01:03:09,220 But then that healed... 1294 01:03:11,891 --> 01:03:13,326 and I was still hurting. 1295 01:03:15,261 --> 01:03:16,529 And I guess that's why I didn't realize 1296 01:03:16,529 --> 01:03:18,598 how bad it was because to me... 1297 01:03:18,598 --> 01:03:20,934 [breathes shakily] 1298 01:03:20,934 --> 01:03:22,635 I was still in so much pain. 1299 01:03:22,635 --> 01:03:25,538 - [shuddering] - [rubbing stomach] 1300 01:03:32,679 --> 01:03:35,949 I was, um, prescribed them for physical pain, 1301 01:03:35,949 --> 01:03:38,840 and they really helped with that. They really did. 1302 01:03:42,489 --> 01:03:44,991 But they made me numb. Blissfully numb. 1303 01:03:50,563 --> 01:03:52,165 Without them I want to die. 1304 01:03:53,833 --> 01:03:55,435 [sniffles] Every day. 1305 01:03:59,172 --> 01:04:01,975 I've never said that out loud before. [sobs] 1306 01:04:05,145 --> 01:04:06,112 Um... 1307 01:04:08,114 --> 01:04:10,884 I've never really faced reality without them. 1308 01:04:11,685 --> 01:04:13,253 [sniffling] 1309 01:04:13,253 --> 01:04:15,455 And I don't know if I'll be able to handle what I see, 1310 01:04:15,455 --> 01:04:18,825 but I'm here to try. 1311 01:04:23,596 --> 01:04:24,998 Okay. That's it. [sniffles] 1312 01:04:26,466 --> 01:04:28,768 That's it. [sighing heavily] 1313 01:04:32,539 --> 01:04:33,707 What happens now? 1314 01:04:35,141 --> 01:04:39,346 [breathing heavily] 1315 01:04:42,182 --> 01:04:44,884 [toy train horn tooting] 1316 01:04:50,230 --> 01:04:51,191 You made all of this? 1317 01:04:52,726 --> 01:04:56,429 Uh, I assembled it and designed it. 1318 01:04:56,429 --> 01:04:58,164 Yeah. 1319 01:04:58,164 --> 01:05:02,680 You see, the houses come as a kit. 1320 01:05:02,680 --> 01:05:05,380 You just assemble them and paint them... 1321 01:05:05,380 --> 01:05:07,474 Schoolhouse, I built from scratch. 1322 01:05:11,911 --> 01:05:15,315 Hey, there are two kids making out back here. 1323 01:05:15,315 --> 01:05:16,916 - That's me. - [chuckles] 1324 01:05:18,510 --> 01:05:19,919 - You were handsome. - [laughs] 1325 01:05:20,353 --> 01:05:21,388 And tiny. 1326 01:05:22,922 --> 01:05:26,593 Yeah, my very first kiss behind the schoolhouse. 1327 01:05:28,228 --> 01:05:29,729 Olivia Williams. 1328 01:05:31,598 --> 01:05:34,340 It was fall. Tip of her nose was cold. 1329 01:05:34,340 --> 01:05:35,268 [chuckles] 1330 01:05:35,268 --> 01:05:37,237 Little runny. 1331 01:05:37,237 --> 01:05:40,507 She stood on tiptoe. Tasted like bubble gum. 1332 01:05:41,741 --> 01:05:42,676 [Allison] Is that who you married? 1333 01:05:42,676 --> 01:05:44,678 No! No, no. 1334 01:05:44,678 --> 01:05:48,515 No, she dumped me the next day for Charlie Cook. 1335 01:05:48,515 --> 01:05:51,818 - Oh. - He smoked Camels. 1336 01:05:51,818 --> 01:05:55,422 And drove a Buick Riviera Roadmaster. 1337 01:05:55,422 --> 01:05:57,624 So, is this all inspired by your life? 1338 01:05:58,391 --> 01:05:59,392 Kinda. 1339 01:06:00,627 --> 01:06:02,228 Supposed to be South Orange. 1340 01:06:03,563 --> 01:06:04,631 I grew up here. 1341 01:06:06,990 --> 01:06:07,701 I was a cop in Newark. 1342 01:06:08,768 --> 01:06:10,103 I've always lived here. 1343 01:06:12,272 --> 01:06:13,273 Who's the soldier? 1344 01:06:14,107 --> 01:06:15,508 [Daniel] That's me. 1345 01:06:15,508 --> 01:06:17,844 Day I got home from Vietnam. 1346 01:06:19,212 --> 01:06:21,681 That other little figure there is my father. 1347 01:06:21,681 --> 01:06:25,850 He came down to the station to pick me up. 1348 01:06:25,850 --> 01:06:27,200 - This is incredible. - Mm. 1349 01:06:28,588 --> 01:06:30,323 How long did it take you? 1350 01:06:30,323 --> 01:06:32,325 Years. 1351 01:06:32,325 --> 01:06:34,527 I started with a single figure-eight 1352 01:06:35,295 --> 01:06:37,163 and a two-car train. 1353 01:06:37,997 --> 01:06:39,599 I work on it when I can. 1354 01:06:40,667 --> 01:06:42,702 Got more time now that I've retired. 1355 01:06:43,670 --> 01:06:45,538 My wife passed. 1356 01:06:45,538 --> 01:06:47,841 Ryan used to hang out with me down here. 1357 01:06:49,142 --> 01:06:52,450 She liked the whistle and the microphone. 1358 01:06:52,450 --> 01:06:53,413 There's a microphone? 1359 01:06:53,413 --> 01:06:54,848 Right over there. 1360 01:06:54,848 --> 01:06:56,449 How else you gonna tell your passengers 1361 01:06:56,449 --> 01:06:58,151 - that the train's coming? - [laughs] 1362 01:07:02,756 --> 01:07:04,624 [toy train horn tooting] 1363 01:07:04,624 --> 01:07:06,693 [chuckles] 1364 01:07:12,732 --> 01:07:14,300 [Allison singing "Take The Last Train to Clarksville"] 1365 01:07:14,300 --> 01:07:17,737 ♪ Take the last train to Clarksville ♪ 1366 01:07:17,737 --> 01:07:20,774 ♪ And I'll meet you at the station ♪ 1367 01:07:20,774 --> 01:07:23,643 ♪ You can be there by 4:30 ♪ 1368 01:07:23,643 --> 01:07:25,745 ♪ 'Cause I booked your reservation ♪ 1369 01:07:25,745 --> 01:07:27,580 ♪ Don't be slow ♪ 1370 01:07:27,580 --> 01:07:29,716 [both singing] ♪ Oh no no no ♪ 1371 01:07:29,716 --> 01:07:32,850 ♪ Oh no no no ♪ 1372 01:07:32,850 --> 01:07:34,387 ♪ And I don't know if I'm ever ♪ 1373 01:07:34,387 --> 01:07:36,890 [both sing] ♪ Coming home ♪ 1374 01:07:36,890 --> 01:07:37,490 [Daniel laughs] 1375 01:07:37,490 --> 01:07:39,893 That was just a little serenade for your people 1376 01:07:39,893 --> 01:07:41,461 from the heavens above. 1377 01:07:41,461 --> 01:07:44,664 Think that's one of the reasons I enjoy it so much. 1378 01:07:44,664 --> 01:07:47,367 Why? 'Cause you get to play God? 1379 01:07:47,367 --> 01:07:50,970 Well, so much of my life has been outta control. 1380 01:07:53,173 --> 01:07:55,342 Down here, 1381 01:07:55,342 --> 01:07:58,244 I get to decide if Olivia chooses me. 1382 01:08:00,180 --> 01:08:02,215 I get to decide if my father comes 1383 01:08:02,215 --> 01:08:04,517 to pick me up at the station when I get home. 1384 01:08:05,652 --> 01:08:06,953 Did he? 1385 01:08:06,953 --> 01:08:08,540 No. 1386 01:08:10,323 --> 01:08:13,193 He was passed out drunk in our backyard. 1387 01:08:15,895 --> 01:08:18,498 He'd lain face down so long, 1388 01:08:19,833 --> 01:08:22,402 an inch of snow had gathered on his back. 1389 01:08:26,506 --> 01:08:29,750 Next morning at breakfast, he offered me a beer, 1390 01:08:30,710 --> 01:08:31,778 so... 1391 01:08:33,446 --> 01:08:35,682 I had a beer with him at breakfast, 1392 01:08:38,180 --> 01:08:39,386 and I never stopped. 1393 01:08:44,824 --> 01:08:46,659 When did you last talk to Nathan? 1394 01:08:51,364 --> 01:08:53,299 Daniel, this is God. 1395 01:08:53,299 --> 01:08:56,536 Allison would like you to change the conversation now. 1396 01:08:58,400 --> 01:08:59,973 - I'll bet she would. - [chuckles] 1397 01:08:59,973 --> 01:09:02,409 All right. Let's get outta here. 1398 01:09:03,309 --> 01:09:04,377 [switch clicks] 1399 01:09:08,248 --> 01:09:10,417 [music playing on headphones] 1400 01:09:13,987 --> 01:09:15,255 [Daniel] Ryan? 1401 01:09:15,255 --> 01:09:17,590 It's only one o'clock. Why are you home? 1402 01:09:17,590 --> 01:09:20,600 We had a half-day for the active shooter drill. 1403 01:09:20,600 --> 01:09:22,262 - I told you this morning. - [Daniel sighs] 1404 01:09:22,262 --> 01:09:25,331 Well, this is a friend of mine from the program. 1405 01:09:25,331 --> 01:09:26,266 Hi. 1406 01:09:27,500 --> 01:09:29,135 Hi. 1407 01:09:29,135 --> 01:09:31,370 - You should probably get going. - Yeah. Yeah. 1408 01:09:31,370 --> 01:09:32,906 I'm gonna go. 1409 01:09:32,906 --> 01:09:35,308 Wait, I know you from somewhere. 1410 01:09:35,308 --> 01:09:36,409 No, you don't. 1411 01:09:36,843 --> 01:09:37,777 You do? 1412 01:09:37,777 --> 01:09:38,745 How do I know you? 1413 01:09:39,412 --> 01:09:41,448 Uh... My... I'm... 1414 01:09:41,448 --> 01:09:42,882 I'm Allison. 1415 01:09:42,882 --> 01:09:44,517 Yeah, I've seen you before. 1416 01:09:44,517 --> 01:09:46,853 I thought you said the active shooter drill ended at 2:00. 1417 01:09:46,853 --> 01:09:49,550 Yeah, that's when the pretend shooter fights back. 1418 01:09:49,550 --> 01:09:51,570 Today, he shot himself, so we got out early. 1419 01:09:52,659 --> 01:09:53,860 Why do I know you? 1420 01:09:53,860 --> 01:09:55,595 I'm not sure what I'm supposed to say. 1421 01:09:55,595 --> 01:09:57,731 - You were Nathan's fiancee. - No. 1422 01:09:57,731 --> 01:09:59,366 - You were in the car. - No. 1423 01:09:59,366 --> 01:10:01,634 - I was, yeah. - Weren't you driving? 1424 01:10:01,634 --> 01:10:02,635 Wasn't she driving? 1425 01:10:02,635 --> 01:10:04,104 We're in the program together. 1426 01:10:04,104 --> 01:10:06,239 - But I thought you said it was her fault. - What? 1427 01:10:06,239 --> 01:10:08,508 How could you bring her into our house? 1428 01:10:08,508 --> 01:10:10,760 Get out of our ****ing house! 1429 01:10:10,760 --> 01:10:12,120 - Okay. It's okay. - [Daniel] I'm sorry. I... 1430 01:10:12,120 --> 01:10:14,681 I'm so sorry. I thought you were in school. 1431 01:10:14,681 --> 01:10:16,116 You ruined my ****ing life! 1432 01:10:16,116 --> 01:10:19,386 I know, I know, I know. I'm... I'm really sorry. 1433 01:10:19,386 --> 01:10:22,689 [crying] You shouldn't be here! This is our house! 1434 01:10:22,689 --> 01:10:23,957 My mom grew up in here! 1435 01:10:23,957 --> 01:10:26,192 I sleep in her bedroom. I use her sheets! 1436 01:10:26,192 --> 01:10:28,228 [Daniel] All right. All right. She's leaving. 1437 01:10:28,228 --> 01:10:30,463 Uh, just in case this is the last time 1438 01:10:30,463 --> 01:10:32,532 I ever get to talk to you, please know, 1439 01:10:34,267 --> 01:10:36,770 I also wish it was me. 1440 01:10:37,570 --> 01:10:38,838 Okay? I do. 1441 01:10:40,106 --> 01:10:41,408 I'm gonna go. 1442 01:10:41,408 --> 01:10:43,276 [voice breaking] I never got to say goodbye. 1443 01:10:44,511 --> 01:10:47,213 [Allison sighs] I know. 1444 01:10:50,517 --> 01:10:53,787 They were going to see a play. 1445 01:10:59,426 --> 01:11:00,560 I know. 1446 01:11:02,228 --> 01:11:03,730 She wanted to see a musical, 1447 01:11:03,730 --> 01:11:05,999 because she loved all the fancy costumes. 1448 01:11:11,137 --> 01:11:12,605 I didn't know that. 1449 01:11:12,605 --> 01:11:15,575 She said you made Nate really happy. 1450 01:11:15,575 --> 01:11:17,544 That you were the best thing that ever happened to him. 1451 01:11:18,878 --> 01:11:20,413 He made me happy, too. 1452 01:11:25,251 --> 01:11:27,320 [softly] Okay, I'm gonna go. 1453 01:11:28,288 --> 01:11:29,522 - [door opens] - Allison. 1454 01:11:32,258 --> 01:11:33,259 Yeah. 1455 01:11:34,694 --> 01:11:36,129 Would you like to stay for dinner? 1456 01:11:36,996 --> 01:11:38,264 What? 1457 01:11:39,999 --> 01:11:40,834 Uh... 1458 01:11:50,877 --> 01:11:54,214 So, you're an alcoholic, too? 1459 01:11:54,214 --> 01:11:55,582 [chidingly] Ryan. 1460 01:11:55,582 --> 01:11:56,649 Uh, no. 1461 01:11:58,118 --> 01:12:00,854 Alcohol's not exactly my problem. 1462 01:12:00,854 --> 01:12:02,722 - What is? Meth? - [Allison snorts] 1463 01:12:02,722 --> 01:12:04,240 Ryan. 1464 01:12:04,240 --> 01:12:07,193 No. Not meth. Um... 1465 01:12:10,296 --> 01:12:12,365 [smacks lips] Prescription painkillers. 1466 01:12:13,133 --> 01:12:14,300 Oxy. 1467 01:12:14,300 --> 01:12:15,935 How do you know about Oxy? 1468 01:12:15,935 --> 01:12:17,637 Kids at my school snort it. 1469 01:12:17,637 --> 01:12:18,772 It's heroin! 1470 01:12:18,772 --> 01:12:20,140 No, it's not. 1471 01:12:20,140 --> 01:12:21,508 I could get it easier than I could get a beer. 1472 01:12:21,508 --> 01:12:22,809 They sell it at Rite Aid. 1473 01:12:23,376 --> 01:12:24,611 [Daniel scoffs] 1474 01:12:24,611 --> 01:12:26,446 - So why'd you dump Uncle Nate? - Ryan. 1475 01:12:26,446 --> 01:12:27,814 [Ryan] He said you ghosted him. 1476 01:12:27,814 --> 01:12:29,149 It's not your business. 1477 01:12:29,149 --> 01:12:32,180 I just don't understand how 1478 01:12:32,180 --> 01:12:33,787 if he was gonna stay with you, 1479 01:12:33,787 --> 01:12:35,889 even after everything that happened, 1480 01:12:35,889 --> 01:12:36,890 why'd you dump him? 1481 01:12:38,224 --> 01:12:39,459 I was upset. 1482 01:12:43,496 --> 01:12:45,231 And so I ran. 1483 01:12:45,231 --> 01:12:46,933 - Like you, quitting soccer. - [curtly] Shut up! 1484 01:12:46,933 --> 01:12:48,768 You don't say "shut up" to me! 1485 01:12:48,768 --> 01:12:50,700 Ever again! 1486 01:12:52,972 --> 01:12:54,708 Why'd you quit soccer? 1487 01:12:54,708 --> 01:12:56,242 - She got into a fight. - 'Cause I hate every girl on the team. 1488 01:12:56,242 --> 01:12:57,277 Oh. 1489 01:12:58,978 --> 01:13:01,470 Your parents were telling me how amazing you were. 1490 01:13:02,615 --> 01:13:04,384 - They were? - [Allison] Mm-hmm. 1491 01:13:04,384 --> 01:13:06,353 Your dad actually was saying 1492 01:13:06,353 --> 01:13:08,221 how you were definitely gonna get a scholarship. 1493 01:13:10,900 --> 01:13:11,658 I wanna go to Stanford. 1494 01:13:12,258 --> 01:13:13,993 [Daniel laughing] 1495 01:13:13,993 --> 01:13:15,528 Why are you laughing? 1496 01:13:17,630 --> 01:13:21,301 You quit the team, you're mouthing off in school, 1497 01:13:21,301 --> 01:13:22,669 and you're not doing your homework. 1498 01:13:22,669 --> 01:13:24,437 You're gonna get into Stanford? 1499 01:13:24,437 --> 01:13:26,106 I didn't say I quit the team permanently. 1500 01:13:26,106 --> 01:13:28,740 I said I wanted to take a break. 1501 01:13:28,740 --> 01:13:29,442 And I had a 4.0 down the shore. 1502 01:13:29,442 --> 01:13:31,578 I could get it back in a second if I cared. 1503 01:13:31,578 --> 01:13:32,846 Why don't you care? 1504 01:13:32,846 --> 01:13:33,713 Why, do you think? 1505 01:13:35,548 --> 01:13:36,750 - [Daniel] Shit. - [Allison] Okay. 1506 01:13:36,750 --> 01:13:38,180 Why don't we just call it a night, okay? 1507 01:13:38,180 --> 01:13:39,319 [Allison] Yeah, I'm gonna go home. 1508 01:13:44,290 --> 01:13:45,692 Hey, um... 1509 01:13:45,692 --> 01:13:46,860 [tears off page] 1510 01:13:49,129 --> 01:13:52,165 Um, just in case you, I don't know, 1511 01:13:54,134 --> 01:13:55,568 wanna talk, need to talk... 1512 01:13:57,300 --> 01:13:58,104 This is me. 1513 01:13:58,104 --> 01:14:00,140 And it's up to you, but I'm here. 1514 01:14:01,441 --> 01:14:02,575 Okay. 1515 01:14:03,176 --> 01:14:04,711 [receding footsteps] 1516 01:14:06,980 --> 01:14:08,715 [Daniel] I'm sorry about all that. 1517 01:14:08,715 --> 01:14:09,916 [Allison] Uh, it's fine. 1518 01:14:11,751 --> 01:14:13,620 You see what I'm dealing with. 1519 01:14:13,620 --> 01:14:15,155 Honestly, it's okay. 1520 01:14:16,289 --> 01:14:17,490 Look. [sighs] 1521 01:14:18,625 --> 01:14:20,560 She's a very fragile kid. 1522 01:14:21,861 --> 01:14:26,660 So, I'd appreciate it if you didn't contact her. 1523 01:14:28,100 --> 01:14:29,350 Oh. 1524 01:14:29,703 --> 01:14:30,704 Okay. 1525 01:14:32,205 --> 01:14:34,574 Yeah, I just... 1526 01:14:34,574 --> 01:14:37,777 [stuttering] I just wanted her to know that I was available 1527 01:14:37,777 --> 01:14:40,280 if she wanted to talk or anything. 1528 01:14:40,280 --> 01:14:42,382 I'm just asking if you will 1529 01:14:43,350 --> 01:14:44,818 please just let her be. 1530 01:14:45,719 --> 01:14:46,920 Scout's honor. 1531 01:14:46,920 --> 01:14:49,789 No, that's Spock's "Live long and prosper." 1532 01:14:49,789 --> 01:14:51,458 We Boy Scouts do this. 1533 01:14:51,458 --> 01:14:53,593 Oh. I prefer Spock. 1534 01:14:54,494 --> 01:14:56,496 Live long and prosper, Daniel. 1535 01:14:56,496 --> 01:14:57,597 - [Daniel] Good night. - Thank you. 1536 01:15:04,838 --> 01:15:07,474 [piano keyboard playing] 1537 01:15:13,513 --> 01:15:14,514 Mmm. 1538 01:15:18,551 --> 01:15:21,388 [humming] 1539 01:15:35,535 --> 01:15:38,710 [resumes playing keyboard] 1540 01:15:38,710 --> 01:15:41,574 [plays descending notes] 1541 01:15:41,574 --> 01:15:42,876 [keys clang] 1542 01:15:55,655 --> 01:15:56,790 [cell phone chimes] 1543 01:16:04,698 --> 01:16:06,533 [indistinct background chatter] 1544 01:16:27,721 --> 01:16:28,755 [chuckles] 1545 01:16:37,931 --> 01:16:39,132 [chuckling] 1546 01:16:47,640 --> 01:16:49,275 [crowd cheering and applauding] 1547 01:16:50,944 --> 01:16:53,130 Go, baby! Go, go, go! 1548 01:16:53,130 --> 01:16:54,414 [quietly] Come on, come on, come on. 1549 01:16:54,414 --> 01:16:55,782 [woman] Come on! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! 1550 01:16:55,782 --> 01:16:57,617 - Yeah! - [crowd cheers] 1551 01:16:57,617 --> 01:16:58,785 Attagirl! 1552 01:16:59,786 --> 01:17:01,287 Attagirl! 1553 01:17:02,789 --> 01:17:04,624 [cheering continues] 1554 01:17:05,759 --> 01:17:06,893 [mouthing] Thank you. 1555 01:17:11,431 --> 01:17:13,733 [somber music playing] 1556 01:17:19,172 --> 01:17:20,907 [bed creaking] 1557 01:17:20,907 --> 01:17:22,909 [heart beating] 1558 01:17:25,378 --> 01:17:26,913 [breathes heavily] 1559 01:17:29,549 --> 01:17:31,117 [fan creaking softly] 1560 01:17:35,755 --> 01:17:36,956 [cell phone chimes] 1561 01:17:49,200 --> 01:17:50,403 [Ryan] Why do you ride your bike everywhere? 1562 01:17:51,400 --> 01:17:52,720 Um... 1563 01:17:53,540 --> 01:17:55,575 I haven't been in a car since the accident. 1564 01:17:56,376 --> 01:17:57,944 'Cause you feel guilty? 1565 01:18:00,413 --> 01:18:01,548 Uh, no. 1566 01:18:02,248 --> 01:18:05,819 Because I feel... scared. 1567 01:18:05,819 --> 01:18:07,354 Daniel says you were using your phone. 1568 01:18:09,656 --> 01:18:11,558 [Allison] Uh, I was using Maps. 1569 01:18:12,859 --> 01:18:13,960 Everyone uses Maps. 1570 01:18:13,960 --> 01:18:15,829 Yeah, well, he has all the reports. 1571 01:18:15,829 --> 01:18:17,300 He's memorized them. 1572 01:18:18,264 --> 01:18:20,400 He stares at them at night. It's weird. 1573 01:18:20,400 --> 01:18:23,403 Okay, well, I was there. 1574 01:18:23,403 --> 01:18:28,174 And the person who wrote those reports wasn't, so... 1575 01:18:28,174 --> 01:18:30,610 [Ryan] Tell me why you ended it with Nate. 1576 01:18:30,610 --> 01:18:32,479 My mom would want you guys to be together still. 1577 01:18:33,713 --> 01:18:35,815 Ryan, I don't even know what to say to that. 1578 01:18:36,816 --> 01:18:38,718 My mom used to really, um... 1579 01:18:40,987 --> 01:18:43,890 just, like, look out for him and stuff, you know? Um... 1580 01:18:44,858 --> 01:18:45,892 And... 1581 01:18:47,293 --> 01:18:49,996 I've been thinking maybe now I'm supposed to. 1582 01:18:50,864 --> 01:18:51,998 Because she can't. 1583 01:18:53,566 --> 01:18:56,360 I bet that would make her really proud. 1584 01:18:56,360 --> 01:18:57,303 I could tell you about what's happening 1585 01:18:57,303 --> 01:18:58,338 - with him if you want. - No, that's okay. 1586 01:18:58,338 --> 01:18:59,706 Thank you, though. 1587 01:18:59,706 --> 01:19:01,740 I've tried really hard to avoid all of that... 1588 01:19:01,740 --> 01:19:02,308 He moved to Tribeca. 1589 01:19:02,308 --> 01:19:03,309 Wow. 1590 01:19:04,411 --> 01:19:06,346 Yeah. He has a dog. 1591 01:19:06,346 --> 01:19:08,140 - A dog? - Mm-hmm. 1592 01:19:08,140 --> 01:19:10,750 A French Bulldog named Jasper. 1593 01:19:10,750 --> 01:19:12,585 He never really struck me as a Frenchie type, 1594 01:19:12,585 --> 01:19:14,421 but okay. [chuckles] 1595 01:19:14,421 --> 01:19:15,655 It's his girlfriend's. 1596 01:19:20,293 --> 01:19:21,294 Oh. 1597 01:19:22,429 --> 01:19:23,496 [Ryan softly] Yeah. 1598 01:19:24,998 --> 01:19:27,670 I... I don't need to hear this. 1599 01:19:28,301 --> 01:19:29,936 - Are you okay? - Mm-hmm. 1600 01:19:31,905 --> 01:19:34,740 How long have they been going out? 1601 01:19:34,740 --> 01:19:36,943 I don't know. Like, four months, I think. 1602 01:19:37,744 --> 01:19:38,645 Wow. 1603 01:19:38,645 --> 01:19:42,150 Yeah. She's a paralegal. 1604 01:19:43,490 --> 01:19:44,217 I don't even know what that is. 1605 01:19:44,217 --> 01:19:45,952 Is that, like, a good thing? 1606 01:19:47,220 --> 01:19:49,122 [voice breaking] Yeah. Wow. 1607 01:19:49,122 --> 01:19:51,257 - You just keep saying, "Wow." - Yeah. 1608 01:19:51,257 --> 01:19:52,692 It's just a lot to take in. 1609 01:19:54,494 --> 01:19:55,962 Um... 1610 01:19:55,962 --> 01:19:58,531 I'm really happy for him. I am. 1611 01:19:58,531 --> 01:20:00,133 He really deserves to be happy. 1612 01:20:01,340 --> 01:20:02,535 I... 1613 01:20:02,535 --> 01:20:04,571 - I shouldn't have told you. - No, no, no. It's fine. 1614 01:20:04,571 --> 01:20:06,673 But you're upset. 1615 01:20:06,673 --> 01:20:08,708 We went through so much together. 1616 01:20:10,910 --> 01:20:14,470 I really want good things to happen to him. 1617 01:20:14,914 --> 01:20:16,249 I'm really sorry 1618 01:20:16,249 --> 01:20:17,517 - I made you upset. - [Allison] It's okay. 1619 01:20:17,517 --> 01:20:18,685 - I'm gonna go to the bathroom. - I really 1620 01:20:18,685 --> 01:20:20,860 meant for this to be friendly. 1621 01:20:20,860 --> 01:20:22,880 Yeah. I'll see you in a second. 1622 01:20:22,880 --> 01:20:24,724 [breathing heavily] 1623 01:20:27,160 --> 01:20:28,261 [door slams] 1624 01:20:32,866 --> 01:20:35,402 [brooding music playing] 1625 01:20:35,402 --> 01:20:37,270 [crying softly] 1626 01:20:44,744 --> 01:20:45,745 [phone camera clicking] 1627 01:20:47,180 --> 01:20:48,748 [sobbing] 1628 01:20:57,190 --> 01:20:59,192 [continues sobbing] 1629 01:21:05,980 --> 01:21:06,990 [sniffles] 1630 01:21:13,273 --> 01:21:14,741 Hey. 1631 01:21:14,741 --> 01:21:16,209 Is something wrong? 1632 01:21:16,209 --> 01:21:18,578 I, um... I forgot I have a job interview. 1633 01:21:18,578 --> 01:21:21,281 So, I'm gonna go. [sniffles] 1634 01:21:21,281 --> 01:21:22,582 - You sick? - [sniffles] 1635 01:21:23,183 --> 01:21:24,184 [voice breaks] Yeah. 1636 01:21:24,184 --> 01:21:26,553 - Withdrawal? - I'm trying. 1637 01:21:26,553 --> 01:21:28,421 All right. Look, don't stop. 1638 01:21:29,322 --> 01:21:30,323 - Okay? - Okay. 1639 01:21:31,925 --> 01:21:32,892 Don't use. 1640 01:21:34,627 --> 01:21:35,795 Okay. 1641 01:21:35,795 --> 01:21:37,197 Don't stay home tonight. Do something. 1642 01:21:37,197 --> 01:21:39,165 - Okay. Okay. - All right? Okay. 1643 01:21:40,367 --> 01:21:41,234 You need a hug? 1644 01:21:43,169 --> 01:21:44,170 [voice breaking] Um, if I hug you, 1645 01:21:44,170 --> 01:21:45,939 I'm gonna sob, so no. 1646 01:21:45,939 --> 01:21:47,474 Well, I can handle that. 1647 01:21:47,474 --> 01:21:49,509 No, I shouldn't. Not in front of Ryan. [sniffles] 1648 01:21:49,509 --> 01:21:51,440 Okay. 1649 01:21:51,440 --> 01:21:52,912 Well, I'm hugging you with my eyes. 1650 01:21:53,346 --> 01:21:54,314 Thank you. 1651 01:21:55,582 --> 01:21:56,950 - Be careful. - Okay. 1652 01:22:01,154 --> 01:22:03,890 [Allison] I have to go. So, I'll see you another time. 1653 01:22:04,224 --> 01:22:05,580 Bye. 1654 01:22:07,527 --> 01:22:08,661 [whispers] **** me. 1655 01:22:09,950 --> 01:22:10,630 Hey. 1656 01:22:10,463 --> 01:22:11,531 Let's go. 1657 01:22:11,531 --> 01:22:13,660 This ***hole charged me six buck 1658 01:22:13,660 --> 01:22:14,100 for a cup of coffee. Come on. 1659 01:22:16,336 --> 01:22:19,720 Okay. 1660 01:22:19,720 --> 01:22:22,242 ["A Love Song Seven Ways" playing] ♪ It starts so early now ♪ 1661 01:22:22,242 --> 01:22:25,979 ♪ The sun has gone to Birkenau ♪ 1662 01:22:25,979 --> 01:22:29,616 ♪ As shadows creep across your brow ♪ 1663 01:22:29,616 --> 01:22:31,851 ♪ I love you just the same ♪ 1664 01:22:33,386 --> 01:22:34,654 [breathing heavily] ****! 1665 01:22:34,654 --> 01:22:36,723 ♪ These freakish holidays ♪ 1666 01:22:36,723 --> 01:22:40,660 ♪ That make us act like renegades ♪ 1667 01:22:40,660 --> 01:22:44,264 ♪ A blood bath at the Ice Capades ♪ 1668 01:22:44,264 --> 01:22:46,533 ♪ Just makes me love you ♪ 1669 01:22:46,533 --> 01:22:52,372 ♪ More than I should ever have been allowed ♪ 1670 01:22:52,372 --> 01:22:55,575 ♪ In a world of candy guns ♪ 1671 01:22:55,575 --> 01:23:01,114 ♪ Sweet as demons in the candy apple sun ♪ 1672 01:23:01,114 --> 01:23:07,220 ♪ Think it quiet but then don't sing it loud ♪ 1673 01:23:07,220 --> 01:23:10,323 ♪ Through a world of number ones ♪ 1674 01:23:10,323 --> 01:23:13,126 ♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪ 1675 01:23:13,126 --> 01:23:14,260 Look at me! 1676 01:23:14,260 --> 01:23:15,295 [glass shattering] 1677 01:23:16,863 --> 01:23:18,131 [plays chord] 1678 01:23:18,131 --> 01:23:20,600 ♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪ 1679 01:23:20,600 --> 01:23:24,300 ♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪ 1680 01:23:24,300 --> 01:23:27,173 ♪ I love you seven ways ♪ 1681 01:23:28,675 --> 01:23:31,311 ♪ You wear those baby tees ♪ 1682 01:23:32,120 --> 01:23:33,346 [knocking on door] 1683 01:23:33,346 --> 01:23:35,480 [Diane] Allie! 1684 01:23:35,480 --> 01:23:37,584 - [knocking continues] - [in sing-song voice] Allie! 1685 01:23:39,119 --> 01:23:40,153 Allie? 1686 01:23:40,153 --> 01:23:41,921 Did you job hunt today? 1687 01:23:46,590 --> 01:23:47,460 Please leave me alone. 1688 01:23:48,194 --> 01:23:50,563 I was looking on Etsy. 1689 01:23:50,563 --> 01:23:52,632 And I was thinking it would be so cute 1690 01:23:52,632 --> 01:23:54,467 if we found, like, a craft that we like. 1691 01:23:54,467 --> 01:23:56,703 And maybe we could make a little money. What do you think? 1692 01:23:58,710 --> 01:23:59,739 [groans] 1693 01:23:59,739 --> 01:24:01,174 [cell phone chimes and vibrates] 1694 01:24:13,386 --> 01:24:14,788 [Diane] I was thinking it'd be so cute 1695 01:24:14,788 --> 01:24:16,656 if it was like something fun that we could sell. 1696 01:24:16,656 --> 01:24:20,593 Like little bibs for babies that catch their food, 1697 01:24:20,593 --> 01:24:23,196 or salad dressing. 1698 01:24:23,196 --> 01:24:25,498 Or you know, just... 1699 01:24:25,498 --> 01:24:27,167 [gasps] 1700 01:24:27,167 --> 01:24:28,401 And you know what? 1701 01:24:28,401 --> 01:24:30,303 We could be on Shark Tank! 1702 01:24:30,303 --> 01:24:32,172 Can you imagine, Allie? 1703 01:24:32,172 --> 01:24:33,373 And I know you're like, 1704 01:24:33,373 --> 01:24:35,675 "Oh, shut up, Mom! You're drunk again." 1705 01:24:35,675 --> 01:24:36,810 But listen... 1706 01:24:47,520 --> 01:24:49,522 [Diane] Ooh, I just thought of the best idea! 1707 01:24:49,522 --> 01:24:52,525 We could do, um, papier-mache! 1708 01:24:53,360 --> 01:24:54,928 Papier-mache! 1709 01:24:54,928 --> 01:24:56,629 So it would be like, 1710 01:24:56,629 --> 01:24:58,398 do a little dance, a little song. 1711 01:24:58,398 --> 01:25:00,533 "Hey, Sharks! You know how everybody likes papier-mache." 1712 01:25:00,533 --> 01:25:03,970 I would be like, "Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!" 1713 01:25:03,970 --> 01:25:06,439 Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!" 1714 01:25:06,439 --> 01:25:08,875 Wait, that's too hard. We'll be like, 1715 01:25:08,875 --> 01:25:12,679 "I'm Diane. This is my associate, Allison. 1716 01:25:12,679 --> 01:25:17,817 "And this is our... whatever!" You know... 1717 01:25:18,985 --> 01:25:20,820 [softly] You weak piece of ****ing shit. 1718 01:25:20,820 --> 01:25:22,856 You couldn't make it go two days. 1719 01:25:24,124 --> 01:25:25,592 I ****ing hate you. 1720 01:25:26,426 --> 01:25:29,863 I hate you so much. 1721 01:25:29,863 --> 01:25:32,665 Allie, do you remember when you were in fourth grade, 1722 01:25:32,665 --> 01:25:35,135 you made that giant mitochondria? 1723 01:25:35,135 --> 01:25:40,106 That's something that would sell, I promise you. 1724 01:25:40,106 --> 01:25:42,709 We could be like, "Hey, Sharks!" 1725 01:25:42,709 --> 01:25:45,245 We got them for you! Papier-mache!" 1726 01:25:45,245 --> 01:25:48,882 You know, like all the... 1727 01:25:48,882 --> 01:25:51,718 [Diane's voice becomes muffled and indistinct] 1728 01:25:56,289 --> 01:25:59,250 I knew you would like that idea! I knew it! 1729 01:25:59,826 --> 01:26:01,828 [breathing heavily] 1730 01:26:02,896 --> 01:26:04,597 [pills rattling] 1731 01:26:11,438 --> 01:26:12,739 [bottle cap opening] 1732 01:26:17,911 --> 01:26:20,447 [shuddering] 1733 01:26:34,594 --> 01:26:36,960 [gasps] 1734 01:26:37,864 --> 01:26:39,699 - [panting] - [faucet running] 1735 01:26:55,782 --> 01:26:57,317 [sniffles] 1736 01:26:58,184 --> 01:27:00,153 [continues panting] 1737 01:27:08,461 --> 01:27:10,497 [train horn toots] 1738 01:27:22,175 --> 01:27:23,176 Yes! 1739 01:27:23,176 --> 01:27:24,310 [laughs] 1740 01:27:25,178 --> 01:27:26,680 You're on the wrong side. 1741 01:27:27,480 --> 01:27:29,349 What? No, I'm not. 1742 01:27:32,485 --> 01:27:34,540 Oh. 1743 01:27:34,540 --> 01:27:35,588 Well, good thing you came! 1744 01:27:35,588 --> 01:27:36,756 Oh, my God! 1745 01:27:37,257 --> 01:27:38,625 Get over here. 1746 01:27:38,625 --> 01:27:40,193 Whoo! Party! 1747 01:27:40,193 --> 01:27:41,961 [train whooshes by] 1748 01:27:49,202 --> 01:27:50,236 [knocking on door] 1749 01:27:58,945 --> 01:28:00,680 - Hello, Diane! - Oh, hey! 1750 01:28:00,680 --> 01:28:02,716 I don't know 1751 01:28:02,716 --> 01:28:05,510 how much Allison has told you. 1752 01:28:06,286 --> 01:28:08,254 But we've been going to the same program. 1753 01:28:08,254 --> 01:28:10,357 Oh, yeah, she said. She told me, yeah. 1754 01:28:11,257 --> 01:28:12,525 My granddaughter, Ryan, 1755 01:28:12,525 --> 01:28:15,528 has taken an interest in Allison and, 1756 01:28:15,528 --> 01:28:17,230 well, now I can't find her. 1757 01:28:17,230 --> 01:28:20,133 So I just thought I'd drop by and see if she might be here. 1758 01:28:21,401 --> 01:28:22,869 I tried texting them, 1759 01:28:22,869 --> 01:28:26,239 but, you know, they all go green. 1760 01:28:26,239 --> 01:28:27,240 Do you know what that means? 1761 01:28:27,240 --> 01:28:28,508 I have no idea. 1762 01:28:28,508 --> 01:28:30,710 I hate when that happens, when they go... 1763 01:28:30,710 --> 01:28:32,145 It's all green 1764 01:28:32,145 --> 01:28:33,713 and you don't know if it's sent. It's so weird. 1765 01:28:33,713 --> 01:28:35,515 - [Daniel] Right. Right. Right. - Drives me crazy. 1766 01:28:35,515 --> 01:28:37,250 You'll have to let me know if you figure that out. 1767 01:28:37,250 --> 01:28:39,252 [both chuckle] 1768 01:28:39,252 --> 01:28:40,887 I'm not tech-y. 1769 01:28:40,887 --> 01:28:44,324 But I actually tonight was trying to find Allison myself. 1770 01:28:44,324 --> 01:28:46,426 But do you really think they're together tonight? 1771 01:28:48,261 --> 01:28:50,130 Both missing at the same time. It... 1772 01:28:51,331 --> 01:28:52,966 seems a little curious. 1773 01:28:52,966 --> 01:28:55,268 [sighs] Seems like no matter how old they get, 1774 01:28:55,268 --> 01:28:57,570 - you never stop worrying. - Yeah. 1775 01:28:57,570 --> 01:28:59,500 But they always seem to turn up. 1776 01:29:00,473 --> 01:29:01,708 Not always. 1777 01:29:03,576 --> 01:29:05,450 Yeah. 1778 01:29:05,450 --> 01:29:07,847 Well, can you let me know if you find them? 1779 01:29:07,847 --> 01:29:09,349 - I will. - Great. 1780 01:29:11,351 --> 01:29:12,285 Thank you. 1781 01:29:13,153 --> 01:29:14,587 What's that? 1782 01:29:14,587 --> 01:29:15,755 Oh, I was just... I... 1783 01:29:15,755 --> 01:29:17,924 I was just saying thank you so much 1784 01:29:17,924 --> 01:29:20,260 for being so kind to Allison. 1785 01:29:20,260 --> 01:29:23,563 She said you've always been so warm to her and you know, 1786 01:29:23,563 --> 01:29:26,900 I... just wanted to say thanks, 'cause, you know, 1787 01:29:26,900 --> 01:29:30,603 like, some people wouldn't be like that, so... 1788 01:29:30,603 --> 01:29:34,341 Well, we're all just trying to move on, I suppose. 1789 01:29:34,341 --> 01:29:35,642 Yeah. 1790 01:29:35,642 --> 01:29:36,776 I don't think Allie and I are doing 1791 01:29:36,776 --> 01:29:38,578 a very good job of that, Daniel. 1792 01:29:39,946 --> 01:29:41,314 You know what they say. 1793 01:29:41,314 --> 01:29:43,830 [Diane] What? 1794 01:29:43,830 --> 01:29:45,819 "Comparison is the thief of joy." 1795 01:29:45,819 --> 01:29:48,188 Oh. I didn't know they said that. 1796 01:29:49,622 --> 01:29:50,657 Well... 1797 01:29:51,825 --> 01:29:53,159 somebody did. 1798 01:29:53,159 --> 01:29:55,950 [laughs] Yeah. 1799 01:29:56,596 --> 01:29:58,198 Well, I best be going then. 1800 01:29:58,198 --> 01:29:59,632 Oh, yeah, of course. 1801 01:29:59,632 --> 01:30:01,340 - [Daniel] Night. - Good night. 1802 01:30:07,540 --> 01:30:09,676 [downtempo music playing] 1803 01:30:15,215 --> 01:30:17,617 [singing "Stardust"] ♪ Stare into space ♪ 1804 01:30:19,119 --> 01:30:20,854 ♪ Out in the blue ♪ 1805 01:30:20,854 --> 01:30:22,322 Oh, my God, there he is! 1806 01:30:22,322 --> 01:30:24,570 Look at him! Isn't he so hot? 1807 01:30:25,792 --> 01:30:27,627 Is that a face tattoo? 1808 01:30:27,627 --> 01:30:29,763 - Yeah! - Oh, my God! 1809 01:30:30,697 --> 01:30:32,966 [sighs] I love this song! 1810 01:30:32,966 --> 01:30:34,401 Quinn sent it to me in a playlist. 1811 01:30:34,401 --> 01:30:36,836 He, like, knows so much about music. 1812 01:30:38,872 --> 01:30:39,973 Thank you. 1813 01:30:41,107 --> 01:30:42,375 For getting me to come. 1814 01:30:43,243 --> 01:30:44,344 Yeah. 1815 01:30:45,512 --> 01:30:48,815 [singer] ♪ You're the only thing ♪ 1816 01:30:48,815 --> 01:30:50,350 That's the guitarist, Thomas. 1817 01:30:50,350 --> 01:30:53,253 He's staring right at you! 1818 01:30:53,253 --> 01:30:55,588 [Allison] Oh, stop. No, I'm okay. I'm fine. 1819 01:30:55,588 --> 01:30:56,890 I know, you can do so much better. 1820 01:30:56,890 --> 01:30:58,591 - [Allison] What? No. - But he is ****ing hot. 1821 01:30:58,591 --> 01:31:00,560 [both laugh] 1822 01:31:00,560 --> 01:31:04,664 Uh... Okay, I, um... I gotta go get someone in. 1823 01:31:04,664 --> 01:31:05,598 But I'll be right back. 1824 01:31:05,598 --> 01:31:06,966 - Should I come with you? - No. 1825 01:31:06,966 --> 01:31:08,668 - Are you sure? - No, I'll be right back. Yeah. 1826 01:31:08,668 --> 01:31:10,804 [singer] ♪ Take a photo ♪ 1827 01:31:12,305 --> 01:31:14,407 ♪ Make it real ♪ 1828 01:31:16,443 --> 01:31:18,411 ♪ You're the stardust ♪ 1829 01:31:24,417 --> 01:31:27,754 ♪ Stardust ♪ 1830 01:31:27,754 --> 01:31:30,890 ♪ Lighting the fields ♪ 1831 01:31:32,625 --> 01:31:35,280 ♪ Caught in a state ♪ 1832 01:31:36,496 --> 01:31:39,650 ♪ Watching it fall ♪ 1833 01:31:40,200 --> 01:31:42,769 ♪ Aquarius bloom ♪ 1834 01:31:44,204 --> 01:31:46,706 ♪ Just bought a car ♪ 1835 01:31:52,712 --> 01:31:54,214 Surprise! 1836 01:31:56,820 --> 01:31:57,450 Nathan? 1837 01:31:58,585 --> 01:32:00,530 - Hi! - [Allison] Hi! 1838 01:32:01,287 --> 01:32:02,589 Ryan? 1839 01:32:02,589 --> 01:32:04,324 - What? - Hi! 1840 01:32:05,492 --> 01:32:07,494 Uh, sorry. 1841 01:32:07,494 --> 01:32:10,663 Allie, uh, this is my girlfriend, Joelle. 1842 01:32:11,765 --> 01:32:13,867 [voice cracking] Hi. I'm sorry. Um... 1843 01:32:14,601 --> 01:32:15,668 Nice to meet you. 1844 01:32:15,668 --> 01:32:17,237 I've heard so much about you. 1845 01:32:18,104 --> 01:32:19,172 Oh. 1846 01:32:20,440 --> 01:32:21,441 Okay. 1847 01:32:21,441 --> 01:32:22,876 I think we're the victims 1848 01:32:22,876 --> 01:32:25,345 of a teenage girl's good intentions. 1849 01:32:25,345 --> 01:32:27,800 - [Allison] What? - I said... 1850 01:32:27,800 --> 01:32:29,616 I said I think she meant well. Ryan. 1851 01:32:32,218 --> 01:32:34,540 [voice breaking] I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go. 1852 01:32:34,540 --> 01:32:35,188 - [Nathan] Are you good? - I'm fine. 1853 01:32:35,188 --> 01:32:36,489 I'm fine. I'm gonna go. 1854 01:32:36,489 --> 01:32:37,624 Allie! 1855 01:32:41,227 --> 01:32:42,762 Ryan. 1856 01:32:42,762 --> 01:32:44,664 What the **** did you just do that for? 1857 01:32:45,899 --> 01:32:47,967 No offense, but you weren't supposed to come. 1858 01:32:47,967 --> 01:32:50,103 I know being a paralegal is a good job, 1859 01:32:50,103 --> 01:32:51,671 but he's supposed to be with Allie. 1860 01:32:51,671 --> 01:32:54,107 - I'm sorry. - [Nathan] Ryan? 1861 01:32:54,107 --> 01:32:55,709 What the **** did you just do? 1862 01:32:56,643 --> 01:32:58,144 I'm fixing it. 1863 01:32:58,144 --> 01:32:59,813 For Mom. 1864 01:32:59,813 --> 01:33:02,215 Go find her and then I'm taking you home. 1865 01:33:03,383 --> 01:33:04,351 [Ryan scoffs] 1866 01:33:05,819 --> 01:33:07,220 I am so sorry. 1867 01:33:07,854 --> 01:33:09,689 Serious... This... 1868 01:33:09,689 --> 01:33:11,910 - It's fine. It's okay. - Yeah? 1869 01:33:11,910 --> 01:33:12,359 - Yeah. Yeah. - You good? 1870 01:33:12,359 --> 01:33:13,693 I'm fine. I need a drink. 1871 01:33:13,693 --> 01:33:14,861 - But I'm fine. - Yes. 1872 01:33:14,861 --> 01:33:16,129 Oh, ****! 1873 01:33:20,967 --> 01:33:22,235 [singer] You guys have been great, 1874 01:33:22,235 --> 01:33:23,403 - thank you so much! - [cheers and applause] 1875 01:33:23,403 --> 01:33:24,804 Allie! 1876 01:33:24,804 --> 01:33:27,173 Why the **** did you just do that? 1877 01:33:27,173 --> 01:33:29,242 I thought it was gonna make you happy. 1878 01:33:29,242 --> 01:33:32,278 You thought that would make me happy? 1879 01:33:32,278 --> 01:33:34,140 - [Ryan] Yeah! - Are you insane? 1880 01:33:34,140 --> 01:33:36,182 Hi! Can I please get, um... Hey, I'm sorry. 1881 01:33:36,182 --> 01:33:38,885 Could I just get a glass of tequila, please? 1882 01:33:38,885 --> 01:33:40,186 ****, I can't breathe. 1883 01:33:40,186 --> 01:33:41,521 - Ryan, I can't ****ing breathe! - Calm down. 1884 01:33:41,521 --> 01:33:43,323 Calm down, okay? I'm sorry. 1885 01:33:43,323 --> 01:33:45,458 You ****ing did that on purpose! 1886 01:33:45,458 --> 01:33:46,760 You did that to hurt me, right? 1887 01:33:46,760 --> 01:33:48,595 Is that what you did? Yeah, you did. 1888 01:33:48,595 --> 01:33:50,630 - Just admit it. Yes, you did! - No, I didn't! 1889 01:33:50,630 --> 01:33:51,631 - You did that on ****ing purpose! - No, I didn't! 1890 01:33:51,631 --> 01:33:54,601 You killed, baby! You killed! 1891 01:33:54,601 --> 01:33:57,370 - That was incredible, man! - [Ryan] Hi! Hi! 1892 01:33:57,370 --> 01:33:59,305 I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan. 1893 01:33:59,305 --> 01:34:01,174 You guys sounded so good! 1894 01:34:01,174 --> 01:34:03,900 You're gonna be so famous! 1895 01:34:03,900 --> 01:34:05,712 I know. I really have to savor my anonymity. 1896 01:34:05,712 --> 01:34:09,449 Hey, we're gonna go to this party over in Williamsburg. 1897 01:34:09,449 --> 01:34:10,984 You guys wanna come? 1898 01:34:12,585 --> 01:34:14,354 [sighs] ****, yeah, whatever. Let's go! 1899 01:34:14,354 --> 01:34:15,555 I need to get outta here. 1900 01:34:16,322 --> 01:34:18,191 [whooping] 1901 01:34:21,795 --> 01:34:23,596 Do you have the time? 1902 01:34:23,596 --> 01:34:25,465 - [cell phone chiming] - Yeah. 1903 01:34:29,690 --> 01:34:31,204 Hey, Danny. Everything okay? 1904 01:34:31,204 --> 01:34:34,941 I can't find Ryan. I've tried everything. 1905 01:34:34,941 --> 01:34:38,912 Anyway, my mind can't help but wonder if... 1906 01:34:38,912 --> 01:34:41,181 Well, if you've seen Allison or not. 1907 01:34:41,181 --> 01:34:44,451 Uh, no, I haven't, but I can text her if you want. 1908 01:34:44,451 --> 01:34:45,819 Well, I've tried texting both of them, 1909 01:34:45,819 --> 01:34:47,220 but neither one is answering. 1910 01:34:47,220 --> 01:34:48,455 What's wrong? 1911 01:34:48,455 --> 01:34:49,889 Daniel can't find his granddaughter. 1912 01:34:49,889 --> 01:34:52,258 Um, well, if he pays for the phone, he can just log 1913 01:34:52,258 --> 01:34:53,893 into the account, and use Find My Phone. 1914 01:34:53,893 --> 01:34:56,329 Yeah. Daniel, do you know what Find My Phone is? 1915 01:34:56,329 --> 01:34:57,797 No, what the hell is that? 1916 01:34:57,797 --> 01:34:59,632 [hip-hop music playing on speaker] 1917 01:34:59,632 --> 01:35:01,901 [Ryan] This is amazing! 1918 01:35:02,669 --> 01:35:06,473 Whoa! 1919 01:35:06,473 --> 01:35:07,974 [indistinct chatter] 1920 01:35:21,521 --> 01:35:22,689 [cell phone chiming] 1921 01:35:28,862 --> 01:35:29,863 ****! 1922 01:35:31,364 --> 01:35:34,868 Allie, this is Jarvis. He has the stuff you asked for. 1923 01:35:34,868 --> 01:35:36,136 Hey! 1924 01:35:36,136 --> 01:35:37,871 I don't have any thirties, just dope. 1925 01:35:37,871 --> 01:35:40,874 Uh, yeah, okay. Yeah, whatever you have. 1926 01:35:42,709 --> 01:35:44,411 Can you spot me? 1927 01:35:44,411 --> 01:35:46,513 - I'll pay you back, I promise. - Uh, okay, all right. 1928 01:35:53,319 --> 01:35:54,320 Thanks. 1929 01:36:00,930 --> 01:36:01,161 [snorts] 1930 01:36:02,429 --> 01:36:03,997 It's coming. Look like! 1931 01:36:07,333 --> 01:36:08,301 Yeah, here it is. 1932 01:36:08,301 --> 01:36:09,469 Okay, what does it say? 1933 01:36:14,374 --> 01:36:16,443 [cell phone continues ringing] 1934 01:36:16,443 --> 01:36:18,440 I think I'm gonna throw up. 1935 01:36:21,140 --> 01:36:22,282 What the ****! 1936 01:36:23,616 --> 01:36:25,885 She's in the ****ing city! 1937 01:36:25,885 --> 01:36:28,121 She's in ****ing Williamsburg! 1938 01:36:28,121 --> 01:36:30,190 Okay, Daniel, wait. I'm gonna come pick you up. 1939 01:36:30,190 --> 01:36:32,158 I don't want you to do something you're gonna regret. 1940 01:36:32,158 --> 01:36:33,860 I'm gonna kill that mother****er. 1941 01:36:33,860 --> 01:36:35,695 Yeah, that's exactly what I'm worried about. I'm on my way. 1942 01:36:49,409 --> 01:36:51,978 - [Allison grunts] - Okay. Easy does it. 1943 01:36:51,978 --> 01:36:53,980 - You're wasted. - No, I'm not. 1944 01:36:53,980 --> 01:36:56,416 [hip-hop music playing on speaker] 1945 01:36:56,416 --> 01:36:57,484 Ryan? 1946 01:36:59,352 --> 01:37:02,220 [breathing heavily] 1947 01:37:22,175 --> 01:37:23,376 Ryan? 1948 01:37:27,614 --> 01:37:29,349 - Ryan, are you in there? - [knocking on door] 1949 01:37:29,349 --> 01:37:31,685 [Quinn] She's fine. Go the **** away! 1950 01:37:31,685 --> 01:37:32,886 [Allison] Ryan? 1951 01:37:32,886 --> 01:37:35,550 [techno music playing on speaker] 1952 01:37:40,226 --> 01:37:41,261 [knocking on door] 1953 01:37:41,261 --> 01:37:42,362 [Allison] Ryan? 1954 01:37:43,830 --> 01:37:46,660 Can you just open the door, please? 1955 01:37:48,368 --> 01:37:49,369 Ryan. 1956 01:37:49,369 --> 01:37:50,570 [Quinn] Go away! 1957 01:37:50,570 --> 01:37:52,806 [Daniel] Allison? Where's Ryan? 1958 01:37:52,806 --> 01:37:54,274 What're you doing here? 1959 01:37:54,274 --> 01:37:56,543 Where the **** is Ryan? 1960 01:37:56,543 --> 01:37:58,845 She's in here. I'm trying to... She won't answer. 1961 01:37:58,845 --> 01:37:59,946 - [knocking on door] - Ryan! 1962 01:38:00,914 --> 01:38:01,948 [Daniel] Ryan? 1963 01:38:03,383 --> 01:38:05,850 It's your grandpa, open the door. 1964 01:38:06,286 --> 01:38:07,787 Open the door, baby. 1965 01:38:07,787 --> 01:38:09,890 [Quinn] **** off! 1966 01:38:10,900 --> 01:38:11,224 [kicks door] 1967 01:38:11,224 --> 01:38:13,259 - What the ****! - [Allison] Ryan! 1968 01:38:13,259 --> 01:38:15,929 [Daniel] You again! Get the **** up! 1969 01:38:15,929 --> 01:38:17,970 - Danny, no, no, no. - Oh, my God! 1970 01:38:17,970 --> 01:38:18,665 - Don't do that! - Nothing happened. 1971 01:38:18,665 --> 01:38:21,234 Tell me why I shouldn't kill you, mother****er? 1972 01:38:21,234 --> 01:38:22,669 We were just making out. 1973 01:38:22,669 --> 01:38:23,870 You hurt my baby. 1974 01:38:26,539 --> 01:38:28,241 - Now, I'm gonna hurt you. - [gun cocks] 1975 01:38:28,241 --> 01:38:29,676 - No, no, no, no, no. - [Simone] Danny! 1976 01:38:30,610 --> 01:38:31,544 Dad! 1977 01:38:32,450 --> 01:38:33,947 No! 1978 01:38:33,947 --> 01:38:36,449 The hell you're doing here? This is family business. 1979 01:38:36,449 --> 01:38:38,118 Don't do this. 1980 01:38:38,118 --> 01:38:40,120 Go on back to your new life, Nate. 1981 01:38:40,120 --> 01:38:41,755 [Quinn] Put the gun down, please. 1982 01:38:41,755 --> 01:38:43,123 [sobbing] Please, please! 1983 01:38:43,123 --> 01:38:44,524 He's not worth it. 1984 01:38:44,524 --> 01:38:46,760 I got nothing left to lose. 1985 01:38:46,760 --> 01:38:48,610 You got me! 1986 01:38:49,429 --> 01:38:50,530 You got Ryan! 1987 01:38:51,297 --> 01:38:52,699 We need you! 1988 01:38:52,699 --> 01:38:54,968 You do this, it's over! 1989 01:38:57,337 --> 01:38:58,972 We get no more time. 1990 01:38:58,972 --> 01:39:01,740 [Simone] Danny, put the gun down. 1991 01:39:03,276 --> 01:39:04,277 Please. 1992 01:39:09,490 --> 01:39:10,150 [sighs] 1993 01:39:11,584 --> 01:39:12,585 [Quinn] Oh, my... 1994 01:39:14,187 --> 01:39:15,221 That's my niece. 1995 01:39:15,922 --> 01:39:17,357 She's 16 years old. 1996 01:39:17,724 --> 01:39:19,325 [groans] 1997 01:39:19,325 --> 01:39:20,727 [Simone] Oh, my God! All right, we gotta get out of here. 1998 01:39:20,727 --> 01:39:21,861 Hey, Ryan, baby? 1999 01:39:21,861 --> 01:39:23,430 - Please get up. - My ****ing nose! 2000 01:39:23,430 --> 01:39:26,433 - [Daniel] Get over here! - [Quinn] My ****ing nose! 2001 01:39:26,433 --> 01:39:28,868 [techno music playing on speaker] 2002 01:39:33,740 --> 01:39:34,741 [door creaks] 2003 01:39:36,109 --> 01:39:38,780 [Allison breathing heavily] 2004 01:39:39,646 --> 01:39:41,181 The **** is the matter with you? 2005 01:39:41,181 --> 01:39:42,615 I was trying to protect her! 2006 01:39:42,615 --> 01:39:44,170 - [Daniel] Protect her? - Yeah! 2007 01:39:44,170 --> 01:39:46,252 I told you to stay away from her! 2008 01:39:46,252 --> 01:39:47,520 Who the **** are you 2009 01:39:47,520 --> 01:39:49,550 to be talking about protecting somebody? 2010 01:39:49,550 --> 01:39:50,657 - You're a mess. - Dad! 2011 01:39:50,657 --> 01:39:53,930 I was... I was trying to help. 2012 01:39:53,930 --> 01:39:54,627 I was... I was trying to... 2013 01:39:55,462 --> 01:39:56,896 I was trying to make it right. 2014 01:39:56,896 --> 01:39:58,264 Let me tell you something. 2015 01:39:58,965 --> 01:40:00,633 You will never ever 2016 01:40:00,633 --> 01:40:02,769 be able to fix the things you've done to me. 2017 01:40:03,937 --> 01:40:05,380 You hear me? 2018 01:40:05,805 --> 01:40:07,474 I want my life back. 2019 01:40:07,474 --> 01:40:08,708 I want my child back. 2020 01:40:09,843 --> 01:40:12,479 My baby, my... Molly. 2021 01:40:13,813 --> 01:40:15,348 You took my baby away from me! 2022 01:40:15,348 --> 01:40:16,683 Dad! Enough. 2023 01:40:16,683 --> 01:40:17,984 Nah, it's okay. 2024 01:40:19,719 --> 01:40:20,720 Say it. 2025 01:40:22,155 --> 01:40:23,623 Shit, I wanted to hate you. 2026 01:40:24,991 --> 01:40:26,226 But I stopped myself. 2027 01:40:28,862 --> 01:40:32,132 And when you walked into that meeting, I thought... 2028 01:40:33,133 --> 01:40:35,435 This is God testing me. 2029 01:40:35,435 --> 01:40:39,839 This is proof of a higher power 2030 01:40:39,839 --> 01:40:42,750 testing me in this church. 2031 01:40:43,743 --> 01:40:45,145 Trying to see if he could break me. 2032 01:40:46,246 --> 01:40:47,380 But I'll show him. 2033 01:40:50,830 --> 01:40:51,251 I'm unbreakable. 2034 01:40:52,752 --> 01:40:54,587 I will offer my hand 2035 01:40:55,288 --> 01:40:56,890 to this sorry 2036 01:40:57,724 --> 01:41:01,661 little ****ing pill-junkie. 2037 01:41:01,661 --> 01:41:04,831 All I asked you to do was stay away from this child. 2038 01:41:06,299 --> 01:41:07,333 Now look at her. 2039 01:41:08,702 --> 01:41:09,969 She got no mother. 2040 01:41:12,138 --> 01:41:13,139 No father. 2041 01:41:15,208 --> 01:41:17,177 And how many years can I have left? 2042 01:41:19,546 --> 01:41:21,881 What a ****ing waste you are. 2043 01:41:22,215 --> 01:41:23,149 Dad! 2044 01:41:23,149 --> 01:41:26,186 What a ****ing waste of a soul. 2045 01:41:28,288 --> 01:41:29,556 Of a chance. 2046 01:41:29,556 --> 01:41:31,891 Danny, enough. You've said your piece. 2047 01:41:31,891 --> 01:41:33,793 This isn't how it was supposed to be. 2048 01:41:35,862 --> 01:41:37,300 I'm a good person. 2049 01:41:38,998 --> 01:41:41,167 I never said God has to be fair. 2050 01:41:41,935 --> 01:41:43,690 I just never thought 2051 01:41:44,704 --> 01:41:46,500 he could be this cruel. 2052 01:41:49,609 --> 01:41:50,910 Taxi! 2053 01:41:50,910 --> 01:41:52,345 [Simone] Hold on, Danny, let me take you home. 2054 01:41:52,345 --> 01:41:53,446 [Daniel] No. 2055 01:41:53,446 --> 01:41:56,449 I'll go with him. Hey! Hey, Ryan! 2056 01:41:56,449 --> 01:41:58,885 Come on, wake up. We're taking you home. 2057 01:42:00,387 --> 01:42:01,521 [Ryan grunts] 2058 01:42:12,198 --> 01:42:14,267 You drank! 2059 01:42:14,267 --> 01:42:18,338 You turned your map app back on at 17:36:22. 2060 01:42:19,639 --> 01:42:22,742 Impact was at 17:36:24. 2061 01:42:24,244 --> 01:42:28,214 Skid marks show you lost 30 feet before you swerved. 2062 01:42:29,382 --> 01:42:32,218 You didn't have time to stop 2063 01:42:32,218 --> 01:42:35,550 because you were looking at your ****ing phone, Allison. 2064 01:42:36,556 --> 01:42:38,910 Stop blaming Alvarez. 2065 01:42:39,526 --> 01:42:41,494 They're dead because of you. 2066 01:42:51,371 --> 01:42:52,539 [stifles sob] 2067 01:42:52,539 --> 01:42:53,707 [car door closes] 2068 01:42:54,574 --> 01:42:56,376 [sobbing softly] 2069 01:43:00,880 --> 01:43:02,882 All right. All right. It's all right. 2070 01:43:02,882 --> 01:43:04,217 Come here. Come here. 2071 01:43:05,885 --> 01:43:08,880 It's all right. Okay. 2072 01:43:11,224 --> 01:43:12,659 [kid] No, that can't go over there. 2073 01:43:12,659 --> 01:43:14,227 That can't... 2074 01:43:15,228 --> 01:43:17,297 That can't... That can't go... 2075 01:43:48,628 --> 01:43:51,264 [soft music playing] 2076 01:44:13,319 --> 01:44:14,587 Good morning. 2077 01:44:15,321 --> 01:44:16,489 Good morning. 2078 01:44:17,857 --> 01:44:19,392 I made a house. 2079 01:44:21,661 --> 01:44:23,290 Do you have a headache? 2080 01:44:25,532 --> 01:44:26,533 Yeah. 2081 01:44:32,505 --> 01:44:33,973 Hey. 2082 01:44:33,973 --> 01:44:36,420 Can I, uh, sell this, please? 2083 01:44:45,485 --> 01:44:46,553 I'll give you $12,500. 2084 01:44:47,987 --> 01:44:49,389 Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you. 2085 01:44:50,123 --> 01:44:51,358 It is a beauty. 2086 01:44:53,526 --> 01:44:55,128 [piano music playing] 2087 01:44:55,128 --> 01:44:58,565 [Allison singing "I Hate Myself"] ♪ I woke up today ♪ 2088 01:45:00,333 --> 01:45:03,336 ♪ At least that much is true ♪ 2089 01:45:07,140 --> 01:45:10,276 ♪ I saw what people see ♪ 2090 01:45:12,278 --> 01:45:16,249 ♪ What a year this made of me ♪ 2091 01:45:23,423 --> 01:45:27,594 ♪ I tried a hundred times ♪ 2092 01:45:27,594 --> 01:45:32,980 ♪ But each time I thought of you ♪ 2093 01:45:33,733 --> 01:45:35,568 Thank you. 2094 01:45:35,568 --> 01:45:40,807 ♪ I hate myself ♪ 2095 01:45:40,807 --> 01:45:44,611 ♪ I ****in' hate myself ♪ 2096 01:45:50,550 --> 01:45:51,584 [crowd cheering] 2097 01:45:51,584 --> 01:45:56,189 ♪ And I ♪ 2098 01:45:58,580 --> 01:46:01,895 ♪ I want days of pain ♪ 2099 01:46:04,597 --> 01:46:07,834 ♪ Oh, to feel ♪ 2100 01:46:07,834 --> 01:46:12,500 ♪ The things I need ♪ 2101 01:46:16,643 --> 01:46:19,145 ♪ To pay off this shame ♪ 2102 01:46:19,145 --> 01:46:23,490 ♪ And I know that makes me broken ♪ 2103 01:46:23,490 --> 01:46:27,870 ♪ I know that makes me weak ♪ 2104 01:46:29,456 --> 01:46:33,660 ♪ I guess I'll put my armor back on now ♪ 2105 01:46:35,228 --> 01:46:38,198 ♪ I found a way ♪ 2106 01:46:38,198 --> 01:46:41,340 ♪ But I turned around ♪ 2107 01:46:43,503 --> 01:46:46,206 ♪ One step to start ♪ 2108 01:46:46,206 --> 01:46:51,110 ♪ But I'd rather fall down ♪ 2109 01:46:53,913 --> 01:46:56,883 ♪ Too much of a coward ♪ 2110 01:46:56,883 --> 01:47:00,530 ♪ To just say I'm wrong ♪ 2111 01:47:00,530 --> 01:47:02,188 [Ryan] Grandpa, you are not gonna believe this. 2112 01:47:02,188 --> 01:47:03,356 One of the girls on the team 2113 01:47:03,356 --> 01:47:04,824 invited me to a party this weekend. 2114 01:47:05,191 --> 01:47:06,493 You? 2115 01:47:06,493 --> 01:47:07,894 - Yes, me! - [laughs] 2116 01:47:11,931 --> 01:47:15,568 [Allison continues singing] ♪ Help me, please ♪ 2117 01:47:17,203 --> 01:47:21,410 ♪ Try to fix yourself ♪ 2118 01:47:21,410 --> 01:47:23,810 ♪ That's all they said to me ♪ 2119 01:47:32,719 --> 01:47:35,789 ♪ Try to fix myself ♪ 2120 01:47:36,990 --> 01:47:40,360 ♪ To know how hard that would be ♪ 2121 01:47:48,535 --> 01:47:50,570 [song ends] 2122 01:47:50,570 --> 01:47:51,504 Hi. 2123 01:47:53,707 --> 01:47:54,708 Hi. 2124 01:47:58,978 --> 01:48:00,513 Thank you so much for coming. 2125 01:48:01,614 --> 01:48:02,549 Sure. 2126 01:48:07,870 --> 01:48:08,688 - You look great. - [both chuckle] 2127 01:48:09,589 --> 01:48:10,857 I nearly put makeup on, 2128 01:48:10,857 --> 01:48:12,992 and then I just laughed at myself. [laughs] 2129 01:48:15,328 --> 01:48:16,396 Do you like my clips? 2130 01:48:17,130 --> 01:48:18,631 Wow, yeah. 2131 01:48:18,631 --> 01:48:20,100 I stole them from a pharmacy. 2132 01:48:20,834 --> 01:48:21,901 - [scoffs] - Not recently. 2133 01:48:21,901 --> 01:48:24,104 - Like, a while back. - [both laugh] 2134 01:48:28,475 --> 01:48:29,743 I don't know where to start. 2135 01:48:29,743 --> 01:48:30,744 That's okay. 2136 01:48:31,311 --> 01:48:32,912 Um, I'll start. 2137 01:48:34,781 --> 01:48:35,849 [smacks lips] 2138 01:48:36,549 --> 01:48:38,318 [breathes deeply] 2139 01:48:40,553 --> 01:48:42,222 Nate, I didn't have... 2140 01:48:44,424 --> 01:48:45,892 the faintest idea 2141 01:48:47,427 --> 01:48:49,362 how to handle my own grief. 2142 01:48:52,799 --> 01:48:55,368 I didn't even know if I was allowed to grieve. 2143 01:48:55,368 --> 01:48:57,737 We were all flailing. 2144 01:48:57,737 --> 01:48:59,906 Yeah, but I abandoned you, 2145 01:49:01,410 --> 01:49:02,676 and that was so selfish. 2146 01:49:05,145 --> 01:49:07,447 I ran as fast as I could away from you. 2147 01:49:08,615 --> 01:49:10,617 I still wanted you to be my wife. 2148 01:49:12,850 --> 01:49:13,153 I know. 2149 01:49:18,580 --> 01:49:20,193 But the truth is, Nate, I... 2150 01:49:22,262 --> 01:49:23,897 I was so sure 2151 01:49:25,365 --> 01:49:26,232 I was gonna... 2152 01:49:30,503 --> 01:49:32,639 - try... - I know. 2153 01:49:34,774 --> 01:49:36,109 And you know I tried. 2154 01:49:38,611 --> 01:49:40,380 I tried, but I couldn't. 2155 01:49:42,916 --> 01:49:44,784 'Cause I didn't wanna hurt you again. 2156 01:49:44,784 --> 01:49:46,553 It wasn't your fault. 2157 01:49:46,553 --> 01:49:47,721 It was. 2158 01:49:49,489 --> 01:49:50,857 Your dad was right. 2159 01:49:52,492 --> 01:49:53,827 If I hadn't been looking at my phone, 2160 01:49:53,827 --> 01:49:55,362 I could have stopped in time. 2161 01:49:59,666 --> 01:50:02,702 You deserve an apology that never came, and I'm so sorry. 2162 01:50:07,374 --> 01:50:08,508 I'm really sorry. 2163 01:50:10,844 --> 01:50:12,120 [sighs] 2164 01:50:12,120 --> 01:50:13,113 [chuckles dryly] 2165 01:50:15,315 --> 01:50:17,250 I've been spending some time with him lately. 2166 01:50:17,250 --> 01:50:18,284 Yeah. 2167 01:50:19,586 --> 01:50:22,122 - Oh, it's a work-in-progress. - [chuckles] 2168 01:50:23,323 --> 01:50:24,324 Good. 2169 01:50:27,727 --> 01:50:29,295 He kept me alive, you know. 2170 01:50:33,333 --> 01:50:34,601 I know about your ear. 2171 01:50:40,573 --> 01:50:45,111 Hey... I need you to be clear on one thing. 2172 01:50:47,881 --> 01:50:49,449 I loved you so much. 2173 01:50:53,186 --> 01:50:54,854 [tearfully] And along with everything else, 2174 01:50:56,322 --> 01:50:57,791 I will forever grieve 2175 01:50:57,791 --> 01:51:00,600 for the life that we might have had. [sniffles] 2176 01:51:02,929 --> 01:51:04,300 Me too. 2177 01:51:07,600 --> 01:51:09,803 - We were a good team. - [both chuckle softly] 2178 01:51:11,204 --> 01:51:13,730 It would be nice 2179 01:51:13,730 --> 01:51:15,800 if we could one day find some way 2180 01:51:15,800 --> 01:51:16,876 to be in each other's lives. 2181 01:51:17,811 --> 01:51:19,379 Maybe that's unrealistic, 2182 01:51:19,379 --> 01:51:20,613 - but... - Maybe. 2183 01:51:21,748 --> 01:51:22,716 [softly] Yeah. 2184 01:51:24,351 --> 01:51:25,518 Maybe. 2185 01:51:36,730 --> 01:51:38,465 I think we can all thank Elaine. 2186 01:51:38,465 --> 01:51:40,660 Thank you so much. 2187 01:51:40,660 --> 01:51:42,335 I really appreciated getting to know you, 2188 01:51:42,335 --> 01:51:44,404 and talking to you. 2189 01:51:44,404 --> 01:51:47,107 Everybody, our deeply inappropriate stories 2190 01:51:47,107 --> 01:51:48,508 - from yesterday... - [all laughing] 2191 01:51:48,508 --> 01:51:51,678 ...have been well in my head. King's laughing. 2192 01:51:51,678 --> 01:51:54,800 Your stories are foul. [laughs] 2193 01:51:55,382 --> 01:51:56,983 Mama, 2194 01:51:56,983 --> 01:51:58,318 I'm so grateful for you. 2195 01:51:58,318 --> 01:52:00,420 Thank you for everything you've done for me. 2196 01:52:00,420 --> 01:52:01,921 And I love you. 2197 01:52:03,490 --> 01:52:05,992 [all applauding] 2198 01:52:05,992 --> 01:52:08,361 [soft piano music playing] 2199 01:52:11,931 --> 01:52:14,934 The food was terrible. Thank you. 2200 01:52:14,934 --> 01:52:16,870 [Allison singing "The Best Part"] ♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2201 01:52:16,870 --> 01:52:20,340 ♪ It's something I have tried to do ♪ 2202 01:52:20,340 --> 01:52:24,511 ♪ But I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2203 01:52:24,511 --> 01:52:27,681 ♪ Sit on trains and think of you ♪ 2204 01:52:27,681 --> 01:52:29,382 ♪ But I...♪ 2205 01:52:29,382 --> 01:52:33,953 ♪ Oh, I can't tell ♪ 2206 01:52:35,210 --> 01:52:41,227 ♪ If it hurts or it helps ♪ 2207 01:52:43,430 --> 01:52:49,269 ♪ So breathe me in ♪ 2208 01:52:50,303 --> 01:52:54,741 ♪ One last time ♪ 2209 01:52:58,440 --> 01:53:00,880 ♪ And we play ♪ 2210 01:53:00,880 --> 01:53:06,119 ♪ Our rehearsed ♪ 2211 01:53:06,119 --> 01:53:10,190 ♪ Goodbyes ♪ 2212 01:53:13,860 --> 01:53:17,697 ♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2213 01:53:17,697 --> 01:53:21,935 ♪ It's something I have tried to do ♪ 2214 01:53:21,935 --> 01:53:26,573 ♪ But I can't shake you off, dear ♪ 2215 01:53:26,573 --> 01:53:30,410 ♪ I sit on trains and think of you ♪ 2216 01:53:31,444 --> 01:53:37,851 ♪ But you are the best part ♪ 2217 01:53:39,519 --> 01:53:44,791 ♪ You ♪ 2218 01:53:47,627 --> 01:53:48,895 Thank you. 2219 01:53:48,895 --> 01:53:52,432 [scattered applause] 2220 01:53:52,432 --> 01:53:55,935 Um, I recently recorded my first EP, 2221 01:53:55,935 --> 01:53:57,370 and it's at the coat check 2222 01:53:57,370 --> 01:53:59,873 because I'm also the coat check girl. 2223 01:53:59,873 --> 01:54:02,420 Uh, so come buy a CD, 2224 01:54:02,420 --> 01:54:03,543 or I won't give you your coats back. 2225 01:54:03,543 --> 01:54:05,545 [people laughing] 2226 01:54:09,820 --> 01:54:10,517 [cell phone ringing] 2227 01:54:14,888 --> 01:54:16,656 Hi. 2228 01:54:16,656 --> 01:54:18,658 I know you're calling about my one-year clean, 2229 01:54:18,658 --> 01:54:20,827 but I need to tell you what I just did. 2230 01:54:23,563 --> 01:54:25,980 Yeah. No, I can talk. 2231 01:54:26,900 --> 01:54:27,801 Okay. 2232 01:54:37,911 --> 01:54:39,813 [somber music playing] 2233 01:54:40,980 --> 01:54:42,248 Hey, Dwayne. 2234 01:54:42,248 --> 01:54:43,783 Could you take these to the kitchen for me? 2235 01:54:43,783 --> 01:54:45,418 Thank you so much. 2236 01:54:45,418 --> 01:54:48,154 [soft, indistinct chatter] 2237 01:54:48,154 --> 01:54:49,856 [Simone] She'll give it back. Right, Ryan? 2238 01:54:49,856 --> 01:54:51,358 - That's nice. - [Ryan] Thank you. 2239 01:54:51,358 --> 01:54:54,661 Hey. How's it going? Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes. 2240 01:54:54,661 --> 01:54:56,996 - Need any help? - No, no, no. I'm all good. Thank you. 2241 01:54:56,996 --> 01:54:57,964 Actually, we broke up 2242 01:54:57,964 --> 01:54:59,165 - a few months ago. - Yeah... 2243 01:54:59,165 --> 01:55:00,500 - [Allison] Hey, Mama. - Yes? 2244 01:55:00,500 --> 01:55:03,169 Could you go pass these around over there? 2245 01:55:03,169 --> 01:55:04,304 I think they would like some. 2246 01:55:04,304 --> 01:55:05,572 - Sure. - Thank you. 2247 01:55:05,572 --> 01:55:07,741 - Ooh, they smell so good. - They are good. 2248 01:55:28,828 --> 01:55:30,830 [somber music continues] 2249 01:55:44,911 --> 01:55:45,845 [switch clicks] 2250 01:56:21,748 --> 01:56:23,450 [Daniel] Dear Allison. 2251 01:56:23,450 --> 01:56:26,953 Down here in 1:87 scale, 2252 01:56:26,953 --> 01:56:28,521 the lovers always kiss, 2253 01:56:29,389 --> 01:56:32,920 the neighbors are always kind, 2254 01:56:32,920 --> 01:56:35,128 and the trains always take you to the far-off places 2255 01:56:35,128 --> 01:56:37,397 you always swore you'd go. 2256 01:56:39,990 --> 01:56:41,234 In life, of course, 2257 01:56:41,234 --> 01:56:43,503 nothing is nearly as neat and tidy. 2258 01:56:45,238 --> 01:56:48,375 Everything I own has been left to Nathan and Ryan. 2259 01:56:49,376 --> 01:56:51,211 Nathan has agreed to move home 2260 01:56:51,211 --> 01:56:53,980 and be her guardian until she's off to college. 2261 01:56:55,115 --> 01:56:56,249 He'll need help. 2262 01:56:57,250 --> 01:56:59,919 Please help him, Allie. 2263 01:56:59,919 --> 01:57:03,356 Molly always said Nathan was the best version of himself 2264 01:57:03,356 --> 01:57:04,524 when he was with you. 2265 01:57:05,725 --> 01:57:07,394 Who knows, 2266 01:57:07,394 --> 01:57:11,965 maybe you can even get her into Stanford. [chuckles] 2267 01:57:11,965 --> 01:57:13,933 When we first met in that diner, 2268 01:57:14,801 --> 01:57:17,570 you asked what my tattoo meant. 2269 01:57:17,570 --> 01:57:20,540 - Amor fati is Latin. - [typewriter clacking] 2270 01:57:20,540 --> 01:57:22,709 It means "to love one's fate." 2271 01:57:23,943 --> 01:57:27,180 Neither of us chose this fate, Allie. 2272 01:57:27,180 --> 01:57:30,850 But perhaps we can find a way to love it. 2273 01:57:30,850 --> 01:57:34,954 Fate has given me one final year with my son. 2274 01:57:34,954 --> 01:57:38,910 He looks at me differently these days. 2275 01:57:38,910 --> 01:57:41,161 Once in a while I even catch him smiling at me 2276 01:57:41,161 --> 01:57:44,531 with a look that might just even be love. 2277 01:57:45,865 --> 01:57:47,901 Amor fati, Allison. 2278 01:57:49,102 --> 01:57:50,437 Until we meet again, 2279 01:57:51,838 --> 01:57:52,839 Daniel. 2280 01:57:56,343 --> 01:57:57,344 [Ryan] Allie? 2281 01:57:57,977 --> 01:57:59,279 Yeah? 2282 01:57:59,279 --> 01:58:00,347 What are you doing? 2283 01:58:01,781 --> 01:58:02,882 Come on upstairs. 2284 01:58:02,882 --> 01:58:03,850 [Allison] Yeah, okay. 2285 01:58:12,325 --> 01:58:15,462 ["Deep In Love" playing] 2286 01:58:19,466 --> 01:58:20,467 [switch clicks] 2287 01:58:29,476 --> 01:58:34,481 ♪ Down in the valley the first of May ♪ 2288 01:58:35,648 --> 01:58:38,510 [door creaks] 2289 01:58:38,510 --> 01:58:43,656 ♪ Gatherin' flowers both fresh and *** ♪ 2290 01:58:46,760 --> 01:58:53,700 ♪ Gatherin' flowers both red and blue ♪ 2291 01:58:53,700 --> 01:58:55,835 ♪ How little thought of what... ♪ 2292 01:58:55,835 --> 01:58:58,671 [Allison breathes deeply] 2293 01:58:58,671 --> 01:59:01,410 ♪ ...what love could you do ♪ 2294 01:59:02,475 --> 01:59:06,713 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2295 01:59:10,350 --> 01:59:14,521 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2296 01:59:19,826 --> 01:59:23,363 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2297 01:59:27,667 --> 01:59:31,304 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2298 01:59:38,712 --> 01:59:44,217 ♪ I put my hand in into the bush ♪ 2299 01:59:47,687 --> 01:59:51,691 ♪ Finding the sweetest sweetest rose ♪ 2300 01:59:56,290 --> 02:00:01,968 ♪ I pricked my finger deep to the line ♪ 2301 02:00:03,103 --> 02:00:07,340 ♪ And left the sweetest rose ♪ 2302 02:00:07,340 --> 02:00:11,678 ♪ Sweetest rose behind ♪ 2303 02:00:11,678 --> 02:00:15,181 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2304 02:00:19,552 --> 02:00:23,289 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2305 02:00:28,862 --> 02:00:32,766 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2306 02:00:36,703 --> 02:00:41,740 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2307 02:01:20,380 --> 02:01:24,984 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2308 02:01:28,880 --> 02:01:31,991 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2309 02:01:37,530 --> 02:01:42,435 ♪ Don't you ♪ 2310 02:01:45,572 --> 02:01:49,542 ♪ Break my heart ♪ 2311 02:01:56,282 --> 02:02:01,821 ♪ Thousands and thousands all on this Earth ♪ 2312 02:02:01,821 --> 02:02:03,890 [song ends] 2313 02:02:03,890 --> 02:02:05,725 ["On My Mind" playing] 2314 02:02:15,101 --> 02:02:18,605 ♪ Honey you've been on my mind ♪ 2315 02:02:18,605 --> 02:02:22,108 ♪ Like Christmas and birthdays when I was five ♪ 2316 02:02:22,108 --> 02:02:24,277 ♪ Like the ticking clock for racers ♪ 2317 02:02:24,277 --> 02:02:26,413 ♪ And those in the prison line ♪ 2318 02:02:26,413 --> 02:02:30,116 ♪ Like Everest for Mallory and how drinkers know their wine ♪ 2319 02:02:30,116 --> 02:02:33,820 ♪ And the birds and the bees when you hit nine ♪ 2320 02:02:33,820 --> 02:02:37,924 ♪ And pearls for those girls 2321 02:02:37,924 --> 02:02:41,594 ♪ Who always have their hair in pretty curls ♪ 2322 02:02:41,594 --> 02:02:50,837 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2323 02:02:50,837 --> 02:02:54,341 ♪ Honey you've been in my head ♪ 2324 02:02:54,341 --> 02:02:58,311 ♪ Like homework on Sunday when I've been laughing instead ♪ 2325 02:02:58,311 --> 02:03:02,182 ♪ Like cigarettes for the cool kids behind the garden shed ♪ 2326 02:03:02,182 --> 02:03:06,853 ♪ And love for the lovers and the elephant by my bed ♪ 2327 02:03:06,853 --> 02:03:10,890 ♪ And pearls for those girls ♪ 2328 02:03:10,890 --> 02:03:14,861 ♪ Who always have their hair in pretty curls ♪ 2329 02:03:14,861 --> 02:03:18,932 ♪ And football for English boys ♪ 2330 02:03:18,932 --> 02:03:22,669 ♪ Who always have the newest toys ♪ 2331 02:03:22,669 --> 02:03:33,460 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2332 02:03:39,753 --> 02:03:46,493 ♪ So don't you go away too long ♪ 2333 02:03:47,927 --> 02:04:01,474 ♪ Oh don't you go away too long ♪ 2334 02:04:02,275 --> 02:04:06,479 ♪ Oh don't you go ♪ 2335 02:04:06,479 --> 02:04:10,417 ♪ Away too long ♪ 2336 02:04:10,417 --> 02:04:14,654 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2337 02:04:15,555 --> 02:04:20,560 ♪ You're on my mind ♪ 2338 02:04:20,560 --> 02:04:21,661 [song ends]