1 00:00:20,820 --> 00:00:22,422 (HYDRAULIC BRAKES HISS) 2 00:00:22,455 --> 00:00:24,457 (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING) 3 00:00:44,577 --> 00:00:46,413 (MUSIC CONTINUES) 4 00:00:48,915 --> 00:00:50,817 MAN: Like we discussed yesterday, 5 00:00:50,850 --> 00:00:55,789 I really want you all to focus on topic sentences more. 6 00:00:55,822 --> 00:00:58,291 Too many of you are rushing into examples 7 00:00:58,324 --> 00:00:59,859 in your body paragraphs. 8 00:00:59,926 --> 00:01:01,761 It'd be good for everyone to review 9 00:01:01,795 --> 00:01:03,697 the paragraph structure PDF I sent you 10 00:01:03,730 --> 00:01:05,231 a few weeks ago. 11 00:01:05,265 --> 00:01:08,835 I know these rules can feel constraining. 12 00:01:08,868 --> 00:01:12,172 But remember, the point of this course 13 00:01:12,205 --> 00:01:16,343 is to learn how to write clearly and persuasively. 14 00:01:16,376 --> 00:01:19,679 That's how you can effectively communicate your ideas. 15 00:01:19,713 --> 00:01:20,847 (MESSAGE ALERT PINGS) 16 00:01:20,914 --> 00:01:22,315 (MAN CHUCKLES) 17 00:01:22,382 --> 00:01:25,452 Chris, I imagine that was supposed to be a private chat 18 00:01:25,485 --> 00:01:28,288 that you sent to the whole class. Well done. 19 00:01:28,321 --> 00:01:32,492 And, yes, the camera on my laptop still doesn't work. 20 00:01:32,525 --> 00:01:34,194 Believe me, you're not missing much. 21 00:01:34,227 --> 00:01:37,330 Oh, and for those of you who still haven't given me paper three, 22 00:01:37,364 --> 00:01:40,233 I need it by Wednesday, no exceptions. 23 00:01:41,301 --> 00:01:43,690 And remember, 24 00:01:43,103 --> 00:01:46,306 -the more you revise these essays, the better. - (WAVES CRASHING) 25 00:01:46,339 --> 00:01:47,874 The more you change, 26 00:01:47,907 --> 00:01:50,744 chances are you'll express your thoughts and ideas 27 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:52,379 more clearly and persuasively. 28 00:01:53,313 --> 00:01:54,347 All right? 29 00:01:54,914 --> 00:01:56,383 (WAVE CRASHED LOUDLY) 30 00:02:02,722 --> 00:02:07,394 (GRUNTING LABORIOUSLY) 31 00:02:07,427 --> 00:02:09,429 (COUGHS, BREATHES HEAVILY) 32 00:02:11,197 --> 00:02:16,269 (GASPING AND COUGHING) 33 00:02:16,302 --> 00:02:21,207 "Moby ****... (WHEEZES) In the amazing book, Moby..." (GROANS) 34 00:02:21,241 --> 00:02:23,243 (KNOCK AT DOOR) Liz? 35 00:02:23,276 --> 00:02:24,744 (PANTS) (KNOCKING CONTINUES) 36 00:02:24,811 --> 00:02:27,781 Just use your key, (WHEEZES) open the door! 37 00:02:29,783 --> 00:02:31,718 (GASPS) Oh, my God. 38 00:02:31,751 --> 00:02:33,753 Who are you? (GROANS IN PAIN) 39 00:02:33,787 --> 00:02:36,823 Gosh, are you okay? Should I call an ambulance? I should call an am... 40 00:02:37,290 --> 00:02:38,658 Read this to me. Do you have a phone? 41 00:02:38,692 --> 00:02:39,726 My phone's dead, I need to... 42 00:02:39,759 --> 00:02:41,261 Please just read it! Okay! 43 00:02:42,462 --> 00:02:43,930 (GRUNTS) Okay. 44 00:02:43,963 --> 00:02:45,465 (GROANS) 45 00:02:45,498 --> 00:02:47,400 "In the amazing book, Moby ****, by the author, Herman Melville, 46 00:02:47,467 --> 00:02:49,903 "the author recounts his story of being at sea. 47 00:02:49,936 --> 00:02:52,339 "In the first part of his book, the author, calling himself Ishmael, 48 00:02:52,372 --> 00:02:53,406 "is in a small seaside town, 49 00:02:53,473 --> 00:02:56,242 "and he is sharing a bed with a man named Queequeg." 50 00:02:56,276 --> 00:02:57,410 What is this? Why am I reading this? 51 00:02:57,477 --> 00:02:59,879 I need to... Just read any of it! 52 00:02:59,913 --> 00:03:02,182 "And I felt saddest of all when I read the boring chapters 53 00:03:02,215 --> 00:03:03,483 "that were only descriptions of whales, 54 00:03:03,516 --> 00:03:05,785 "because I knew that the author was just trying to save us 55 00:03:05,819 --> 00:03:06,853 "from his own sad story..." 56 00:03:06,886 --> 00:03:08,688 (GASPING) Sad story. "...just for a little while." 57 00:03:08,722 --> 00:03:09,889 Just for a little while. 58 00:03:09,923 --> 00:03:11,925 "This book made me think about my own life... (WHEEZES) 59 00:03:11,958 --> 00:03:13,793 "...and then it made me feel glad for my..." 60 00:03:13,827 --> 00:03:16,162 (PANTING) 61 00:03:16,196 --> 00:03:18,865 Did that help? (SIGHS) 62 00:03:18,898 --> 00:03:20,767 Look, do you have a phone? My phone is dead. 63 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:22,369 I need to call an ambulance. 64 00:03:22,435 --> 00:03:25,372 You need help. I don't go to hospitals. 65 00:03:25,438 --> 00:03:28,375 I can't help you, I don't... I don't go to hospitals. 66 00:03:29,776 --> 00:03:33,346 I am sorry, um... You can go. 67 00:03:33,413 --> 00:03:35,150 Thank you for reading that to me. 68 00:03:41,870 --> 00:03:42,288 Are you sure you're okay? 69 00:03:44,491 --> 00:03:46,192 I'm sorry, who are you? 70 00:03:47,861 --> 00:03:49,362 Are you acquainted with the Gospel of Jesus Christ? 71 00:03:49,396 --> 00:03:52,432 What? I'm sharing Christ's message of love, 72 00:03:52,499 --> 00:03:54,334 and I'm showing people... (SIGHING) Oh. 73 00:03:54,367 --> 00:03:55,869 Think I should call my friend. 74 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:59,500 She's a nurse, she takes care of me. 75 00:03:59,390 --> 00:04:02,375 Yeah. Yeah, I'll go. Sorry to bother you. Wait. 76 00:04:03,910 --> 00:04:05,311 My phone fell under there, can you... 77 00:04:08,982 --> 00:04:10,116 Yeah, sure. 78 00:04:12,852 --> 00:04:14,540 (SIGHS) 79 00:04:21,610 --> 00:04:22,195 (SIGHS) Here it is. 80 00:04:22,228 --> 00:04:23,229 (GROANS IN PAIN) 81 00:04:27,367 --> 00:04:28,935 (MAN GRUNTS) 82 00:04:28,968 --> 00:04:30,770 Hey, listen, I don't know what's gonna happen 83 00:04:30,804 --> 00:04:32,405 in the next few minutes. 84 00:04:32,472 --> 00:04:35,175 If you don't mind, could you... (GRUNTS) 85 00:04:35,208 --> 00:04:37,310 Yeah. Yeah, of course. Thank you. 86 00:04:38,912 --> 00:04:40,280 (PHONE LINE RINGING) 87 00:04:42,982 --> 00:04:45,218 (AUTOMATED VOICE SPEAKING) It's Liz. I'm not around. Leave a message. 88 00:04:47,587 --> 00:04:49,956 What was that thing that you had me read to you? 89 00:04:51,491 --> 00:04:52,459 It's an essay. 90 00:04:53,360 --> 00:04:54,761 It's my job. 91 00:04:55,595 --> 00:04:57,931 I teach online college courses. 92 00:04:57,964 --> 00:04:59,332 But why did you have me read it to you? 93 00:05:03,603 --> 00:05:05,500 Because I thought I was dying. 94 00:05:05,380 --> 00:05:07,240 And I wanted to hear it one last time. 95 00:05:11,544 --> 00:05:13,346 (VELCRO RIPS) 96 00:05:13,380 --> 00:05:15,248 You should have called an ambulance. 97 00:05:15,281 --> 00:05:17,283 With no health insurance? 98 00:05:17,317 --> 00:05:19,219 Being in debt is better than being dead. 99 00:05:20,200 --> 00:05:21,210 What's wrong with you? 100 00:05:22,222 --> 00:05:24,570 Why is there a missionary here? 101 00:05:25,125 --> 00:05:27,460 Someone left the door unlocked. 102 00:05:27,527 --> 00:05:29,162 I left after you fell asleep earlier, 103 00:05:30,330 --> 00:05:31,431 I must've forgotten. 104 00:05:33,199 --> 00:05:35,235 Good thing, too. If I hadn't, you might have... 105 00:05:35,268 --> 00:05:36,569 Liz, I don't like it when you... 106 00:05:36,636 --> 00:05:38,838 Okay, okay. I just hate the thought 107 00:05:38,872 --> 00:05:41,307 of you being sealed up in this place when I'm not here. 108 00:05:41,341 --> 00:05:43,476 (PUMPING SPHYGMOMANOMETER BULB) Now shut up, I'm trying to... 109 00:05:49,215 --> 00:05:51,418 (RELEASES PRESSURE) (AIR HISSING) 110 00:05:52,986 --> 00:05:54,220 What? Hush. 111 00:05:59,225 --> 00:06:00,360 Tell me what you felt. 112 00:06:01,940 --> 00:06:03,163 Pain, in my chest. 113 00:06:03,196 --> 00:06:04,297 Hard to breathe. 114 00:06:05,265 --> 00:06:06,433 I couldn't intake air. 115 00:06:07,667 --> 00:06:09,602 (RIPS VELCRO) 116 00:06:09,669 --> 00:06:12,305 How are you sleeping? I'm not, really. 117 00:06:15,575 --> 00:06:16,910 Lean forward. 118 00:06:18,978 --> 00:06:20,146 (SIGHS) 119 00:06:21,810 --> 00:06:22,215 (MAN WHEEZES) 120 00:06:24,451 --> 00:06:26,119 You're wheezing. 121 00:06:26,152 --> 00:06:28,880 I always wheeze, Liz. 122 00:06:28,121 --> 00:06:29,322 You're wheezing more. 123 00:06:29,923 --> 00:06:31,224 Deep breath. 124 00:06:31,257 --> 00:06:33,860 (BREATHES DEEPLY WITH DIFFICULTY) 125 00:06:35,228 --> 00:06:37,300 That hurt? 126 00:06:37,630 --> 00:06:38,131 What was my blood pressure? 127 00:06:40,333 --> 00:06:42,402 Two-hundred and thirty-eight over 134. 128 00:06:48,308 --> 00:06:49,909 (CHUCKLING) Oh. 129 00:06:49,943 --> 00:06:51,440 Yeah. "Oh." 130 00:06:53,130 --> 00:06:54,140 (SIGHS) 131 00:06:54,514 --> 00:06:55,782 Hey, could you... 132 00:06:55,815 --> 00:06:58,151 I haven't been to the bathroom all day, I'm ready to explode. 133 00:07:10,397 --> 00:07:11,498 (GRUNTS) 134 00:07:13,266 --> 00:07:15,100 (EXHALES DEEPLY) 135 00:07:24,678 --> 00:07:26,312 (DRAWS CURTAIN) (LIGHT SWITCH CLICKS) 136 00:07:33,420 --> 00:07:34,988 (TRASH CAN LID CLOSES) 137 00:07:35,210 --> 00:07:37,230 (SIGHS) 138 00:07:37,570 --> 00:07:38,925 (MAN GRUNTS) LIZ: You need help in there? 139 00:07:39,993 --> 00:07:41,561 MAN: No, I'm fine. Sorry. 140 00:07:42,362 --> 00:07:43,963 What are you sorry about? 141 00:07:43,997 --> 00:07:47,167 I'm sorry. I don't know. Just sorry. 142 00:07:47,200 --> 00:07:48,535 MISSIONARY: I should go. LIZ: Thank you. 143 00:07:49,602 --> 00:07:51,604 You must be from New Life. 144 00:07:51,638 --> 00:07:53,473 You know Doug, from the church council? 145 00:07:54,641 --> 00:07:56,376 Yeah, I think so? 146 00:07:56,409 --> 00:07:57,677 I'm not entirely sure. 147 00:07:57,744 --> 00:07:58,978 I'm sort of new here, so... 148 00:07:59,379 --> 00:08:00,447 He's my dad. 149 00:08:02,415 --> 00:08:04,617 Doug and Cindy adopted me when I was a baby. 150 00:08:04,684 --> 00:08:06,219 Oh, that's great. 151 00:08:06,252 --> 00:08:08,154 I've never seen you there before, but, 152 00:08:08,188 --> 00:08:09,456 again I'm sort of new, so... 153 00:08:09,489 --> 00:08:12,250 (SIGHS) ****ing hate New Life. Oh. 154 00:08:12,580 --> 00:08:13,360 My dad forced me to go when I was a kid. 155 00:08:13,393 --> 00:08:17,330 It was awful, growing up with all that "end times" bullshit. 156 00:08:18,565 --> 00:08:20,567 (SIGHS) You're young. 157 00:08:21,634 --> 00:08:22,736 Why the hell would you want to believe 158 00:08:22,802 --> 00:08:24,371 that the world is about to end? 159 00:08:25,739 --> 00:08:28,174 I believe that when Christ returns, 160 00:08:28,208 --> 00:08:29,442 it's gonna be beautiful. 161 00:08:33,213 --> 00:08:34,347 Look, you can go. 162 00:08:35,815 --> 00:08:37,650 I know Charlie appreciates the help, 163 00:08:37,717 --> 00:08:40,353 but if you're here to convert him... 164 00:08:40,387 --> 00:08:41,588 Oh, we don't convert, 165 00:08:41,621 --> 00:08:42,589 our message is a message of hope 166 00:08:42,622 --> 00:08:45,625 for people of all... LIZ: People of all faiths. 167 00:08:45,658 --> 00:08:49,129 I know. You're sweet. (CLICKS LIGHTER) But... 168 00:08:52,132 --> 00:08:53,233 (SIGHS) 169 00:08:53,266 --> 00:08:55,335 Believe me, he doesn't want to hear about New Life. 170 00:08:56,569 --> 00:08:58,571 Why? 171 00:08:58,605 --> 00:09:00,240 Because it's caused him a lot of pain. 172 00:09:01,274 --> 00:09:02,275 How? 173 00:09:06,790 --> 00:09:07,800 It killed his boyfriend. 174 00:09:08,815 --> 00:09:10,350 (TOILET FLUSHES) 175 00:09:12,786 --> 00:09:14,754 You're saying the church... (SIGHS) 176 00:09:15,855 --> 00:09:18,391 Killed Charlie's boyfriend, yes. 177 00:09:19,559 --> 00:09:21,428 And I should add that New Life 178 00:09:21,461 --> 00:09:23,663 has caused me a lot of pain in my life. 179 00:09:23,697 --> 00:09:26,299 So, we don't need you coming over here, 180 00:09:26,332 --> 00:09:28,468 especially not now, not this week. 181 00:09:29,703 --> 00:09:31,371 Why? 182 00:09:31,404 --> 00:09:33,340 Because he probably won't be here next week. 183 00:09:34,207 --> 00:09:35,642 Where's he going? 184 00:09:35,675 --> 00:09:37,744 I'm sorry you had to come over, Liz. 185 00:09:39,145 --> 00:09:40,413 No, it's okay. 186 00:09:40,447 --> 00:09:43,316 I'm sorry that I always think I'm dying. 187 00:09:43,350 --> 00:09:46,486 Charlie, your blood pressure is 238 over 134. 188 00:09:46,519 --> 00:09:48,588 I'm sorry. Go to the hospital. 189 00:09:48,621 --> 00:09:50,390 I'm sorry. Stop saying you're sorry. 190 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:51,624 Go to the hospital. 191 00:09:52,726 --> 00:09:54,327 You have congestive heart failure. 192 00:09:54,361 --> 00:09:55,628 If you don't go to the hospital, 193 00:09:55,662 --> 00:09:56,696 you'll be dead by the weekend. 194 00:09:58,465 --> 00:10:00,333 (STERNLY) You will die. 195 00:10:02,335 --> 00:10:03,603 CHARLIE: Well, then, I better get to work 196 00:10:03,636 --> 00:10:05,205 because I have a lot of essays this week. 197 00:10:05,238 --> 00:10:06,673 God damn it! 198 00:10:06,706 --> 00:10:10,110 I know. I'm sorry, I'm an awful person. I know. 199 00:10:11,544 --> 00:10:12,746 I'm sorry. 200 00:10:12,812 --> 00:10:14,247 (GRUNTS, PANTS) 201 00:10:14,314 --> 00:10:16,516 Did you still want to hear about Christ's message of love and salvation? 202 00:10:16,549 --> 00:10:17,650 No, he does not! 203 00:10:17,684 --> 00:10:18,685 MISSIONARY: Okay. Okay. 204 00:10:19,519 --> 00:10:20,520 I'll go. 205 00:10:22,756 --> 00:10:23,623 I still don't understand 206 00:10:23,656 --> 00:10:25,291 why you had me read that essay to you. 207 00:10:26,526 --> 00:10:28,128 It's a really good essay. 208 00:10:30,397 --> 00:10:32,298 LIZ: Goodbye. (CLOSES DOOR) 209 00:10:34,567 --> 00:10:37,170 Charlie, you have to go to the hospital. This has gone way too far. 210 00:10:37,203 --> 00:10:40,473 And rack up tens of thousands of dollars in hospital bills 211 00:10:40,507 --> 00:10:42,809 I'll never be able to pay back, ever. 212 00:10:42,876 --> 00:10:44,744 This affects me too, you know? 213 00:10:47,881 --> 00:10:48,848 You're my friend. 214 00:10:50,583 --> 00:10:51,584 I know. 215 00:10:53,420 --> 00:10:54,454 I'm sorry. 216 00:10:54,487 --> 00:10:55,622 You say you're sorry one more time, 217 00:10:55,655 --> 00:10:57,791 I will shove a knife right into you, I swear to God! 218 00:10:57,857 --> 00:11:00,193 Go ahead, what's it gonna do? 219 00:11:00,226 --> 00:11:01,695 My internal organs are two feet in, at least. 220 00:11:04,931 --> 00:11:06,866 (LAUGHING) 221 00:11:08,435 --> 00:11:09,669 (COUGHS) 222 00:11:09,703 --> 00:11:10,704 (WHIMPERS PLAYFULLY) 223 00:11:18,278 --> 00:11:19,846 I've been telling you this would happen. 224 00:11:19,913 --> 00:11:21,214 (SIGHS) I know. 225 00:11:23,817 --> 00:11:25,785 Haven't I been telling you? You have. 226 00:11:35,995 --> 00:11:38,398 NEWSCASTER 1: ...a new GOP presidential primary. 227 00:11:38,431 --> 00:11:40,133 However, they say absentee ballots 228 00:11:40,166 --> 00:11:42,635 are the lowest they've seen in recent history. NEWSCASTER 2: That's not good. 229 00:11:42,669 --> 00:11:44,738 NEWSCASTER 3: No, it's not. Get out and vote tomorrow. 230 00:11:44,771 --> 00:11:46,806 if you want to vote in the Republican primary. 231 00:11:46,840 --> 00:11:49,209 Our current polls do show, among Republicans,, 232 00:11:49,242 --> 00:11:51,544 30% favor Trump... Liz. 233 00:11:51,578 --> 00:11:52,946 NEWSCASTER 3: ...senator Ted Cruz, 234 00:11:52,979 --> 00:11:56,483 17% would vote for Florida senator Marco Rubio, 235 00:11:56,516 --> 00:11:59,319 and 5% for Ohio governor John Kasich. 236 00:11:59,352 --> 00:12:00,620 Liz. 237 00:12:00,653 --> 00:12:01,721 NEWSCASTER 3: ...for someone else, if they could. 238 00:12:01,755 --> 00:12:04,290 Below a percent that just don't know. 239 00:12:04,324 --> 00:12:05,892 NEWSCASTER 1: Meanwhile, Vermont senator Bernie Sanders 240 00:12:05,925 --> 00:12:09,229 is expected to win the Gem State on the Democratic side... 241 00:12:09,262 --> 00:12:10,130 Please. 242 00:12:10,163 --> 00:12:12,665 (NEWSCASTER 1 CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY) 243 00:12:37,657 --> 00:12:38,658 Thank you. 244 00:12:50,360 --> 00:12:51,871 (CRUNCHING) 245 00:13:01,481 --> 00:13:03,450 (LAUGHTER ON TV) 246 00:13:03,483 --> 00:13:05,752 Oh, I've seen this one, it's good. 247 00:13:05,785 --> 00:13:07,587 (INDISTINCT TV CHATTER) 248 00:13:11,391 --> 00:13:12,992 (RAIN PATTERING) 249 00:13:14,394 --> 00:13:16,396 (INDISTINCT TV CHATTER) 250 00:13:18,898 --> 00:13:20,867 (CHARLIE CHOKES, COUGHS) 251 00:13:21,735 --> 00:13:23,937 (COUGHING) 252 00:13:29,900 --> 00:13:30,443 (REMOTE CLICKS) (TV SWITCHES OFF) 253 00:13:33,713 --> 00:13:34,848 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 254 00:13:38,180 --> 00:13:40,286 (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) 255 00:13:56,636 --> 00:14:00,674 CHARLIE: In the first part of his book, the author, 256 00:14:02,642 --> 00:14:04,377 calling himself Ishmael, 257 00:14:05,412 --> 00:14:10,817 is in a small seaside town 258 00:14:12,619 --> 00:14:13,753 and he is 259 00:14:15,822 --> 00:14:19,590 sharing a bed with a man 260 00:14:20,927 --> 00:14:22,429 named Queequeg. 261 00:14:26,766 --> 00:14:29,769 The author and Queequeg go to church, 262 00:14:30,770 --> 00:14:33,440 and later, they set out on a ship 263 00:14:33,473 --> 00:14:34,941 captained by the pirate named 264 00:14:36,710 --> 00:14:37,777 Ahab, 265 00:14:40,613 --> 00:14:42,782 who is missing a leg, 266 00:14:42,816 --> 00:14:45,652 and very much wants to kill the whale 267 00:14:47,921 --> 00:14:49,723 which is named Moby ****, 268 00:14:50,824 --> 00:14:51,958 and which is white. 269 00:14:53,426 --> 00:14:55,829 In the course of the book, 270 00:14:55,862 --> 00:14:58,465 the pirate Ahab encounters many hardships. 271 00:14:59,632 --> 00:15:02,769 His entire life is set around 272 00:15:02,802 --> 00:15:05,405 trying to kill a certain whale. 273 00:15:05,438 --> 00:15:07,730 I think this is sad 274 00:15:07,140 --> 00:15:08,410 (GRUNTS) 275 00:15:08,108 --> 00:15:11,511 because the whale doesn't have any emotions. 276 00:15:13,680 --> 00:15:14,848 (GRUNTS) 277 00:15:15,148 --> 00:15:16,383 He's just 278 00:15:17,751 --> 00:15:19,520 a poor, big animal. 279 00:15:21,588 --> 00:15:26,260 And I feel bad for Ahab as well 280 00:15:27,727 --> 00:15:29,620 (GRUNTS) 281 00:15:29,129 --> 00:15:34,601 ...because he thinks that his life will be better 282 00:15:34,634 --> 00:15:37,771 if he can just kill this whale. 283 00:15:40,974 --> 00:15:43,760 But in reality, 284 00:15:43,743 --> 00:15:44,744 (GRUNTS) 285 00:15:46,579 --> 00:15:47,947 it won't help him at all. 286 00:15:49,949 --> 00:15:52,485 This book made me think 287 00:15:53,553 --> 00:15:54,688 about my own life. 288 00:15:58,191 --> 00:16:00,660 This book made me think about my own life. 289 00:16:00,694 --> 00:16:03,730 (OCEAN WAVES CRASHING) 290 00:16:03,763 --> 00:16:07,667 (SOFTLY) This book made me think about my own life. 291 00:16:57,150 --> 00:16:58,118 (SIGHS) 292 00:17:04,724 --> 00:17:06,260 (EXHALES) 293 00:17:08,561 --> 00:17:09,696 (TYPING) 294 00:17:20,907 --> 00:17:22,642 (TYPING) 295 00:17:36,990 --> 00:17:38,124 (SIGHS) 296 00:17:39,325 --> 00:17:41,270 (TYPING) 297 00:17:54,274 --> 00:17:55,275 (EXHALES) 298 00:18:14,761 --> 00:18:16,730 (WRAPPER CRINKLING) 299 00:18:18,998 --> 00:18:20,567 (BIRD CHIRPS) 300 00:18:23,236 --> 00:18:24,671 (CHIRPS) 301 00:18:38,885 --> 00:18:40,153 (SIGHS HEAVILY) 302 00:19:06,746 --> 00:19:08,214 (LINE RINGS) 303 00:19:40,814 --> 00:19:41,948 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 304 00:19:45,151 --> 00:19:47,530 (CHUCKLES QUIETLY) 305 00:19:47,120 --> 00:19:48,722 Does this mean now I'm gonna get fat? 306 00:19:49,789 --> 00:19:52,692 (GRUNTS) No, it doesn't. 307 00:19:53,827 --> 00:19:55,128 I was always big. 308 00:19:55,195 --> 00:19:56,196 I just... 309 00:19:57,130 --> 00:19:58,631 I let it get out of control. 310 00:20:00,660 --> 00:20:01,534 (CHARLIE EXHALES) 311 00:20:03,603 --> 00:20:06,873 So, was your mom okay with you coming over here? 312 00:20:07,841 --> 00:20:08,975 I didn't tell her. 313 00:20:12,120 --> 00:20:13,480 CHARLIE: It's really good to see you. 314 00:20:15,615 --> 00:20:16,716 You look beautiful. 315 00:20:19,686 --> 00:20:20,887 So, how's school? 316 00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:23,523 You're a senior, right? 317 00:20:23,556 --> 00:20:24,958 You actually care? 318 00:20:24,991 --> 00:20:26,993 Well, of course I care. 319 00:20:27,270 --> 00:20:28,695 I pester your mom for information 320 00:20:28,728 --> 00:20:29,963 as often as she'll give it to me. 321 00:20:32,650 --> 00:20:33,166 (CHARLIE EXHALES) 322 00:20:35,935 --> 00:20:36,936 Um... 323 00:20:38,605 --> 00:20:40,940 So... (GRUNTS) 324 00:20:40,974 --> 00:20:43,543 Why are you... I mean, don't you have school? 325 00:20:43,576 --> 00:20:45,110 Got suspended this morning. 326 00:20:45,745 --> 00:20:46,746 Oh. 327 00:20:47,580 --> 00:20:48,748 Why? 328 00:20:48,782 --> 00:20:50,950 I posted something about my stupid ***** lab partner 329 00:20:50,984 --> 00:20:53,186 that the vice principal said was "Vaguely threatening." 330 00:20:54,654 --> 00:20:55,889 (GRUNTS) 331 00:20:56,990 --> 00:20:58,124 You don't like school? 332 00:20:58,158 --> 00:20:59,626 Only idiots like high school. 333 00:21:01,270 --> 00:21:03,530 But you're on track to graduate, right? 334 00:21:05,331 --> 00:21:06,700 Counselor says I might not. 335 00:21:08,268 --> 00:21:09,536 I'm not worried. 336 00:21:11,710 --> 00:21:12,720 I'm a smart person. 337 00:21:12,972 --> 00:21:14,140 I never forget anything. 338 00:21:15,308 --> 00:21:17,770 High school is just bullshit. 339 00:21:17,110 --> 00:21:18,978 But, Ellie, it's important. 340 00:21:19,120 --> 00:21:20,460 If you don't graduate, then... 341 00:21:20,800 --> 00:21:21,781 Are you actually trying to parent me right now? 342 00:21:22,982 --> 00:21:24,684 No, I'm... Sorry. 343 00:21:24,984 --> 00:21:26,753 I just... 344 00:21:26,786 --> 00:21:28,888 I just thought that maybe we could spend some time with each other. 345 00:21:29,856 --> 00:21:31,910 I'm not spending time with you. 346 00:21:31,858 --> 00:21:32,859 You're disgusting. 347 00:21:38,331 --> 00:21:40,166 Well, I'm a lot bigger than I was 348 00:21:40,233 --> 00:21:41,267 since last time you saw me. 349 00:21:41,334 --> 00:21:43,870 ELLIE: No, I'm not talking about what you look like. 350 00:21:43,903 --> 00:21:45,805 You'd be disgusting even if you weren't this fat. 351 00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:49,900 You'd still be that piece-of-shit dad 352 00:21:49,420 --> 00:21:50,310 who walked out on me when I was eight. 353 00:21:51,845 --> 00:21:53,847 All because he wanted to **** one of his students. 354 00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:54,914 Can I have one of these? 355 00:21:56,349 --> 00:21:57,117 Yeah. 356 00:22:00,987 --> 00:22:02,655 Look, it's... it's been a long time. 357 00:22:02,689 --> 00:22:04,157 I just thought that maybe 358 00:22:05,392 --> 00:22:06,893 we can get to know each other. 359 00:22:08,728 --> 00:22:09,863 I don't even know why I'm here. 360 00:22:10,830 --> 00:22:11,831 I can pay you. 361 00:22:16,703 --> 00:22:18,338 You want to pay me to spend time with you? 362 00:22:18,371 --> 00:22:20,373 And I can help you with your work. 363 00:22:20,407 --> 00:22:22,175 It's what I do for my job. 364 00:22:23,943 --> 00:22:25,211 I can help you pass your classes. 365 00:22:26,946 --> 00:22:28,982 You teach online? Yes. 366 00:22:29,150 --> 00:22:30,784 Your students know what you look like? 367 00:22:30,817 --> 00:22:32,719 I keep the camera shut off. 368 00:22:32,752 --> 00:22:34,187 Yeah, that's probably a good idea. 369 00:22:41,327 --> 00:22:43,329 My counselor says that if I show a lot of improvement 370 00:22:43,396 --> 00:22:44,798 in one subject, 371 00:22:44,831 --> 00:22:45,832 I might be able to graduate. 372 00:22:47,670 --> 00:22:49,302 You can rewrite these essays for English. 373 00:22:49,369 --> 00:22:50,904 They have to be really good, though. 374 00:22:54,741 --> 00:22:56,760 Well, look, um... 375 00:22:56,109 --> 00:22:57,877 I don't know if I should write them for you, 376 00:22:57,911 --> 00:22:58,978 but I can work with you on them. 377 00:22:59,120 --> 00:23:00,146 How much can you pay me? 378 00:23:01,281 --> 00:23:02,215 Everything I have. 379 00:23:02,282 --> 00:23:04,651 All the money I have in the bank. How much? 380 00:23:06,786 --> 00:23:10,560 $120,000? Something like that. I'd have to check. 381 00:23:11,758 --> 00:23:13,590 I never go out. 382 00:23:13,930 --> 00:23:16,229 All I pay for is food, rent, Internet. 383 00:23:16,996 --> 00:23:18,698 And I work all the time. 384 00:23:20,660 --> 00:23:21,167 And you'd give all of it to me? 385 00:23:22,769 --> 00:23:23,770 Not to my mom, to me? 386 00:23:25,405 --> 00:23:27,374 Yes. Just... 387 00:23:28,441 --> 00:23:29,976 don't tell your mom, 388 00:23:30,410 --> 00:23:31,378 all right? 389 00:23:33,460 --> 00:23:36,950 And maybe you could do some writing just for me. 390 00:23:37,751 --> 00:23:39,520 Why? 391 00:23:39,850 --> 00:23:41,888 Because you're a smart person. 392 00:23:41,921 --> 00:23:44,240 And I bet you'd make a strong writer. 393 00:23:46,259 --> 00:23:47,961 Plus, I'm a teacher. I want to make sure 394 00:23:47,994 --> 00:23:49,829 you're getting something out of this. 395 00:23:52,932 --> 00:23:55,235 (ZIPS BAG) I don't even understand you. 396 00:24:06,179 --> 00:24:07,380 Stand up and walk over to me. 397 00:24:08,882 --> 00:24:10,160 What? 398 00:24:10,500 --> 00:24:11,885 Come over here. Walk toward me. 399 00:24:15,488 --> 00:24:17,257 No. No. Without this thing. 400 00:24:18,958 --> 00:24:20,860 Stand up and walk over here. 401 00:24:23,296 --> 00:24:24,731 Ellie, I can't really... Shut up! 402 00:24:26,433 --> 00:24:27,801 Come over here. 403 00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:34,808 (CHARLIE SIGHS) 404 00:24:40,547 --> 00:24:41,881 (EXHALES HEAVILY) 405 00:24:42,415 --> 00:24:43,383 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 406 00:24:49,550 --> 00:24:50,890 (GRUNTS WITH EXERTION) 407 00:24:50,924 --> 00:24:52,425 (GRUNTS, GROANS) 408 00:24:53,930 --> 00:24:56,290 (PANTING) 409 00:24:58,398 --> 00:25:00,767 (HUFFING) 410 00:25:01,534 --> 00:25:04,337 (GRUNTS) 411 00:25:08,508 --> 00:25:09,843 (CHARLIE YELLS) 412 00:25:10,343 --> 00:25:12,450 (GROANING LOUDLY) 413 00:25:13,179 --> 00:25:15,148 (GROANING IN PAIN) 414 00:25:19,319 --> 00:25:21,321 (PANTING) 415 00:25:23,490 --> 00:25:25,358 (DOG BARKS OUTSIDE) 416 00:25:31,231 --> 00:25:33,990 (WHISPERING) "...celebrate my soul. 417 00:25:34,234 --> 00:25:35,935 "Sell my soul." 418 00:25:35,969 --> 00:25:37,137 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 419 00:25:37,604 --> 00:25:38,872 MAN: Gambino's! 420 00:25:39,606 --> 00:25:40,940 Yeah, you can, um... 421 00:25:42,750 --> 00:25:43,476 I put a $20 in the mailbox. 422 00:25:44,978 --> 00:25:46,120 MAN: Sure. 423 00:25:49,582 --> 00:25:52,850 You can just leave it on the... 424 00:25:52,118 --> 00:25:54,354 MAN: Yeah, I, uh... I remember. 425 00:25:56,489 --> 00:25:57,824 Everything okay in there? 426 00:26:02,462 --> 00:26:03,430 Yeah. 427 00:26:05,265 --> 00:26:06,299 MAN: You sure? 428 00:26:07,100 --> 00:26:08,101 Yeah. 429 00:26:08,968 --> 00:26:10,300 I'm fine. 430 00:26:12,439 --> 00:26:13,406 Thank you. 431 00:26:15,408 --> 00:26:16,409 (METAL CLACKS) 432 00:26:17,277 --> 00:26:18,878 (FOOTSTEPS) 433 00:26:22,182 --> 00:26:23,283 (CHUCKLES LIGHTLY) 434 00:26:30,523 --> 00:26:31,958 (CAR ENGINE STARTS) 435 00:26:57,117 --> 00:26:58,952 Breathe slowly. (DEVICE BEEPS) 436 00:26:58,985 --> 00:27:00,286 (INHALES) 437 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:01,354 Relax. 438 00:27:01,388 --> 00:27:02,489 (EXHALES) (DEVICE BEEPS) 439 00:27:02,522 --> 00:27:05,625 It measures perspiration. It's an indicator of stress. 440 00:27:05,658 --> 00:27:07,930 It's about establishing a relationship 441 00:27:07,127 --> 00:27:08,361 between your brain and your body. 442 00:27:08,395 --> 00:27:09,929 If you know how to make yourself calm, 443 00:27:09,963 --> 00:27:11,970 then your blood pressure will... 444 00:27:11,131 --> 00:27:13,199 (DEVICE BEEPS) Here. 445 00:27:13,233 --> 00:27:15,235 I don't need a little machine to tell me 446 00:27:15,268 --> 00:27:17,671 to take a few deep breaths and stop sweating. 447 00:27:17,704 --> 00:27:20,730 Well, apparently, you ****ing do. 448 00:27:20,106 --> 00:27:22,676 (DEVICE BEEPS) Take another deep breath. 449 00:27:22,709 --> 00:27:25,412 (BREATHES DEEPLY) (DEVICE BEEPS) 450 00:27:25,445 --> 00:27:26,479 Thank you. 451 00:27:28,481 --> 00:27:30,830 (CHARLIE EXHALES DEEPLY) 452 00:27:30,116 --> 00:27:32,352 (LIZ SIGHS) 453 00:27:32,385 --> 00:27:36,456 We're just gonna try some different methods, or whatever. 454 00:27:36,489 --> 00:27:40,930 If you refuse to go to the hospital, then you'll... 455 00:27:41,227 --> 00:27:42,295 I don't know. 456 00:27:50,403 --> 00:27:51,538 Where'd this come from? 457 00:27:51,604 --> 00:27:53,106 (DEVICE CONTINUES BEEPING) 458 00:27:56,576 --> 00:27:57,544 Hey. 459 00:28:01,140 --> 00:28:02,150 Was she here? 460 00:28:05,218 --> 00:28:07,220 No, I don't like this. 461 00:28:07,253 --> 00:28:09,389 This isn't a good idea. 462 00:28:09,422 --> 00:28:11,358 You know you're not supposed to be around her. 463 00:28:12,659 --> 00:28:13,993 Does her mom know about this? 464 00:28:14,270 --> 00:28:15,428 I just wanted to see her. 465 00:28:15,462 --> 00:28:17,464 Mary has kept her from me all this time. 466 00:28:17,497 --> 00:28:20,166 Why do you suddenly need to see her so bad, why now? 467 00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:21,201 Liz. 468 00:28:25,138 --> 00:28:26,239 (LIZ SIGHS) 469 00:28:28,375 --> 00:28:30,243 Why the hell do you have her homework, anyway? 470 00:28:31,144 --> 00:28:34,614 Look, I didn't plan for this. 471 00:28:34,681 --> 00:28:36,383 She needs some help at school, 472 00:28:36,416 --> 00:28:38,718 so I'm gonna help her with a few essays. 473 00:28:38,752 --> 00:28:39,886 (LIZ SCOFFS) 474 00:28:39,919 --> 00:28:42,220 You haven't seen her since she was eight years old, 475 00:28:42,550 --> 00:28:43,156 and you're gonna reconnect with her 476 00:28:43,189 --> 00:28:44,724 by doing her homework for her? 477 00:28:44,758 --> 00:28:46,292 It's fine. It's not fine. 478 00:28:49,162 --> 00:28:50,997 She shouldn't be around you when you're like this. 479 00:28:52,265 --> 00:28:54,768 What if something happens, what if you need help? 480 00:28:54,801 --> 00:28:56,336 (DEVICE BEEPING RAPIDLY) 481 00:28:56,369 --> 00:28:57,537 Charlie, calm down. 482 00:28:58,538 --> 00:29:00,206 Hey. No. (BEEPING STOPS) 483 00:29:02,742 --> 00:29:04,177 Okay. Forget it, then. 484 00:29:05,478 --> 00:29:07,514 I'm worried about her. Why? 485 00:29:10,250 --> 00:29:11,685 Oh, you're spying on her now? 486 00:29:13,453 --> 00:29:15,321 It doesn't look like she has any friends. 487 00:29:19,492 --> 00:29:20,527 I don't think this is... 488 00:29:25,331 --> 00:29:27,500 (CHARLIE SCOFFS) Come on, a dead dog? 489 00:29:34,107 --> 00:29:35,575 I'm worried that she's forgotten 490 00:29:35,608 --> 00:29:37,444 what an amazing person she is. 491 00:29:42,682 --> 00:29:44,517 She's just a teenager. 492 00:29:44,551 --> 00:29:46,586 Everyone is insane when they're a teenager. 493 00:29:46,619 --> 00:29:47,487 When I was her age, 494 00:29:47,554 --> 00:29:49,289 when my dad would really piss me off... 495 00:29:51,191 --> 00:29:53,293 I'm just lucky I didn't get arrested, that's all I'll say. 496 00:29:56,696 --> 00:29:57,697 Point is, 497 00:29:59,733 --> 00:30:02,235 bringing her over here is a bad idea. 498 00:30:02,268 --> 00:30:04,270 You have enough to deal with right now, you hear me? 499 00:30:05,805 --> 00:30:07,440 Do not bring her over here again. 500 00:30:08,208 --> 00:30:09,309 Okay. 501 00:30:10,677 --> 00:30:11,644 Okay. 502 00:30:16,783 --> 00:30:19,285 It's not like she's alone, you know. She has her mom. 503 00:30:25,358 --> 00:30:27,660 LIZ: Ugh, shit. I have to go soon. 504 00:30:29,162 --> 00:30:31,364 I hate these night shifts. (UTENSILS CLACKING) 505 00:30:31,398 --> 00:30:35,435 It's just a steady parade of dumb, drunk college kids. 506 00:30:35,468 --> 00:30:36,636 (FAUCET RUNS) 507 00:30:37,771 --> 00:30:39,539 (LAUGHING) Did I tell you about this girl 508 00:30:39,572 --> 00:30:41,541 from a few nights ago? (GAGS) 509 00:30:41,574 --> 00:30:44,144 The puke was bright purple, I swear. 510 00:30:44,177 --> 00:30:46,613 (CHOKING) (LIZ LAUGHING) 511 00:30:46,646 --> 00:30:47,647 I mean, what is that? 512 00:30:47,681 --> 00:30:50,517 Why can't these kids just drink beer? You know. 513 00:30:51,885 --> 00:30:54,220 Are you choking? (CONTINUES CHOKING) 514 00:30:54,254 --> 00:30:56,456 Oh, God! Okay, lean on that arm. 515 00:30:57,223 --> 00:30:58,224 Lean on that arm! 516 00:30:59,192 --> 00:31:00,560 Okay, I need you to rock with me. 517 00:31:01,394 --> 00:31:03,430 (GRUNTS) (CHOKES) 518 00:31:03,463 --> 00:31:04,764 (GRUNTS) (CHARLIE GASPS) 519 00:31:05,732 --> 00:31:06,733 (LIZ YELLS) 520 00:31:06,800 --> 00:31:09,169 (COUGHS, WHEEZES) 521 00:31:09,202 --> 00:31:11,838 (COUGHING, WHEEZING) 522 00:31:11,871 --> 00:31:13,873 (GASPING) 523 00:31:14,908 --> 00:31:16,576 I'm okay. (GASPS) 524 00:31:17,711 --> 00:31:21,514 I'm okay. (GASPS) 525 00:31:21,548 --> 00:31:24,184 (SHOUTS) God damn it, Charlie, what is wrong with you? 526 00:31:24,217 --> 00:31:25,118 (HITS) 527 00:31:25,151 --> 00:31:27,354 Chew your food like a normal human being! 528 00:31:27,387 --> 00:31:29,289 You could have just died right in front of me! 529 00:31:29,322 --> 00:31:30,323 I'm sorry. 530 00:31:31,391 --> 00:31:34,294 (CHARLIE WHIMPERS AND SOBS) 531 00:31:36,396 --> 00:31:37,430 I'm sorry, Liz. 532 00:31:49,542 --> 00:31:50,577 (OBJECT CLACKS) 533 00:31:57,751 --> 00:31:58,852 (LIZ EXHALES) 534 00:32:05,692 --> 00:32:06,693 It's okay. 535 00:32:30,784 --> 00:32:32,886 CHARLIE: I read through some of the posts 536 00:32:32,919 --> 00:32:35,855 in the class discussion forum this morning. 537 00:32:35,922 --> 00:32:38,425 In particular, a post 538 00:32:38,458 --> 00:32:42,696 about crafting a good thesis, and I quote, 539 00:32:42,729 --> 00:32:44,864 "Just pick a sentence from the reading 540 00:32:44,931 --> 00:32:47,434 "and say, 'It's good,' or some shit." 541 00:32:47,467 --> 00:32:50,503 Listen, at this point in the course, 542 00:32:50,537 --> 00:32:53,573 I have given you all that I can, 543 00:32:53,606 --> 00:32:56,910 in terms of structure, building a thesis, 544 00:32:56,943 --> 00:32:58,578 paragraph organization. 545 00:32:59,779 --> 00:33:02,649 But if all of that isn't built 546 00:33:02,682 --> 00:33:05,518 on your own original ideas and truthful analysis, 547 00:33:05,552 --> 00:33:06,820 it doesn't mean anything. 548 00:33:08,588 --> 00:33:10,790 Think about that as you write and revise. 549 00:33:10,824 --> 00:33:13,460 Think about the truth of your argument. 550 00:33:14,928 --> 00:33:18,865 I know this may sound silly, but it's important. 551 00:33:20,533 --> 00:33:22,936 Promise, it's important. 552 00:33:26,573 --> 00:33:27,941 (BIRD CHIRPING) 553 00:33:42,655 --> 00:33:44,724 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 554 00:33:53,767 --> 00:33:54,801 (STRAINING) 555 00:33:55,568 --> 00:33:56,736 (KEY CLATTERS) 556 00:34:03,743 --> 00:34:06,513 (GRUNTING SOFTLY) 557 00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:16,389 (KEY CLACKS) 558 00:34:18,580 --> 00:34:19,359 (CLAW CLICKS) 559 00:34:27,701 --> 00:34:29,669 (MUTTERING INDISTINCTLY) 560 00:34:32,639 --> 00:34:33,773 (SIGHS) 561 00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:44,684 This is... (EXHALES) 562 00:34:44,718 --> 00:34:47,354 You say that Walt Whitman wrote Song for Myself. 563 00:34:47,687 --> 00:34:48,855 Yeah? 564 00:34:48,922 --> 00:34:50,657 It's called Song of Myself. 565 00:34:52,492 --> 00:34:53,526 My title's better. 566 00:34:55,695 --> 00:34:56,696 Yeah. 567 00:34:57,731 --> 00:34:58,732 Well... 568 00:34:59,666 --> 00:35:00,700 Okay, I'll just change it. 569 00:35:02,502 --> 00:35:04,871 "The poem Song of Myself 570 00:35:04,904 --> 00:35:06,873 "is in a book called Leaves of Grass. 571 00:35:06,906 --> 00:35:08,575 "It was written by Walt Whitman 572 00:35:08,608 --> 00:35:10,777 "and was published in 1855. 573 00:35:10,810 --> 00:35:12,746 "He paid for the first publication himself." 574 00:35:12,779 --> 00:35:15,782 You don't have to read it out loud. Just rewrite it. 575 00:35:15,815 --> 00:35:17,851 You're supposed to analyze the poem. 576 00:35:17,884 --> 00:35:19,419 This is just a list of facts. 577 00:35:19,452 --> 00:35:21,621 Yup. Thank you, Wikipedia. 578 00:35:23,156 --> 00:35:24,891 (SMACKS LIPS) 579 00:35:24,924 --> 00:35:26,726 You know, it's really an amazing poem. 580 00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:30,530 Whitman uses the metaphor of "I" not to refer to himself, 581 00:35:30,563 --> 00:35:34,100 but to explode the very definition of self 582 00:35:34,134 --> 00:35:36,636 in favor of a more all-encompassing... 583 00:35:36,670 --> 00:35:37,937 I really, really don't care. 584 00:35:42,642 --> 00:35:44,878 You know, I think you might like it if you actually read it. 585 00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:48,648 You're just like my teachers. 586 00:35:48,682 --> 00:35:51,170 You think just because I'm not losing my shit over the poem, 587 00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:52,519 it's because I didn't read it. 588 00:35:52,552 --> 00:35:53,520 I did read it. 589 00:35:53,553 --> 00:35:56,156 It's overwritten, and dumb, and repetitive. 590 00:35:56,189 --> 00:35:58,858 And even though he thinks his metaphor of "I" is deep, 591 00:35:58,892 --> 00:36:00,760 it's actually just a bunch of bullshit. 592 00:36:00,794 --> 00:36:01,728 And, in reality, 593 00:36:01,761 --> 00:36:04,964 he's just some worthless 19th century faggot. 594 00:36:07,534 --> 00:36:09,936 That's an interesting perspective. 595 00:36:10,300 --> 00:36:11,738 It would make for an interesting essay. 596 00:36:14,140 --> 00:36:17,177 Just write that thing about exploding the definition of self. 597 00:36:17,210 --> 00:36:18,678 My English teacher will love it. 598 00:36:23,216 --> 00:36:24,584 (CHARLIE SIGHS) 599 00:36:27,153 --> 00:36:29,956 So, how's your mom doing? Oh, my God. 600 00:36:31,725 --> 00:36:33,960 Look, if you're not gonna write these essays for me, then... 601 00:36:34,270 --> 00:36:37,764 CHARLIE: Ellie, I don't need you here to write these essays for you. 602 00:36:37,797 --> 00:36:39,466 If you want to go, you can go. 603 00:36:40,800 --> 00:36:41,901 You can still have the money. 604 00:36:44,738 --> 00:36:47,400 I thought you wanted to get to know me. I do, 605 00:36:47,107 --> 00:36:48,708 but I don't want to force you to be here. 606 00:36:50,543 --> 00:36:51,611 It's up to you. 607 00:36:55,148 --> 00:36:56,116 (PUTS BAG DOWN) 608 00:36:57,717 --> 00:36:58,718 She's fine. 609 00:36:59,686 --> 00:37:00,787 Mom. I guess. 610 00:37:01,921 --> 00:37:04,157 She happy? When she drinks. 611 00:37:06,126 --> 00:37:08,728 You guys still live in that duplex over on Orchard? 612 00:37:09,829 --> 00:37:10,897 You don't even know where we live? 613 00:37:13,867 --> 00:37:14,868 You don't stay in touch with Mom? 614 00:37:14,901 --> 00:37:18,538 Yeah, I check in with her as often as she lets me. 615 00:37:18,571 --> 00:37:20,600 She really only tells me things about you. 616 00:37:20,974 --> 00:37:22,208 Why? 617 00:37:22,242 --> 00:37:24,100 Because that's all I want to know about. 618 00:37:30,283 --> 00:37:31,551 When I was 11, 619 00:37:31,584 --> 00:37:32,952 we moved to the other side of town, 620 00:37:33,820 --> 00:37:34,921 near the Walmart. 621 00:37:35,622 --> 00:37:36,623 Is your mother 622 00:37:37,724 --> 00:37:39,726 with anyone right now? No. 623 00:37:40,593 --> 00:37:42,262 Why, you interested? 624 00:37:42,295 --> 00:37:44,898 (CHUCKLES) No, of course not. 625 00:37:52,806 --> 00:37:54,174 Why'd you gain all that weight? 626 00:37:54,207 --> 00:37:55,475 (INHALES DEEPLY) I don't... 627 00:37:55,542 --> 00:37:57,777 If you're gonna interrogate me, I'm gonna do the same thing. 628 00:38:00,213 --> 00:38:01,281 Why'd you gain all that weight? 629 00:38:05,752 --> 00:38:09,890 Someone close to me passed away, and it... 630 00:38:09,956 --> 00:38:12,125 It had an effect on me. 631 00:38:12,192 --> 00:38:13,159 Your boyfriend. 632 00:38:14,294 --> 00:38:17,300 My partner. Your student. 633 00:38:17,630 --> 00:38:19,165 He wasn't that young. It was a night school course. 634 00:38:19,232 --> 00:38:20,233 ELLIE: Oh, I remember him. 635 00:38:21,801 --> 00:38:22,902 You had him over for dinner once 636 00:38:22,936 --> 00:38:24,871 when Mom was in Montana, visiting Grandma. 637 00:38:26,706 --> 00:38:27,807 You made steaks. 638 00:38:28,808 --> 00:38:30,276 The good kind. 639 00:38:30,310 --> 00:38:33,246 Better meal than you ever made for me or Mom. 640 00:38:33,279 --> 00:38:35,815 I remember hearing you two talk after I went to bed. 641 00:38:39,119 --> 00:38:40,887 How do you remember all that? 642 00:38:40,920 --> 00:38:43,156 I told you, I never forget anything. 643 00:38:53,333 --> 00:38:54,334 How did he die? 644 00:38:56,336 --> 00:38:58,672 I... I don't... I'm... 645 00:38:58,705 --> 00:39:00,974 I really don't want to talk about that right now, 646 00:39:02,242 --> 00:39:03,743 if that's all right with you. 647 00:39:08,815 --> 00:39:10,817 (CELL PHONE KEYS CLACKING) 648 00:39:15,355 --> 00:39:16,856 I'll write these essays for you. 649 00:39:18,758 --> 00:39:21,928 I want you to do some writing, just for me. 650 00:39:22,962 --> 00:39:24,798 I hate writing essays. 651 00:39:24,831 --> 00:39:26,366 Just think about the poem for a while, 652 00:39:27,367 --> 00:39:28,368 and write something. 653 00:39:31,104 --> 00:39:33,600 Be honest. 654 00:39:33,390 --> 00:39:35,108 Tell me what you really think. 655 00:39:35,141 --> 00:39:36,843 You want me to write what I really think? 656 00:39:38,311 --> 00:39:39,379 I'll be right back. 657 00:39:40,747 --> 00:39:42,782 Just write whatever you want. 658 00:39:45,352 --> 00:39:48,755 (CHARLIE GROANING WITH EXERTION) 659 00:39:51,910 --> 00:39:52,158 (SIGHS HEAVILY) 660 00:39:53,326 --> 00:39:55,762 (CONTINUES GROANING) 661 00:39:55,795 --> 00:39:59,132 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 662 00:40:31,798 --> 00:40:33,166 (WATER RUNNING) 663 00:40:35,802 --> 00:40:37,904 (SUPPRESSED SOBBING) 664 00:40:38,471 --> 00:40:41,410 (MUFFLED SOBBING) 665 00:40:41,740 --> 00:40:42,909 (WATER CONTINUES RUNNING) 666 00:40:44,277 --> 00:40:46,746 Are you okay? 667 00:40:46,780 --> 00:40:48,381 Unless you're dying, there's no way I'm going in there. 668 00:40:48,415 --> 00:40:49,983 (SNIFFLES) 669 00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:52,218 (EXHALES) Oh, yeah. I'm fine. I'm fine. 670 00:40:59,590 --> 00:41:00,860 (BRID WINGS FLAPPING) 671 00:41:09,200 --> 00:41:10,203 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 672 00:41:11,404 --> 00:41:13,206 (WATER RUNNING) (KNOCKING CONTINUES) 673 00:41:17,770 --> 00:41:18,378 Hi. 674 00:41:18,411 --> 00:41:19,979 I was looking for Charlie? 675 00:41:20,547 --> 00:41:21,815 He's in the bathroom. 676 00:41:22,449 --> 00:41:23,883 Oh, I can come back. 677 00:41:29,289 --> 00:41:31,124 Are you his friend, or... 678 00:41:31,157 --> 00:41:32,425 I'm his daughter. 679 00:41:32,459 --> 00:41:34,994 Oh. Are you surprised? 680 00:41:39,566 --> 00:41:40,533 I'm kidding. 681 00:41:41,601 --> 00:41:42,635 Jesus. 682 00:41:43,570 --> 00:41:44,771 Um... 683 00:41:44,838 --> 00:41:47,640 Charlie was interested in hearing more about my church, 684 00:41:47,674 --> 00:41:48,541 and I brought some literature... 685 00:41:48,575 --> 00:41:51,277 Are you Mormon? No, I'm from New Life. 686 00:41:51,311 --> 00:41:53,980 Oh. That end times cult thing. 687 00:41:54,140 --> 00:41:55,949 (POURS JUICE) It's not a cult. 688 00:41:55,982 --> 00:41:57,650 Tell you one thing that I like about religion. 689 00:41:57,684 --> 00:41:59,152 What I like about religion 690 00:41:59,185 --> 00:42:01,287 is that it assumes that everyone is an idiot 691 00:42:01,321 --> 00:42:03,256 and that they're all incapable of saving themselves. 692 00:42:03,289 --> 00:42:04,991 I think they got something right with that. 693 00:42:05,250 --> 00:42:06,159 I don't think like that... 694 00:42:06,192 --> 00:42:08,280 What I don't like about religion 695 00:42:08,610 --> 00:42:10,463 is that when people accept Jesus or whatever, 696 00:42:10,530 --> 00:42:12,165 they suddenly think that they're better 697 00:42:12,198 --> 00:42:13,266 than everyone else. (CHARLIE GRUNTING) 698 00:42:13,299 --> 00:42:15,435 By accepting the fact that they're stupid sinners, 699 00:42:15,502 --> 00:42:18,672 somehow they've become better, and they turn into ***holes. 700 00:42:21,274 --> 00:42:22,475 I don't really know what to say. 701 00:42:22,542 --> 00:42:24,477 I have some pamphlets that I think would... 702 00:42:24,544 --> 00:42:26,379 (CAMERA CLICKS) Why did you just do that? 703 00:42:26,413 --> 00:42:28,810 Are you coming back tomorrow? 704 00:42:28,114 --> 00:42:29,482 I'm not sure... Come back tomorrow. 705 00:42:29,549 --> 00:42:31,518 I'll be here around the same time. 706 00:42:31,584 --> 00:42:33,186 I'm sorry, what's happening? 707 00:42:33,720 --> 00:42:35,121 (CAMERA CLICKS) 708 00:42:35,588 --> 00:42:37,157 Oh! 709 00:42:37,190 --> 00:42:39,125 Hi. I was just coming over 710 00:42:39,159 --> 00:42:40,326 to share these pamphlets with you. 711 00:42:40,360 --> 00:42:41,428 You'll have those done by tomorrow? 712 00:42:42,328 --> 00:42:43,329 Sure. 713 00:42:44,970 --> 00:42:45,432 Five-page minimum. 714 00:42:45,465 --> 00:42:46,666 It'll be good, I promise. 715 00:42:50,360 --> 00:42:51,604 I'm Ellie. Thomas. 716 00:42:52,505 --> 00:42:54,541 (BREATHES HEAVILY) 717 00:42:55,608 --> 00:42:56,976 (SLAMS DOOR SHUT) 718 00:43:00,580 --> 00:43:01,581 So... 719 00:43:01,648 --> 00:43:04,217 Christ's return has been promised for centuries. 720 00:43:04,250 --> 00:43:05,585 But there are a lot of clues in Scripture 721 00:43:05,618 --> 00:43:06,786 that suggest it's imminent. 722 00:43:06,820 --> 00:43:09,222 So, that means we don't have time to deny the Gospel, 723 00:43:09,255 --> 00:43:10,423 we don't have... Do you really think 724 00:43:10,457 --> 00:43:12,625 that the world's gonna end soon? 725 00:43:12,659 --> 00:43:14,627 Well, the Bible says that no one shall know the day 726 00:43:14,661 --> 00:43:16,196 or the hour, but, 727 00:43:16,229 --> 00:43:17,630 yeah, I think we're probably living in end times. 728 00:43:18,798 --> 00:43:20,233 And that doesn't bother you? 729 00:43:20,266 --> 00:43:21,601 No. It's the idea 730 00:43:21,634 --> 00:43:24,304 that a better world is coming to replace this one. 731 00:43:24,337 --> 00:43:26,673 That everything terrible about this country, 732 00:43:26,706 --> 00:43:28,541 this planet, is gonna be wiped clean, 733 00:43:28,608 --> 00:43:31,478 and replaced with something pure and holy, and... 734 00:43:31,511 --> 00:43:33,413 I'm sorry. I don't mean to be rude, 735 00:43:33,446 --> 00:43:35,315 but I know all this. 736 00:43:36,116 --> 00:43:37,384 What do you mean? 737 00:43:37,417 --> 00:43:39,619 I have probably read everything 738 00:43:39,652 --> 00:43:42,589 New Life Church has ever written. 739 00:43:42,655 --> 00:43:45,625 Probably every pamphlet they've ever published. 740 00:43:45,658 --> 00:43:48,161 Wow, that's great and everything, 741 00:43:48,194 --> 00:43:50,163 but these tracts are just the beginning. 742 00:43:50,196 --> 00:43:52,399 There's so much more in the Bible that we can... I read the Bible. 743 00:43:53,400 --> 00:43:54,701 Really? 744 00:43:54,734 --> 00:43:56,670 Sure. Couple times. 745 00:43:58,238 --> 00:43:59,673 Did you like it? 746 00:43:59,706 --> 00:44:02,242 I thought it was devastating. 747 00:44:02,275 --> 00:44:05,111 God creates us, expels us from paradise. 748 00:44:05,145 --> 00:44:08,114 We wander around for thousands of years killing each other, 749 00:44:08,148 --> 00:44:11,151 before He comes back and saves 144,000 of us. 750 00:44:11,184 --> 00:44:14,387 Meanwhile, seven- and-a-half billion of us fall into hell. 751 00:44:16,690 --> 00:44:18,692 Yeah. 752 00:44:18,725 --> 00:44:20,694 That's not really how I interpret it, but... 753 00:44:22,362 --> 00:44:24,164 Charlie, you have to understand, 754 00:44:25,231 --> 00:44:27,600 God hasn't turned His back on you. 755 00:44:27,667 --> 00:44:30,503 If you accept Him, He'll release you from this. 756 00:44:30,537 --> 00:44:31,838 (SIPPING) He'll take your soul 757 00:44:31,871 --> 00:44:34,240 out of this body and give you a brand-new body. 758 00:44:34,274 --> 00:44:36,409 One made of pure light. I mean, don't you want that? 759 00:44:36,443 --> 00:44:39,512 I'm not interested in being saved. 760 00:44:39,546 --> 00:44:41,181 (SIGHS) I appreciate what you did 761 00:44:41,214 --> 00:44:43,350 the other day, but you can go. 762 00:44:43,383 --> 00:44:44,851 This doesn't sound like something that I... 763 00:44:44,884 --> 00:44:47,620 Look, I really think that God brought me here for a reason. 764 00:44:47,687 --> 00:44:49,622 There's a reason why I knocked on your door 765 00:44:49,689 --> 00:44:51,658 right when you needed someone the most. 766 00:44:51,725 --> 00:44:54,694 Isn't there any way I can help? 767 00:44:54,728 --> 00:44:55,829 I mean, that's the entire reason 768 00:44:55,895 --> 00:44:57,864 why I became a missionary in the first place, right? 769 00:44:57,897 --> 00:44:59,566 There's something you can do for me. 770 00:45:03,770 --> 00:45:06,773 What? Um, nothing I just... 771 00:45:06,806 --> 00:45:11,211 I hope you know I wasn't talking about, um... 772 00:45:11,745 --> 00:45:13,880 What? I'm not... 773 00:45:13,913 --> 00:45:15,849 Oh, my God. I'm... I'm sorry. I just... 774 00:45:15,882 --> 00:45:17,283 No. With what you were watching 775 00:45:17,317 --> 00:45:18,385 the first time I came in here, I just... 776 00:45:18,418 --> 00:45:20,520 (CHUCKLES) I am not attracted to you. 777 00:45:20,553 --> 00:45:23,723 Please, you gotta believe me when I say I'm not attracted to you. 778 00:45:23,757 --> 00:45:24,791 You're a fetus. 779 00:45:27,627 --> 00:45:28,795 I'm sorry. 780 00:45:30,497 --> 00:45:31,564 (SIGHS) 781 00:45:35,668 --> 00:45:37,637 Thomas, tell me the truth. 782 00:45:40,674 --> 00:45:41,741 You find me disgusting? 783 00:45:45,211 --> 00:45:46,212 No. 784 00:45:48,782 --> 00:45:49,883 I just want to help. 785 00:45:50,917 --> 00:45:52,819 Please, just let me help. 786 00:46:02,328 --> 00:46:04,597 (GRUNTS SOFTLY) 787 00:46:04,631 --> 00:46:06,666 Thank you. That's very helpful. 788 00:46:13,640 --> 00:46:16,242 What happened to your... Sorry. Your friend, Liz, 789 00:46:16,276 --> 00:46:18,678 she said that your boyfriend, 790 00:46:18,745 --> 00:46:20,613 he used to go to New Life? (DOOR OPENS) 791 00:46:23,249 --> 00:46:24,484 LIZ: Charlie? Yeah. 792 00:46:25,352 --> 00:46:27,320 I got you this. 793 00:46:27,354 --> 00:46:28,788 I did some asking around, and... 794 00:46:30,990 --> 00:46:32,792 What the **** is he doing here? 795 00:46:32,826 --> 00:46:34,561 He's just helping me with something. 796 00:46:34,594 --> 00:46:35,895 Take it easy, Liz. 797 00:46:35,929 --> 00:46:38,331 Okay, well, you can go now. 798 00:46:38,765 --> 00:46:39,733 Liz. 799 00:46:40,900 --> 00:46:41,901 Go home! 800 00:46:43,269 --> 00:46:44,704 Sorry. I'm sorry. Leave it. 801 00:46:44,771 --> 00:46:46,740 (CHARLIE GRUNTS) I said, leave it! 802 00:46:46,806 --> 00:46:48,708 CHARLIE: Liz, would you stop? 803 00:46:50,677 --> 00:46:53,780 Actually, stay. We'll have a little chat. 804 00:46:57,851 --> 00:46:58,818 What's this? 805 00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:01,421 The **** does it look like? 806 00:47:03,857 --> 00:47:05,825 It's a fat-guy wheelchair. 807 00:47:05,859 --> 00:47:07,827 And why do I need a wheelchair? 808 00:47:07,861 --> 00:47:10,964 I was talking to one of the ER doctors, 809 00:47:10,997 --> 00:47:14,334 He said moderate activity would be a good idea. 810 00:47:14,367 --> 00:47:15,902 Sense of independence might help you out. 811 00:47:15,935 --> 00:47:17,103 And what did you pay for this thing? 812 00:47:17,137 --> 00:47:19,572 Nothing. We ordered it for a patient a few months ago. 813 00:47:19,606 --> 00:47:20,674 It's just been sitting around. 814 00:47:20,740 --> 00:47:21,741 What happened to the patient? 815 00:47:23,309 --> 00:47:25,345 Just try it out. 816 00:47:25,378 --> 00:47:26,379 Please. 817 00:47:27,414 --> 00:47:28,581 (SIGHS) 818 00:47:29,315 --> 00:47:30,917 (GRUNTING) 819 00:47:33,887 --> 00:47:35,588 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 820 00:47:36,623 --> 00:47:39,993 Beep. Beep. Beep. 821 00:47:41,861 --> 00:47:44,731 (LAUGHING) 822 00:47:45,899 --> 00:47:47,500 CHARLIE: Can I sit? I gotcha. 823 00:47:48,702 --> 00:47:50,670 (CHARLIE GROANING) 824 00:47:53,340 --> 00:47:54,407 (CHUCKLES) 825 00:47:55,742 --> 00:47:57,711 Good? Yeah, actually, this is really nice. 826 00:48:00,380 --> 00:48:01,648 Yeah. 827 00:48:01,681 --> 00:48:03,383 Let me clear some space for you. 828 00:48:03,917 --> 00:48:04,918 CHARLIE: Whee. 829 00:48:06,553 --> 00:48:07,554 Hello? 830 00:48:12,692 --> 00:48:13,793 CHARLIE: Look, no hands. 831 00:48:15,795 --> 00:48:17,731 Thank you, Liz. This is great, so great. 832 00:48:17,764 --> 00:48:20,934 (CHUCKLES) See? I told you. CHARLIE: I know. 833 00:48:20,967 --> 00:48:22,736 I should go. Ah-pap-pap. 834 00:48:22,769 --> 00:48:23,937 Not until we have our little chat. 835 00:48:25,438 --> 00:48:26,940 What? LIZ: Come on. 836 00:48:33,680 --> 00:48:34,781 Liz. 837 00:48:34,848 --> 00:48:36,449 Just gimme a minute with him. 838 00:48:46,126 --> 00:48:47,727 (DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE) 839 00:49:03,943 --> 00:49:04,944 Where are you from? 840 00:49:06,479 --> 00:49:07,514 What? 841 00:49:07,547 --> 00:49:09,382 You said you've only been here for a little while. 842 00:49:12,585 --> 00:49:14,200 Where you from? 843 00:49:14,540 --> 00:49:17,424 Uh, Iowa. A town called Waterloo? 844 00:49:18,240 --> 00:49:19,590 You asking me? 845 00:49:19,959 --> 00:49:21,461 No. I'm from Waterloo. 846 00:49:21,895 --> 00:49:23,496 Okay. 847 00:49:23,530 --> 00:49:25,598 Your whole family move out here for New Life? 848 00:49:26,599 --> 00:49:28,340 No, it's just me. 849 00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:30,603 I wanted to do some missionary work before school. 850 00:49:30,637 --> 00:49:31,971 (CHUCKLES) 851 00:49:32,500 --> 00:49:34,441 You're from Iowa, 852 00:49:34,474 --> 00:49:37,744 and you came to Idaho to do missionary work? 853 00:49:37,777 --> 00:49:39,612 Why aren't you in Africa or something? 854 00:49:39,646 --> 00:49:41,448 Idaho needs the Word as much as anywhere else. 855 00:49:48,521 --> 00:49:50,900 Okay, listen. 856 00:49:50,123 --> 00:49:51,758 I know this is fun for you. 857 00:49:51,791 --> 00:49:52,926 You get to travel around, 858 00:49:52,992 --> 00:49:54,594 act superior than everyone else, 859 00:49:55,729 --> 00:49:56,996 and eventually, you go home, 860 00:49:57,300 --> 00:49:59,132 get some boring job, have too many kids. 861 00:49:59,165 --> 00:49:59,999 It's God's plan. 862 00:50:00,330 --> 00:50:03,436 But there are other types of people. 863 00:50:03,470 --> 00:50:04,704 People like Charlie, 864 00:50:04,738 --> 00:50:07,907 for whom this amazing plan doesn't fit. 865 00:50:09,900 --> 00:50:12,112 So, just stay away from him. 866 00:50:12,145 --> 00:50:13,613 He doesn't need this right now. 867 00:50:15,949 --> 00:50:17,684 I disagree. 868 00:50:17,717 --> 00:50:20,453 (EXHALES) Excuse me? Sorry, I just, uh... 869 00:50:20,487 --> 00:50:21,855 He's dying. 870 00:50:21,888 --> 00:50:23,490 He's refusing to go to the hospital. 871 00:50:23,523 --> 00:50:25,250 What he needs is spiritual guidance. 872 00:50:25,580 --> 00:50:26,559 And you're gonna give him that? 873 00:50:26,593 --> 00:50:28,595 No. God will. 874 00:50:31,197 --> 00:50:32,432 I see. 875 00:50:51,551 --> 00:50:53,653 My big brother did some missionary work for New Life. 876 00:50:55,722 --> 00:50:56,923 Went to South America. 877 00:50:57,757 --> 00:50:59,893 Oh. Yeah. 878 00:50:59,959 --> 00:51:00,894 I was the black sheep. 879 00:51:00,960 --> 00:51:03,563 I refused to go to church ever since I was 12. 880 00:51:04,597 --> 00:51:05,965 Dad knew I was a lost cause, 881 00:51:08,535 --> 00:51:12,539 but not my brother, he loved New Life. 882 00:51:12,572 --> 00:51:14,641 He wrote me a letter a few months after he left, 883 00:51:14,674 --> 00:51:16,776 told me he was tired, 884 00:51:16,810 --> 00:51:18,211 and lonely, but he didn't want to come home 885 00:51:18,244 --> 00:51:19,713 because he didn't want to get married. 886 00:51:20,747 --> 00:51:21,915 He didn't want to get married? 887 00:51:21,948 --> 00:51:23,717 Dad had set it all up. 888 00:51:23,750 --> 00:51:24,718 Pushed him into getting married 889 00:51:24,751 --> 00:51:28,880 to this girl from the church he barely knew. 890 00:51:28,121 --> 00:51:30,690 But when he came back, he met someone else. 891 00:51:30,724 --> 00:51:32,726 Fell in love, started a whole new life. 892 00:51:32,759 --> 00:51:35,795 And Dad kicked him out of the church. 893 00:51:36,696 --> 00:51:37,731 And the family. 894 00:51:39,599 --> 00:51:40,834 I thought he was gonna be able 895 00:51:40,867 --> 00:51:42,902 to get over all that religious stuff, 896 00:51:42,936 --> 00:51:46,172 but it was like a cancer. 897 00:51:46,206 --> 00:51:48,775 He couldn't shake it. 898 00:51:48,808 --> 00:51:50,610 He just caved in on himself, 899 00:51:50,643 --> 00:51:52,450 stopped sleeping, stopped eating. 900 00:51:52,112 --> 00:51:53,213 Lost a ton of weight. 901 00:51:54,948 --> 00:51:56,816 One night, he doesn't come home. 902 00:51:58,952 --> 00:52:00,854 Couple weeks later, this guy is out jogging 903 00:52:00,887 --> 00:52:02,689 on a bike path near the river in Lewiston, 904 00:52:02,722 --> 00:52:04,257 sees something washed up on shore, 905 00:52:04,290 --> 00:52:06,920 and that was Alan. 906 00:52:08,595 --> 00:52:10,764 The love of Charlie's life, and my brother. 907 00:52:12,232 --> 00:52:14,701 Oh. Yeah. "Oh." 908 00:52:14,734 --> 00:52:17,203 To this day, my dad won't admit it. 909 00:52:17,237 --> 00:52:19,773 Told the whole congregation Alan's death was... 910 00:52:21,708 --> 00:52:23,743 just an unfortunate accident. 911 00:52:26,346 --> 00:52:29,115 Denying him to the end. 912 00:52:38,158 --> 00:52:41,940 Look, I know that you don't trust me. 913 00:52:41,161 --> 00:52:43,797 And I know that I haven't known him for very long, 914 00:52:43,830 --> 00:52:46,766 but I really think that God brought me here, 915 00:52:46,800 --> 00:52:48,968 right when Charlie needs it the most. 916 00:52:49,200 --> 00:52:51,838 I just want him to be saved, that's all... You listen to me! 917 00:52:51,871 --> 00:52:53,173 He doesn't need saving! 918 00:52:54,341 --> 00:52:56,876 In a few days, he's probably going to be dead, 919 00:52:56,910 --> 00:52:59,312 so what he needs is for you to leave him alone. 920 00:52:59,346 --> 00:53:00,980 I'm the only one who can help him. 921 00:53:01,470 --> 00:53:02,315 You understand me? CHARLIE: Liz. 922 00:53:11,291 --> 00:53:12,859 (LIZ SIGHS) 923 00:53:16,363 --> 00:53:19,990 (CUTLERY CLACKING) 924 00:53:25,500 --> 00:53:26,840 (CHARLIE WHEEZES SOFTLY) 925 00:53:29,900 --> 00:53:30,343 (TV TURNS ON) 926 00:53:30,377 --> 00:53:33,246 You wanna watch some Maury? 927 00:53:34,848 --> 00:53:36,249 Sounds good, right? 928 00:53:36,282 --> 00:53:39,819 (INDISTINCT CHATTER ON TV) 929 00:53:39,853 --> 00:53:41,354 Actually, I got another night shift tonight. 930 00:53:41,388 --> 00:53:43,230 I better, uh... 931 00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:43,957 You good for the night? 932 00:53:46,590 --> 00:53:48,328 (SMACKS LIPS) I'll leave the remote here. 933 00:53:53,800 --> 00:53:55,301 (DOOR OPENS) 934 00:53:59,105 --> 00:54:00,106 (DOOR CLOSES) 935 00:54:02,208 --> 00:54:03,677 (LOCK CLICKS) 936 00:54:25,310 --> 00:54:26,366 (GRUNTS SOFTLY) 937 00:54:28,968 --> 00:54:31,404 (LIGHT SWITCH CLICKING) 938 00:54:34,474 --> 00:54:35,775 (SIGHS) 939 00:54:42,349 --> 00:54:43,850 (SIGHS) 940 00:54:49,789 --> 00:54:52,158 (SNIFFING) 941 00:54:54,600 --> 00:54:56,229 (CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 942 00:55:07,730 --> 00:55:08,740 (DOOR SHUTS) 943 00:55:18,385 --> 00:55:19,786 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 944 00:55:19,819 --> 00:55:21,187 MAN: Gambino's! 945 00:55:21,254 --> 00:55:23,223 Yeah. You can, uh... 946 00:55:23,289 --> 00:55:25,458 MAN: Money in the mailbox, leave it on the bench. 947 00:55:26,793 --> 00:55:28,940 Yeah. Thanks. 948 00:55:30,163 --> 00:55:31,131 MAN: I'm Dan. 949 00:55:33,900 --> 00:55:35,101 What? 950 00:55:35,135 --> 00:55:38,710 DAN: I just... My name, it's Dan. 951 00:55:39,973 --> 00:55:42,409 I've been coming here for a while now. 952 00:55:42,442 --> 00:55:44,444 Just thought you'd wanna know my name. 953 00:55:47,113 --> 00:55:48,148 Charlie. 954 00:55:49,416 --> 00:55:50,950 DAN: Hey, Charlie. 955 00:55:50,984 --> 00:55:53,253 (MAILBOX OPENS, CLOSES) 956 00:55:53,319 --> 00:55:54,487 DAN: Have a good night, okay? 957 00:55:55,321 --> 00:55:59,159 (FOOTSTEPS RECEDING) 958 00:56:03,129 --> 00:56:04,364 ...it sure did. 959 00:56:04,397 --> 00:56:06,933 More Idaho Republicans want to see Senator Ted Cruz 960 00:56:06,966 --> 00:56:08,868 in the White House than any other candidate. 961 00:56:08,902 --> 00:56:11,838 Cruz will split Idaho's 32 delegates 962 00:56:11,871 --> 00:56:13,173 with Donald Trump, 963 00:56:13,206 --> 00:56:16,409 the only other candidate to clear that 20% threshold. 964 00:56:16,443 --> 00:56:19,479 It was a disappointing night for Senator Marco Rubio 965 00:56:19,512 --> 00:56:21,381 who failed to win any delegates 966 00:56:21,414 --> 00:56:24,150 in the four states that held primaries, while... (SWITCHES TV OFF) 967 00:56:31,324 --> 00:56:33,193 (WHEELCHAIR SQUEAKING) 968 00:56:51,311 --> 00:56:53,146 "This apartment smells. 969 00:56:53,179 --> 00:56:57,217 "This notebook is retarded. I hate everyone." 970 00:56:58,985 --> 00:56:59,986 (SIGHS) 971 00:57:06,426 --> 00:57:09,262 (SYLLABICALLY) This apartment smells. 972 00:57:09,329 --> 00:57:13,400 This notebook is retarded. 973 00:57:13,433 --> 00:57:16,369 I hate everyone. (LAUGHING) 974 00:57:19,720 --> 00:57:20,440 (COUGHING, WHEEZING) 975 00:57:20,473 --> 00:57:23,760 (GRUNTING IN PAIN) 976 00:57:23,109 --> 00:57:24,577 (COUGHS) 977 00:57:24,611 --> 00:57:28,281 (BREATHING LABORIOUSLY) 978 00:57:29,983 --> 00:57:31,551 And I felt saddest of all 979 00:57:32,585 --> 00:57:34,454 when I read the boring chapters 980 00:57:35,655 --> 00:57:37,891 that were only descriptions of whales 981 00:57:38,658 --> 00:57:40,326 because (EXHALES) I knew 982 00:57:42,162 --> 00:57:44,964 that the author was just trying to save us 983 00:57:44,998 --> 00:57:46,466 from his own sad story, 984 00:57:47,667 --> 00:57:49,135 just for a little while. 985 00:57:50,970 --> 00:57:52,372 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 986 00:57:52,439 --> 00:57:53,907 This apartment smells. 987 00:57:56,242 --> 00:57:58,445 (INHALES DEEPLY) This apartment smells. 988 00:58:01,481 --> 00:58:03,249 The author was just trying to save us 989 00:58:03,283 --> 00:58:04,484 from his own sad story. 990 00:58:06,186 --> 00:58:07,320 I hate everyone. 991 00:58:11,658 --> 00:58:12,892 I hate everyone. 992 00:58:18,598 --> 00:58:19,599 Do you have it? 993 00:58:20,533 --> 00:58:21,568 CHARLIE: I'm almost done. 994 00:58:24,700 --> 00:58:27,400 You can wait while I finish it up, 995 00:58:29,476 --> 00:58:30,510 print it out. 996 00:58:33,380 --> 00:58:35,348 Maybe while you're waiting, 997 00:58:35,415 --> 00:58:38,284 you can write some more in your notebook. Oh, my God. 998 00:58:38,318 --> 00:58:40,453 You've only written a couple sentences so far. 999 00:58:40,487 --> 00:58:41,321 Can you write more? 1000 00:58:41,388 --> 00:58:43,356 I kind of hate you. (CHUCKLING) Yeah. 1001 00:58:43,423 --> 00:58:46,260 Well, you hate everyone. 1002 00:58:47,600 --> 00:58:48,628 Listen, just keep going. 1003 00:58:49,562 --> 00:58:50,563 Forget about the poem. 1004 00:58:50,597 --> 00:58:53,500 Write whatever you want, whatever you're thinking. 1005 00:58:53,533 --> 00:58:55,168 (BAG THUDS) Okay. Be quiet, just... 1006 00:59:05,712 --> 00:59:07,313 (EXHALES DEEPLY) 1007 00:59:12,520 --> 00:59:15,188 You know, I was in a really strange place in my life 1008 00:59:15,221 --> 00:59:17,157 when I married your mom. Did I ****ing ask? 1009 00:59:18,358 --> 00:59:20,600 I just wish... 1010 00:59:20,930 --> 00:59:21,294 I'm sor... I'm sorry. 1011 00:59:31,671 --> 00:59:33,440 I understand that you're angry. 1012 00:59:34,607 --> 00:59:35,742 (BREATHES HEAVILY) 1013 00:59:35,775 --> 00:59:37,430 But... 1014 00:59:39,612 --> 00:59:44,150 you don't have to be angry at the whole world. 1015 00:59:47,554 --> 00:59:50,123 You can just be angry at me. 1016 00:59:50,156 --> 00:59:51,358 (AGGRESSIVELY) Okay, you know what? 1017 00:59:51,424 --> 00:59:53,626 You can't throw me away like a piece of garbage, 1018 00:59:53,660 --> 00:59:57,970 and then suddenly just want to be my dad eight years later. 1019 00:59:58,498 --> 01:00:00,467 (SIGHS) It's that simple. 1020 01:00:00,500 --> 01:00:02,350 And if you've been telling yourself anything different, 1021 01:00:02,680 --> 01:00:03,536 then you're lying to yourself. 1022 01:00:07,807 --> 01:00:09,900 But you know what? I'm glad. 1023 01:00:09,420 --> 01:00:12,450 I'm glad, because you taught me something very important. 1024 01:00:12,812 --> 01:00:15,582 People are ***holes. 1025 01:00:16,649 --> 01:00:18,118 Most people learn that way too late. 1026 01:00:19,252 --> 01:00:21,621 You... You taught me that when I was eight. 1027 01:00:24,570 --> 01:00:25,458 Thank you for that. 1028 01:00:35,902 --> 01:00:36,970 You know, you could've... 1029 01:00:38,204 --> 01:00:40,730 What? 1030 01:00:40,106 --> 01:00:41,541 ELLIE: You could've been sending us money. 1031 01:00:43,710 --> 01:00:45,645 If you had all that money saved up, 1032 01:00:45,679 --> 01:00:46,880 and wanted to be a part of my life so bad, 1033 01:00:46,946 --> 01:00:48,682 you could've been sending money to Mom. 1034 01:00:48,715 --> 01:00:49,683 I did. 1035 01:00:49,716 --> 01:00:51,718 ELLIE: Yeah, I mean more than just child support. 1036 01:01:02,696 --> 01:01:03,730 I did. 1037 01:01:05,665 --> 01:01:09,102 When I left your mom, she did not want me around you. 1038 01:01:10,360 --> 01:01:11,638 I hoped 1039 01:01:11,671 --> 01:01:14,607 that she would change her mind eventually, but she... 1040 01:01:14,641 --> 01:01:16,209 You could have just ****ing called me. 1041 01:01:17,777 --> 01:01:18,878 All this time, you... 1042 01:01:20,146 --> 01:01:21,881 You could have been a part of my life. 1043 01:01:23,783 --> 01:01:24,884 Ellie. 1044 01:01:26,753 --> 01:01:27,821 Look at me. 1045 01:01:33,993 --> 01:01:36,563 Who would want me to be a part of their life? 1046 01:01:48,708 --> 01:01:49,809 I'm hungry. 1047 01:01:51,878 --> 01:01:53,947 There's some stuff for sandwiches in the fridge. 1048 01:01:59,850 --> 01:02:00,920 I'll make you one, but it's going to be small. 1049 01:02:05,258 --> 01:02:06,960 And I'm only using turkey, 1050 01:02:07,827 --> 01:02:08,962 and no mayonnaise. 1051 01:02:14,334 --> 01:02:16,360 What? Nothing. 1052 01:02:17,303 --> 01:02:19,205 You're an amazing person, Ellie. 1053 01:02:19,239 --> 01:02:22,976 I hope you know what an amazing person you are. 1054 01:02:23,430 --> 01:02:26,179 I couldn't ask for a more incredible daughter. 1055 01:02:29,215 --> 01:02:30,917 I'll print that out for you now. 1056 01:02:37,891 --> 01:02:38,925 (BIRD WINGS FLAP) 1057 01:02:46,660 --> 01:02:47,634 (KEYBOARD CLACKING) 1058 01:02:51,371 --> 01:02:52,672 (GRATING) 1059 01:02:55,800 --> 01:02:55,975 (LIGHTER CLICKS) 1060 01:02:56,810 --> 01:02:58,812 (CHARLIE BREATHES HEAVILY) 1061 01:03:17,831 --> 01:03:18,965 (LIGHTER CLICKS) 1062 01:03:33,913 --> 01:03:35,248 (SNORES SOFTLY) 1063 01:03:35,281 --> 01:03:36,282 (PILLS RATTLE) 1064 01:03:52,999 --> 01:03:54,367 (DOOR CREAKS) 1065 01:04:20,126 --> 01:04:21,194 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 1066 01:04:25,432 --> 01:04:27,167 (KNOCK AT DOOR) ELLIE: Yeah? 1067 01:04:27,233 --> 01:04:28,935 THOMAS: Uh... Hello? 1068 01:04:31,905 --> 01:04:33,206 (KNOCKS) Hi. 1069 01:04:35,800 --> 01:04:36,900 ELLIE: Come on. 1070 01:04:37,243 --> 01:04:38,378 Is he... 1071 01:04:38,411 --> 01:04:39,512 Is he okay? I don't know. 1072 01:04:39,546 --> 01:04:42,150 I ground up some Ambien and I put it in his sandwich. 1073 01:04:42,480 --> 01:04:43,830 What? 1074 01:04:43,149 --> 01:04:44,818 I only gave him a couple. He's fine. 1075 01:04:44,851 --> 01:04:45,985 I can take, like, three at a time. 1076 01:04:46,190 --> 01:04:47,153 THOMAS: Where did you get Ambien? 1077 01:04:47,220 --> 01:04:48,321 I had *** with a pharmacist. 1078 01:04:50,323 --> 01:04:52,125 I'm kidding. Gross. 1079 01:04:52,192 --> 01:04:53,893 My mom pops them like Tic Tacs. 1080 01:04:53,927 --> 01:04:55,795 I don't know if he should be taking Ambien. 1081 01:04:58,264 --> 01:05:00,800 Does this make you nervous? 'Cause it's just pot. 1082 01:05:00,834 --> 01:05:02,502 It's not like I'm smoking meth or anything. 1083 01:05:02,535 --> 01:05:04,404 I know. I... I know what pot is, okay? 1084 01:05:04,437 --> 01:05:06,373 No. You only think you know what pot is 1085 01:05:06,406 --> 01:05:08,508 because your parents told you a bunch of lies about it. 1086 01:05:08,541 --> 01:05:10,176 Don't. I know what drugs are. 1087 01:05:10,243 --> 01:05:13,790 I've smoked pot before. Ooh. Oh, I'm so impressed. 1088 01:05:13,146 --> 01:05:14,914 I wasn't trying to impress you. 1089 01:05:14,948 --> 01:05:17,183 You've not smoked pot before. Yes, I have. It... 1090 01:05:19,219 --> 01:05:20,320 It was kind of a problem. 1091 01:05:21,488 --> 01:05:22,922 That is the stupidest ****ing thing 1092 01:05:22,956 --> 01:05:23,790 I've ever heard in my entire life. 1093 01:05:23,823 --> 01:05:26,426 I was smoking every day. I had a problem. 1094 01:05:26,459 --> 01:05:29,529 You were a stoner. You had a hobby. 1095 01:05:29,562 --> 01:05:31,498 All right, I'm gonna go. Just tell him I was here and I'll... 1096 01:05:31,531 --> 01:05:33,967 If you leave, I'll feed him the rest of the pills I have in the bottle. 1097 01:05:34,000 --> 01:05:35,535 What? Yeah. 1098 01:05:35,568 --> 01:05:38,304 There's, like, 20, 30 more in here. 1099 01:05:39,272 --> 01:05:40,507 I'll crush them up, 1100 01:05:40,540 --> 01:05:42,542 I'll put them in some water, (PUTS BOTTLE DOWN) 1101 01:05:42,575 --> 01:05:43,977 and I'll pour it down his throat. 1102 01:05:44,911 --> 01:05:46,460 You wouldn't actually do that, 1103 01:05:46,790 --> 01:05:47,180 would you? Sit down. 1104 01:05:54,287 --> 01:05:55,422 So, why do you keep coming back here? 1105 01:05:57,590 --> 01:05:58,858 He needs help. 1106 01:05:59,993 --> 01:06:01,270 He needs God in his life right now. 1107 01:06:01,610 --> 01:06:02,128 That's a stupid reason. 1108 01:06:03,329 --> 01:06:05,498 Do you think he wants to have *** with you? 1109 01:06:05,532 --> 01:06:07,934 That is so gross, oh, my God. Take a hit. 1110 01:06:07,967 --> 01:06:09,302 I don't want... If you don't take a hit, 1111 01:06:09,335 --> 01:06:10,637 I'm gonna call the police 1112 01:06:10,704 --> 01:06:12,906 and I'm gonna tell them that you tried to rape me. Take a hit. 1113 01:06:15,308 --> 01:06:16,509 I don't understand you at all. 1114 01:06:17,177 --> 01:06:18,144 Oh, my God. 1115 01:06:19,479 --> 01:06:21,140 Is there a carb on this? 1116 01:06:21,470 --> 01:06:22,415 Ooh, I'm impressed. 1117 01:06:22,449 --> 01:06:24,150 I wasn't trying to impress you. 1118 01:06:24,217 --> 01:06:25,218 There isn't a carb. 1119 01:06:29,389 --> 01:06:30,557 (SIGHS) 1120 01:06:35,950 --> 01:06:36,229 (CAMERA CLICKS) (COUGHS) 1121 01:06:37,263 --> 01:06:38,331 Calm down. 1122 01:06:38,398 --> 01:06:40,660 (COUGHING) What are you gonna do with that picture? 1123 01:06:40,100 --> 01:06:41,401 I'm gonna masturbate to it. 1124 01:06:41,434 --> 01:06:42,535 Is that what you want me to say? 1125 01:06:42,569 --> 01:06:43,970 You're a pervert. Take another hit. 1126 01:06:45,972 --> 01:06:48,740 Look, I'm just ****ing with you, all right? 1127 01:06:48,108 --> 01:06:49,509 I'm not gonna kill anyone, 1128 01:06:49,542 --> 01:06:52,545 I'm not gonna tell anyone that you tried to rape me. 1129 01:06:52,579 --> 01:06:54,180 You're not going to give him any more Ambien? 1130 01:06:54,214 --> 01:06:55,448 ELLIE: No. (PILLS RATTLE) 1131 01:06:55,482 --> 01:06:57,183 (ZIPS BAG) 1132 01:06:57,250 --> 01:06:58,918 Why do you keep coming back here? 1133 01:07:01,321 --> 01:07:03,560 I don't know. 1134 01:07:03,890 --> 01:07:04,557 Seriously, if you hate him so much, then why... 1135 01:07:04,591 --> 01:07:06,159 I'm done answering questions now. 1136 01:07:12,399 --> 01:07:13,500 Can I take another hit? 1137 01:07:15,335 --> 01:07:16,536 It goes against your religion, 1138 01:07:18,380 --> 01:07:19,205 and that makes you a hypocrite. 1139 01:07:21,207 --> 01:07:22,208 Go ahead. 1140 01:07:27,614 --> 01:07:28,915 (INHALES) 1141 01:07:31,184 --> 01:07:33,219 (CAMERA CLICKS) 1142 01:07:33,253 --> 01:07:34,421 I really wish that you wouldn't do that. 1143 01:07:34,454 --> 01:07:36,890 Yeah, I know. I heard you the first time. 1144 01:07:37,290 --> 01:07:38,258 Do you find me attractive? 1145 01:07:39,125 --> 01:07:40,293 (HESITATES) 1146 01:07:40,360 --> 01:07:42,228 Because I'm not attracted to you at all, 1147 01:07:43,290 --> 01:07:44,964 just to let you know. 1148 01:07:44,998 --> 01:07:46,166 I'm not trying to be mean or anything. 1149 01:07:46,199 --> 01:07:47,467 I just don't think you're very good-looking, 1150 01:07:48,435 --> 01:07:49,469 or interesting. 1151 01:07:50,236 --> 01:07:51,237 Or intelligent. 1152 01:07:51,504 --> 01:07:52,572 (SCOFFS) 1153 01:07:53,640 --> 01:07:55,108 Oh, my God, grow up. 1154 01:07:55,141 --> 01:07:56,409 Maybe someone else finds you attractive. 1155 01:07:56,443 --> 01:07:57,410 Maybe my dad finds you attractive. 1156 01:07:57,444 --> 01:07:59,512 I really wish you... You know, it is so easy 1157 01:07:59,546 --> 01:08:00,580 to make you uncomfortable. 1158 01:08:00,613 --> 01:08:02,248 It's honestly... It's a little sad. 1159 01:08:03,183 --> 01:08:04,184 You can cash that out. 1160 01:08:18,264 --> 01:08:21,167 (SCOFFS) If my parents knew I was getting high, 1161 01:08:21,201 --> 01:08:22,569 getting high while out witnessing for the church... 1162 01:08:22,602 --> 01:08:23,603 You're not from New Life. 1163 01:08:25,438 --> 01:08:26,473 What? 1164 01:08:26,539 --> 01:08:29,309 There's a kid in the grade below me who goes there. 1165 01:08:29,376 --> 01:08:30,443 He told me that they stopped doing 1166 01:08:30,477 --> 01:08:32,312 door-to-door stuff last year 1167 01:08:32,379 --> 01:08:34,547 when some woman was out preaching or whatever, 1168 01:08:34,581 --> 01:08:36,683 and a guy answered the door with no clothes on. 1169 01:08:38,151 --> 01:08:40,153 I gotta go. Who are you, really? 1170 01:08:41,654 --> 01:08:43,156 Come on, just tell me! 1171 01:08:44,391 --> 01:08:46,192 THOMAS: Why do you care? Because I think we have 1172 01:08:46,226 --> 01:08:47,394 a blossoming friendship. 1173 01:08:49,129 --> 01:08:50,296 You're just messing with me. 1174 01:08:51,664 --> 01:08:52,999 ELLIE: No, I'm not. 1175 01:08:54,200 --> 01:08:55,301 You're not going to tell anyone? 1176 01:08:57,700 --> 01:08:58,710 Who am I gonna tell? 1177 01:09:06,346 --> 01:09:07,380 I was on a mission. 1178 01:09:11,117 --> 01:09:13,119 With a group from my church, back in Waterloo, 1179 01:09:14,354 --> 01:09:15,588 my hometown in Iowa. 1180 01:09:17,900 --> 01:09:18,591 When my dad caught me smoking pot, 1181 01:09:18,625 --> 01:09:21,327 he thought a mission would be a good idea. 1182 01:09:21,361 --> 01:09:24,431 I mean, the truth is, he's just embarrassed by me 1183 01:09:24,497 --> 01:09:26,666 and wanted me gone for a while. 1184 01:09:27,534 --> 01:09:29,669 Anyway, I just left. 1185 01:09:33,139 --> 01:09:34,240 I couldn't do it anymore. 1186 01:09:36,276 --> 01:09:37,277 Why? 1187 01:09:38,411 --> 01:09:39,412 The mission leader, 1188 01:09:41,247 --> 01:09:42,215 this guy, Jerry, 1189 01:09:42,248 --> 01:09:43,783 all he had us doing was standing on corners 1190 01:09:43,817 --> 01:09:45,752 and handing out pamphlets. 1191 01:09:45,785 --> 01:09:47,253 The end of each day, he'd be like, 1192 01:09:47,287 --> 01:09:48,755 "Look how many people we're helping," but... 1193 01:09:49,622 --> 01:09:50,690 I tried to talk to him 1194 01:09:50,724 --> 01:09:52,920 about different ways we can minister. 1195 01:09:52,125 --> 01:09:55,428 I mean, different ways that we could actually help people. But... 1196 01:09:56,730 --> 01:09:59,232 You could just tell that he didn't need to earn 1197 01:09:59,265 --> 01:10:00,600 or prove his faith at all. 1198 01:10:03,737 --> 01:10:07,240 After a while, I was just, like, "Am I really helping?" 1199 01:10:08,475 --> 01:10:10,310 No. You were not. 1200 01:10:11,845 --> 01:10:13,513 Yeah, I started to feel that way, too. 1201 01:10:15,548 --> 01:10:16,449 I don't feel that way, 1202 01:10:16,516 --> 01:10:18,752 I know that you weren't helping people. 1203 01:10:18,785 --> 01:10:20,186 It doesn't help people to tell them 1204 01:10:20,220 --> 01:10:21,388 that they should believe in God. 1205 01:10:21,454 --> 01:10:22,489 Why would that help people? 1206 01:10:23,523 --> 01:10:25,291 THOMAS: I just thought... 1207 01:10:25,325 --> 01:10:27,260 I see all my family, my friends, 1208 01:10:28,762 --> 01:10:30,196 they're all just so happy. 1209 01:10:35,235 --> 01:10:36,403 I just want to be like that. 1210 01:10:38,638 --> 01:10:39,706 So, why'd you leave, then? 1211 01:10:41,441 --> 01:10:43,777 I was worried I was gonna get arrested. 1212 01:10:44,711 --> 01:10:45,712 For smoking pot? 1213 01:10:47,447 --> 01:10:48,615 For stealing from the mission. 1214 01:10:56,656 --> 01:10:59,592 One day, I ditched the pamphlets. 1215 01:10:59,626 --> 01:11:00,527 I went door-to-door. 1216 01:11:00,593 --> 01:11:02,529 I started actually engaging with people. 1217 01:11:02,595 --> 01:11:05,432 Finally. I mean, it felt like I was doing something, 1218 01:11:05,498 --> 01:11:06,533 helping someone. 1219 01:11:08,334 --> 01:11:10,270 (SCOFFS) 1220 01:11:10,303 --> 01:11:13,239 And that night, I went back to the mission meeting, 1221 01:11:13,273 --> 01:11:14,674 and I told everyone what I did that day, 1222 01:11:14,708 --> 01:11:16,609 and Jerry was like, "That's not what we do, buddy." 1223 01:11:16,643 --> 01:11:17,944 And I was like, "Well, why not?" 1224 01:11:17,977 --> 01:11:20,246 And we got in this huge argument in front of everyone, and... 1225 01:11:21,514 --> 01:11:22,515 (SIGHS) 1226 01:11:25,185 --> 01:11:28,355 And that night, I decided to leave. 1227 01:11:28,388 --> 01:11:30,423 And when everyone was asleep, I... 1228 01:11:30,457 --> 01:11:31,524 I took the petty cash. 1229 01:11:33,526 --> 01:11:34,561 ELLIE: How much? 1230 01:11:38,231 --> 01:11:40,266 $2,436. 1231 01:11:42,469 --> 01:11:43,770 Oh. 1232 01:11:43,803 --> 01:11:45,205 THOMAS: Yeah. "Oh." 1233 01:11:47,240 --> 01:11:48,410 I got on a bus. 1234 01:11:49,542 --> 01:11:51,411 Jerry and my parents were calling me 1235 01:11:51,444 --> 01:11:52,645 over and over again. 1236 01:11:54,447 --> 01:11:55,782 I just tossed my phone. 1237 01:11:58,485 --> 01:12:01,254 After a while, I wound up here. 1238 01:12:05,392 --> 01:12:07,327 THOMAS: I thought I could use this money 1239 01:12:07,360 --> 01:12:08,461 for my own mission. 1240 01:12:10,296 --> 01:12:12,832 You know, see my faith save just one person. 1241 01:12:14,601 --> 01:12:16,603 But now I'm almost out of money. I just... 1242 01:12:17,971 --> 01:12:20,273 I can't go home, and... 1243 01:12:20,306 --> 01:12:21,808 My parents probably wanna disown me. 1244 01:12:27,681 --> 01:12:28,815 (SIGHS) I don't know what to do. 1245 01:12:39,759 --> 01:12:41,394 You're more interesting to me now. 1246 01:12:44,431 --> 01:12:45,465 Thanks. 1247 01:12:58,278 --> 01:12:59,646 So, that's why you wanna save my dad. 1248 01:13:04,551 --> 01:13:05,518 (DOOR OPENS) 1249 01:13:10,690 --> 01:13:11,658 (CAMERA CLICKS) 1250 01:13:14,327 --> 01:13:15,328 (MAIN DOOR LOCK CLICKS) 1251 01:13:20,667 --> 01:13:21,801 Mom? 1252 01:13:21,835 --> 01:13:23,403 Don't freak out. Shut up. 1253 01:13:25,839 --> 01:13:26,873 LIZ: You again? 1254 01:13:27,741 --> 01:13:28,908 Charlie? 1255 01:13:29,476 --> 01:13:30,477 Charlie? 1256 01:13:32,612 --> 01:13:33,646 Charlie? 1257 01:13:34,948 --> 01:13:36,416 (SOFTLY) Charlie. 1258 01:13:43,490 --> 01:13:44,691 (CHARLIE COUGHS) 1259 01:13:48,928 --> 01:13:49,963 (LIGHTER CLICKS) 1260 01:13:51,640 --> 01:13:52,365 Not with the oxygen tank. 1261 01:13:54,601 --> 01:13:55,568 I'll stand by the window. 1262 01:13:57,370 --> 01:13:58,371 (LIZ SIGHS) 1263 01:14:02,609 --> 01:14:05,679 Ellie told you she was coming over? 1264 01:14:05,745 --> 01:14:07,447 LIZ: No. I did. 1265 01:14:07,480 --> 01:14:08,748 And just in time, looks like. 1266 01:14:09,916 --> 01:14:11,685 You having any more pain? 1267 01:14:11,751 --> 01:14:13,420 (GRUNTS SOFTLY) 1268 01:14:13,453 --> 01:14:14,888 (SIGHS) How easy is it to move? 1269 01:14:15,755 --> 01:14:16,956 Not very. 1270 01:14:16,990 --> 01:14:19,559 Any confusion? Have you felt disoriented, 1271 01:14:19,592 --> 01:14:20,960 forgotten where you are or what you're doing? 1272 01:14:20,994 --> 01:14:24,597 Am I okay? No, you're not okay. 1273 01:14:24,664 --> 01:14:26,660 But as far as the sleeping pills, you're fine. 1274 01:14:26,990 --> 01:14:27,500 I don't think she gave you much. 1275 01:14:27,534 --> 01:14:28,635 Yeah, that's what I told you. 1276 01:14:30,837 --> 01:14:32,405 You know, I was a very angry, 1277 01:14:32,439 --> 01:14:33,606 very stupid little girl once, too, 1278 01:14:33,640 --> 01:14:35,342 but if you would've given him any more pills than that... 1279 01:14:35,375 --> 01:14:36,743 Yeah, but I didn't give him more pills than that, 1280 01:14:36,776 --> 01:14:38,478 I gave him two pills. Ellie? 1281 01:14:39,679 --> 01:14:40,880 How much money did he offer you? 1282 01:14:46,886 --> 01:14:48,888 All of it? How do you know about the money? 1283 01:14:49,723 --> 01:14:51,858 You think I'm an idiot? 1284 01:14:51,891 --> 01:14:53,760 You think I would believe that you were coming over here 1285 01:14:53,793 --> 01:14:55,280 out of the kindness of your heart? 1286 01:14:56,129 --> 01:14:59,532 (LAUGHS) Charlie doesn't have any money. 1287 01:14:59,566 --> 01:15:01,534 (LIZ CONTINUES LAUGHING) 1288 01:15:01,568 --> 01:15:03,403 She doesn't know? CHARLIE: Mary. 1289 01:15:03,436 --> 01:15:04,471 Where do you think all the money 1290 01:15:04,504 --> 01:15:05,505 from his teaching has been going? 1291 01:15:06,706 --> 01:15:07,841 The account for Ellie? 1292 01:15:07,874 --> 01:15:09,909 By now, it has to be huge. 1293 01:15:09,943 --> 01:15:11,611 Over $100,000 at least, right? 1294 01:15:13,513 --> 01:15:14,681 (WHEEZES SOFTLY) 1295 01:15:17,150 --> 01:15:18,585 That's not true, is it? 1296 01:15:22,522 --> 01:15:23,656 Charlie. 1297 01:15:24,991 --> 01:15:26,993 We could have gotten you anything you needed. 1298 01:15:28,495 --> 01:15:29,896 Special beds, physical therapists, 1299 01:15:29,929 --> 01:15:31,965 ****ing health insurance! 1300 01:15:34,534 --> 01:15:35,902 Last winter, when my pick-up broke down 1301 01:15:35,935 --> 01:15:37,137 and I had to walk through the snow 1302 01:15:37,170 --> 01:15:38,538 to get your groceries for you... 1303 01:15:38,571 --> 01:15:39,939 I offered to get your truck fixed. 1304 01:15:39,973 --> 01:15:42,809 Yeah, and I refused because I thought you had $700 1305 01:15:42,842 --> 01:15:45,450 in your bank account. The money is for Ellie. 1306 01:15:46,479 --> 01:15:48,481 It's always been for Ellie. 1307 01:15:48,515 --> 01:15:50,850 If there was ever any kind of emergency, 1308 01:15:50,884 --> 01:15:52,752 I would have given you the money. Would you? 1309 01:15:56,756 --> 01:15:57,757 Wait. 1310 01:15:57,824 --> 01:16:00,527 (PANTING) 1311 01:16:01,695 --> 01:16:02,996 Wait. (DOOR SHUTS) 1312 01:16:06,990 --> 01:16:07,634 Mom, you're not getting any of my money. 1313 01:16:07,667 --> 01:16:08,668 MARY: Oh, shut up, Ellie. 1314 01:16:10,503 --> 01:16:12,720 Leave, right now. 1315 01:16:15,508 --> 01:16:16,843 Wait. 1316 01:16:16,876 --> 01:16:19,913 Ellie, I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know you didn't... 1317 01:16:19,946 --> 01:16:21,581 Okay, you know what? Listen to me. Listen. 1318 01:16:21,614 --> 01:16:23,450 I don't care about you! 1319 01:16:23,483 --> 01:16:24,984 Get that through your ****ing skull. 1320 01:16:25,180 --> 01:16:27,454 (CRYING) Ellie, please. Just ****ing die already! 1321 01:16:27,954 --> 01:16:29,422 Enough! 1322 01:16:32,859 --> 01:16:34,940 Ellie, your... Your essay. 1323 01:16:37,897 --> 01:16:38,865 (OPENS DRAWER) 1324 01:16:42,535 --> 01:16:44,971 So... It's... 1325 01:16:47,941 --> 01:16:49,476 It's a really good essay! 1326 01:16:52,846 --> 01:16:54,714 (SOBS, WHEEZES) 1327 01:16:55,815 --> 01:16:57,117 (COUGHS) 1328 01:17:17,700 --> 01:17:19,105 (WHEEZES) Jesus, Charlie. 1329 01:17:27,470 --> 01:17:28,114 Do you have anything? 1330 01:17:32,552 --> 01:17:33,953 It's above the sink, 1331 01:17:33,987 --> 01:17:35,922 the kitchen counter on the left. 1332 01:17:37,991 --> 01:17:39,926 The other one. (SNIFFLES) Yup. 1333 01:17:41,995 --> 01:17:44,164 (COUGHING, WHEEZING) 1334 01:17:44,197 --> 01:17:46,660 MARY: Our deal was 1335 01:17:46,990 --> 01:17:48,340 to wait until she's out of the house to give her the money. 1336 01:17:48,968 --> 01:17:50,637 What's the difference? 1337 01:17:50,670 --> 01:17:54,641 The difference is she's 17 and still in high school. 1338 01:17:54,674 --> 01:17:57,577 She's gonna spend it on face tattoos or ponies, or something. 1339 01:17:57,610 --> 01:17:59,846 I think that she's a lot smarter than that. 1340 01:17:59,913 --> 01:18:01,810 (MARY SCOFFS) 1341 01:18:03,830 --> 01:18:04,840 So... 1342 01:18:07,187 --> 01:18:07,987 How's it been? 1343 01:18:09,656 --> 01:18:11,524 Getting to know her. (CHUCKLES SOFTLY) 1344 01:18:12,625 --> 01:18:14,928 She's amazing. (MARY CHUCKLES) 1345 01:18:14,994 --> 01:18:16,963 (SIGHS) You still do that. 1346 01:18:18,832 --> 01:18:19,799 What? 1347 01:18:20,767 --> 01:18:22,168 That positivity. 1348 01:18:23,937 --> 01:18:24,904 It's so annoying. 1349 01:18:25,972 --> 01:18:27,140 You're a complete cynic. 1350 01:18:28,775 --> 01:18:30,643 Just trying to balance us out. 1351 01:18:30,677 --> 01:18:32,679 Yeah. I guess I do miss that. 1352 01:18:33,880 --> 01:18:34,881 That one thing. 1353 01:18:36,316 --> 01:18:37,550 Just that? 1354 01:18:39,352 --> 01:18:41,654 That, and the cooking. 1355 01:18:41,688 --> 01:18:44,657 Last month, tried to make a stir-fry thing. CHARLIE: Yeah? 1356 01:18:44,691 --> 01:18:46,326 Almost set the entire apartment building on fire. 1357 01:18:46,359 --> 01:18:47,894 (LAUGHS) 1358 01:18:47,961 --> 01:18:49,829 (COUGHING) 1359 01:18:50,897 --> 01:18:52,866 (GASPS, COUGHS) 1360 01:18:53,233 --> 01:18:54,734 (GASPING) 1361 01:18:54,768 --> 01:18:58,705 (CONTINUES COUGHING) 1362 01:18:59,673 --> 01:19:00,840 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 1363 01:19:07,714 --> 01:19:09,315 I never knew you were doing this to yourself. 1364 01:19:10,950 --> 01:19:13,190 Well, you never asked how I was doing. 1365 01:19:14,354 --> 01:19:16,122 You never asked how I was doing either. 1366 01:19:17,357 --> 01:19:19,325 Every month, it's just, 1367 01:19:19,359 --> 01:19:22,195 "How much money do you need?" or, "How's Ellie?" 1368 01:19:22,228 --> 01:19:25,265 You didn't tell me that she's flunking out of school. 1369 01:19:25,298 --> 01:19:26,900 I guess I just didn't need the lecture 1370 01:19:26,966 --> 01:19:28,668 about my involvement in her education. 1371 01:19:28,702 --> 01:19:31,137 That is not what I... (EXHALES) 1372 01:19:34,240 --> 01:19:35,241 (EXHALES) 1373 01:19:37,177 --> 01:19:38,812 How're you doing, Mary? (SCOFFS) 1374 01:19:44,317 --> 01:19:47,754 I know I'm not supposed to be around her. 1375 01:19:47,787 --> 01:19:51,324 You could probably call the police if you wanted to. Oh, Christ. 1376 01:19:51,358 --> 01:19:52,892 You really think I'd do that? 1377 01:19:52,926 --> 01:19:55,695 You fought me pretty hard for full custody. 1378 01:19:55,729 --> 01:19:57,931 And I don't blame you for keeping her from me. 1379 01:19:57,997 --> 01:20:02,102 Charlie, need I remind you that you left us. 1380 01:20:02,902 --> 01:20:04,300 I know. 1381 01:20:04,700 --> 01:20:05,939 And I was left raising our kid 1382 01:20:06,600 --> 01:20:09,275 and explaining to people that my husband left me for a man. 1383 01:20:09,309 --> 01:20:11,878 But you didn't have to cut me out of her life like that. 1384 01:20:11,911 --> 01:20:13,460 Oh, please. 1385 01:20:13,790 --> 01:20:15,181 You were more than happy to forget about us for a while. 1386 01:20:15,215 --> 01:20:16,216 You know that. 1387 01:20:18,151 --> 01:20:20,120 I know I made a lot of mistakes. 1388 01:20:22,355 --> 01:20:25,291 But I just wanted to see her, Mary. 1389 01:20:25,325 --> 01:20:27,827 I've always just... Just wanted to see her. 1390 01:20:29,195 --> 01:20:30,263 It's all about you. 1391 01:20:32,980 --> 01:20:33,867 Even now, huh? 1392 01:20:34,467 --> 01:20:36,236 (CHARLIE SIGHS HEAVILY) 1393 01:20:36,269 --> 01:20:37,937 Now you know why I kept you from her. 1394 01:20:39,390 --> 01:20:40,600 What? 1395 01:20:41,775 --> 01:20:44,711 She's awful. Isn't she? 1396 01:20:44,744 --> 01:20:48,140 She's a terror. And you think it's my fault. 1397 01:20:48,810 --> 01:20:52,886 Wait, is that why you kept her from me all this time? 1398 01:20:52,919 --> 01:20:57,570 Because you thought that I would think that you're a bad mother? 1399 01:20:58,158 --> 01:20:59,159 At first. 1400 01:21:00,427 --> 01:21:03,430 But later, when she was 15, 16, 1401 01:21:05,799 --> 01:21:07,200 I was worried she would hurt you. 1402 01:21:07,867 --> 01:21:08,868 Hurt me? 1403 01:21:10,103 --> 01:21:11,171 It's ridiculous. 1404 01:21:11,204 --> 01:21:13,600 I don't take any pleasure in admitting it. 1405 01:21:13,730 --> 01:21:15,442 I'm her mother, for Christ's sake. 1406 01:21:15,475 --> 01:21:18,278 You know, I spent way too much time telling myself, 1407 01:21:18,311 --> 01:21:20,747 you know, "She's just rebellious, 1408 01:21:20,780 --> 01:21:21,915 "she's just difficult." 1409 01:21:24,250 --> 01:21:26,920 Charlie, she's evil. 1410 01:21:28,254 --> 01:21:29,422 She's not evil. 1411 01:21:36,162 --> 01:21:37,197 What are you doing? 1412 01:21:43,169 --> 01:21:44,771 (MARY TYPING) You think it's just me? 1413 01:21:56,449 --> 01:21:59,819 "There'll be a grease fire in hell when he starts to burn." 1414 01:22:07,227 --> 01:22:08,228 Don't feel bad. 1415 01:22:09,829 --> 01:22:11,965 I've made quite a few appearances on that thing. 1416 01:22:15,568 --> 01:22:16,970 She's a strong writer. 1417 01:22:19,139 --> 01:22:20,907 (RAISES VOICE) That's your response? 1418 01:22:20,940 --> 01:22:22,800 This isn't evil. 1419 01:22:22,475 --> 01:22:24,770 This is honesty. 1420 01:22:24,144 --> 01:22:26,513 Do you know how much bullshit I've read in my life? 1421 01:22:26,546 --> 01:22:29,382 My God, I don't understand you, Charlie! 1422 01:22:29,416 --> 01:22:31,418 Every time I call and ask you how she's doing, 1423 01:22:31,451 --> 01:22:32,819 you say, "She's fine." 1424 01:22:33,453 --> 01:22:35,550 If she's so evil, then... 1425 01:22:35,880 --> 01:22:36,556 (MARY SHOUTING) What was I supposed to tell you? 1426 01:22:36,589 --> 01:22:39,259 Huh? That she was off making her classmates cry 1427 01:22:39,292 --> 01:22:40,860 or slashing her teachers' tires? 1428 01:22:40,894 --> 01:22:42,128 You didn't want to hear that stuff! 1429 01:22:42,195 --> 01:22:43,263 I could have helped her! 1430 01:22:43,329 --> 01:22:46,866 She doesn't want your help! She doesn't want anyone! 1431 01:22:46,900 --> 01:22:48,868 You think I didn't want her to have a dad? 1432 01:22:49,536 --> 01:22:51,204 She adored you! 1433 01:22:51,237 --> 01:22:53,730 The only reason you married me in the first place 1434 01:22:53,139 --> 01:22:54,941 was to have a kid, I know that! 1435 01:22:54,974 --> 01:22:56,109 Mary, please! 1436 01:22:56,876 --> 01:22:57,944 (MARY SIGHS) 1437 01:23:02,150 --> 01:23:05,185 Well, this brings back memories, doesn't it? 1438 01:23:07,253 --> 01:23:08,321 (SIGHS) 1439 01:23:09,356 --> 01:23:10,924 (WHEEZES, COUGHS) 1440 01:23:24,371 --> 01:23:25,372 Listen. 1441 01:23:28,241 --> 01:23:30,143 I never got to say that I was sorry. 1442 01:23:32,780 --> 01:23:34,414 What would you have to be sorry about? 1443 01:23:34,447 --> 01:23:35,515 That's not what I mean. 1444 01:23:37,217 --> 01:23:38,184 I mean... 1445 01:23:42,989 --> 01:23:45,258 About your friend. 1446 01:23:46,626 --> 01:23:47,861 Oh. 1447 01:23:51,364 --> 01:23:52,432 His name was Alan. 1448 01:23:52,465 --> 01:23:54,134 I know his ****ing name, Charlie. 1449 01:23:58,938 --> 01:23:59,939 I saw him once, 1450 01:24:01,508 --> 01:24:02,976 in the Walmart parking lot. 1451 01:24:03,943 --> 01:24:04,811 He wasn't looking too good, 1452 01:24:04,844 --> 01:24:06,880 and I don't think it was long before he... 1453 01:24:09,115 --> 01:24:11,518 Anyway, I had all these things that I... 1454 01:24:11,551 --> 01:24:12,552 I wanted to say to him, 1455 01:24:12,585 --> 01:24:14,454 you know, hurl at him like bricks. (SNIFFLES) 1456 01:24:15,255 --> 01:24:17,190 But I... 1457 01:24:17,257 --> 01:24:18,892 I asked if he wanted some help. 1458 01:24:21,327 --> 01:24:23,329 He let me carry a couple of bags to his car, 1459 01:24:24,631 --> 01:24:25,965 he said thank you, 1460 01:24:27,534 --> 01:24:28,535 and I left. 1461 01:24:32,372 --> 01:24:34,700 I never even told him who I was. 1462 01:24:37,577 --> 01:24:39,112 (WHEEZES SOFTLY) 1463 01:24:40,447 --> 01:24:42,820 (WHEEZING) 1464 01:24:43,116 --> 01:24:44,150 You're wheezing. 1465 01:24:45,485 --> 01:24:48,221 Yeah, it's gotten worse. 1466 01:24:49,155 --> 01:24:50,256 Should I call someone? 1467 01:24:51,240 --> 01:24:53,590 No. Um... 1468 01:24:58,331 --> 01:24:59,399 You'll let me hear? 1469 01:25:08,341 --> 01:25:09,476 (GRUNTS) 1470 01:25:24,357 --> 01:25:25,392 (HOARSELY) How do I sound? 1471 01:25:33,366 --> 01:25:35,668 That was the first time we've all been together 1472 01:25:35,702 --> 01:25:38,471 in almost nine years. Do you realize that? 1473 01:25:38,505 --> 01:25:39,639 (CHUCKLES DRYLY) 1474 01:25:48,281 --> 01:25:50,216 When Ellie was little, 1475 01:25:50,250 --> 01:25:53,987 when we took that trip to the Oregon Coast together, 1476 01:25:55,550 --> 01:25:57,123 Ellie played in the sand, and... 1477 01:25:57,457 --> 01:25:58,558 (SNIFFLES) 1478 01:25:58,591 --> 01:26:00,460 ...we laid out on the beach. 1479 01:26:01,795 --> 01:26:03,430 I went swimming in the ocean. 1480 01:26:06,132 --> 01:26:08,601 That was the last time I ever went swimming, actually. 1481 01:26:11,671 --> 01:26:14,140 I kept cutting my legs on the rocks. 1482 01:26:17,677 --> 01:26:19,679 The water was so cold. 1483 01:26:19,713 --> 01:26:21,214 (OCEAN WAVES SPLASHING) 1484 01:26:31,424 --> 01:26:35,228 And you were so mad that my legs bled 1485 01:26:35,261 --> 01:26:37,497 and stained the seats in the minivan. 1486 01:26:37,530 --> 01:26:38,765 (CHUCKLES) 1487 01:26:38,798 --> 01:26:43,403 And you said, for days after that, I smelled like seawater. 1488 01:26:43,436 --> 01:26:45,372 (CHARLIE LAUGHS) (SNIFFLES) 1489 01:26:45,438 --> 01:26:47,140 (WHEEZES) You remember that? 1490 01:26:47,173 --> 01:26:50,210 (COUGHING) 1491 01:26:51,211 --> 01:26:52,746 (SNIFFLES) 1492 01:26:54,681 --> 01:26:56,490 You sound awful. 1493 01:26:57,517 --> 01:26:59,719 (SIGHS) I'm dying, Mary. 1494 01:27:03,790 --> 01:27:04,791 **** you. 1495 01:27:06,726 --> 01:27:08,940 I'm sorry. 1496 01:27:09,529 --> 01:27:10,630 **** you. 1497 01:27:13,533 --> 01:27:14,667 (CRYING) For sure? 1498 01:27:15,535 --> 01:27:18,204 Yeah. For sure. 1499 01:27:18,238 --> 01:27:20,306 (CRIES, SIGHS) 1500 01:27:20,373 --> 01:27:21,541 CHARLIE: Listen to me. 1501 01:27:24,544 --> 01:27:27,113 I need to make certain that she's going to be okay. 1502 01:27:28,214 --> 01:27:29,382 We can't give up on her. 1503 01:27:30,250 --> 01:27:31,851 You already gave up on her! 1504 01:27:31,885 --> 01:27:33,820 You gave up on her when she was eight years old! 1505 01:27:33,853 --> 01:27:36,856 I wish I could have been a part of her life, Mary, 1506 01:27:36,890 --> 01:27:38,758 a part of both of your lives. 1507 01:27:38,792 --> 01:27:39,793 Go to the hospital. 1508 01:27:41,194 --> 01:27:43,396 You have money, just go to the hospital! 1509 01:27:44,497 --> 01:27:48,802 We both know that that money is for Ellie. 1510 01:27:49,803 --> 01:27:54,207 But beyond that, 1511 01:27:54,240 --> 01:27:58,311 I need to know that she's gonna have a decent life. 1512 01:27:59,446 --> 01:28:01,614 Where she cares about people 1513 01:28:01,648 --> 01:28:03,750 and other people care about her. 1514 01:28:05,285 --> 01:28:07,287 (CRYING) And she's gonna be okay. 1515 01:28:08,288 --> 01:28:09,255 I need to go. Mary. 1516 01:28:09,289 --> 01:28:12,792 She doesn't have anyone else! I have to go. 1517 01:28:12,826 --> 01:28:15,462 (CRYING) I need to know that I have done 1518 01:28:15,528 --> 01:28:18,331 one thing right with my life! 1519 01:28:21,868 --> 01:28:23,303 We both played our parts. 1520 01:28:24,771 --> 01:28:27,340 I raised her, and you're giving her the money. 1521 01:28:27,941 --> 01:28:29,275 It's the best we could do. 1522 01:28:31,344 --> 01:28:32,445 (SIGHS) 1523 01:28:35,348 --> 01:28:36,349 Do you need anything 1524 01:28:37,751 --> 01:28:38,785 before I leave? 1525 01:28:39,786 --> 01:28:41,154 Water, or something. 1526 01:28:42,389 --> 01:28:43,757 (COUGHS) 1527 01:28:48,962 --> 01:28:50,397 (SIGHS) 1528 01:28:50,663 --> 01:28:51,865 (COUGHS) 1529 01:29:03,309 --> 01:29:04,411 (PHONE BUTTON BEEPS) 1530 01:29:04,477 --> 01:29:06,846 (SNORING) (THUNDER RUMBLES) 1531 01:29:08,515 --> 01:29:10,450 (RAIN POURING) 1532 01:29:12,686 --> 01:29:15,255 (THUNDER RUMBLING) 1533 01:29:15,288 --> 01:29:16,656 (COUGHS) 1534 01:29:30,704 --> 01:29:32,305 (WATER TRICKLING) 1535 01:29:50,590 --> 01:29:51,891 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 1536 01:29:51,925 --> 01:29:53,560 DAN: Gambino's! 1537 01:29:53,626 --> 01:29:55,695 (CHARLIE COUGHING) Yeah. 1538 01:29:55,729 --> 01:29:56,730 DAN: Charlie? 1539 01:29:57,931 --> 01:29:58,932 You okay? 1540 01:30:00,734 --> 01:30:02,602 CHARLIE: Yeah. (CLEARS THROAT) 1541 01:30:04,304 --> 01:30:05,805 The money is in the, um... 1542 01:30:07,407 --> 01:30:08,441 DAN: Sure. 1543 01:30:08,475 --> 01:30:09,642 (MAILBOX OPENS) 1544 01:30:12,512 --> 01:30:13,847 DAN: You sure you're doing okay? 1545 01:30:15,949 --> 01:30:17,951 Yeah. Thanks, Dan. 1546 01:30:17,984 --> 01:30:19,786 DAN: Have a good night, okay? 1547 01:30:20,487 --> 01:30:21,554 (MAILBOX CLOSES) 1548 01:30:26,760 --> 01:30:28,695 (RAIN POURING HEAVILY) 1549 01:30:45,578 --> 01:30:46,546 (MUMBLES) 1550 01:30:59,526 --> 01:31:01,628 (INTENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 1551 01:31:13,807 --> 01:31:15,809 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 1552 01:31:21,481 --> 01:31:22,982 (THUNDER RUMBLING) 1553 01:31:30,900 --> 01:31:31,524 (TYPING) 1554 01:31:40,660 --> 01:31:41,701 (WHISPERING) **** these essays. 1555 01:31:42,769 --> 01:31:43,937 **** these readings. 1556 01:31:46,539 --> 01:31:50,610 Just write something ****ing honest. (BANGING KEYBOARD) 1557 01:31:54,447 --> 01:31:55,448 (SLAMS LAPTOP SHUT) 1558 01:31:55,949 --> 01:31:56,950 (SIGHS) 1559 01:31:59,919 --> 01:32:02,550 (INTENSE MUSIC CONTINUES) 1560 01:32:44,664 --> 01:32:46,320 (RETCHES) 1561 01:32:46,660 --> 01:32:47,534 (SPITS) 1562 01:32:47,567 --> 01:32:49,469 (COUGHS, WHEEZES) 1563 01:32:50,136 --> 01:32:51,805 (GASPS) 1564 01:32:52,138 --> 01:32:55,800 (COUGHING) 1565 01:32:59,120 --> 01:33:00,847 (CONTINUES COUGHING) 1566 01:33:02,148 --> 01:33:03,550 (STIFLES SOB) 1567 01:33:04,500 --> 01:33:06,186 (SOBBING) 1568 01:33:06,219 --> 01:33:07,921 (COUGHS, SOBS) 1569 01:33:13,660 --> 01:33:15,862 (CONTINUES SOBBING) 1570 01:33:15,895 --> 01:33:17,430 (COUGHS) 1571 01:33:20,500 --> 01:33:21,634 (KNOCK AT DOOR) 1572 01:33:21,701 --> 01:33:23,200 (GASPS) Liz? 1573 01:33:24,871 --> 01:33:26,906 (KNOCKING CONTINUES) 1574 01:33:26,940 --> 01:33:28,740 THOMAS: Can I come inside? 1575 01:33:29,843 --> 01:33:30,877 It's not locked. 1576 01:33:33,146 --> 01:33:34,481 Hi. What's wrong? 1577 01:33:35,115 --> 01:33:36,649 Thank you. For what? 1578 01:33:36,683 --> 01:33:39,552 Look, I'm not exactly who I said I was. 1579 01:33:39,586 --> 01:33:41,154 I'm not from New Life. 1580 01:33:41,187 --> 01:33:42,756 What? I... I don't... 1581 01:33:42,822 --> 01:33:44,724 I've been in a pretty bad place recently. 1582 01:33:44,791 --> 01:33:46,126 I... I stole some money, 1583 01:33:46,159 --> 01:33:48,161 and I ran away from home a few months ago. 1584 01:33:48,194 --> 01:33:51,310 And your daughter, she took these pictures of me smoking pot, 1585 01:33:51,640 --> 01:33:53,500 and a recording or something like that, 1586 01:33:53,533 --> 01:33:55,668 and she found my church in Waterloo somehow, 1587 01:33:55,735 --> 01:33:56,870 and then she sent it to them, 1588 01:33:56,903 --> 01:33:58,638 and they sent it to my parents... Wait. 1589 01:33:58,671 --> 01:33:59,839 ...and you know what they said? 1590 01:34:00,807 --> 01:34:01,808 "It's just money." 1591 01:34:02,909 --> 01:34:04,811 And they forgive me. 1592 01:34:04,844 --> 01:34:07,647 And they love me, and they want me to come home. 1593 01:34:09,215 --> 01:34:10,750 How awful is that? 1594 01:34:11,851 --> 01:34:14,554 Ellie, she... She did all that? 1595 01:34:14,587 --> 01:34:18,792 I can't tell if she was trying to help me or hurt me or... 1596 01:34:18,858 --> 01:34:20,126 Do you ever get that feeling from her? (CHUCKLES) 1597 01:34:20,160 --> 01:34:21,795 How did she even... She... 1598 01:34:23,697 --> 01:34:26,566 She found your church, she tracked down your parents. 1599 01:34:27,867 --> 01:34:29,169 She really did all that? 1600 01:34:29,202 --> 01:34:30,904 Yeah. I mean, I'm going home tomorrow. 1601 01:34:32,500 --> 01:34:33,673 But, Charlie, before I go... (LAUGHS) 1602 01:34:33,707 --> 01:34:35,750 ...I have to show you this. 1603 01:34:35,108 --> 01:34:37,100 (BREATHES UNCOMFORTABLY) 1604 01:34:37,430 --> 01:34:38,678 What... What's wrong? (GRUNTS HEAVILY) 1605 01:34:38,712 --> 01:34:39,913 Wait, are you okay? 1606 01:34:39,946 --> 01:34:41,948 It just hurts. Charlie, 1607 01:34:41,981 --> 01:34:44,217 I want to help you. I know I can help you. 1608 01:34:44,250 --> 01:34:46,152 I'm not going to the hospital. 1609 01:34:46,186 --> 01:34:47,721 No, I know. I'm not gonna make you go. 1610 01:34:47,754 --> 01:34:48,988 But I can help you. 1611 01:34:50,957 --> 01:34:52,592 "Therefore, brothers and sisters..." What are you doing? 1612 01:34:52,625 --> 01:34:53,893 "...we have an obligation, 1613 01:34:53,927 --> 01:34:56,129 "but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 1614 01:34:56,162 --> 01:34:58,898 "For if you live according to the flesh, you will die. 1615 01:34:58,932 --> 01:35:01,267 "But if by the Spirit you put to death 1616 01:35:01,301 --> 01:35:03,870 "the misdeeds of the body, then you will live." 1617 01:35:03,903 --> 01:35:05,772 I... I don't understand. 1618 01:35:05,839 --> 01:35:08,708 Charlie, when I read this, I finally got it. 1619 01:35:08,775 --> 01:35:12,780 I finally understood why God brought me here to you. 1620 01:35:12,112 --> 01:35:14,247 So I could help you understand what happened to Alan, 1621 01:35:14,280 --> 01:35:15,782 so it doesn't happen to you, too. 1622 01:35:18,852 --> 01:35:19,753 How did you get this? 1623 01:35:19,819 --> 01:35:23,189 Charlie, Alan tried to escape God's will. 1624 01:35:23,223 --> 01:35:25,625 He chose his life with you over God. 1625 01:35:25,658 --> 01:35:29,195 But this is why he was so obsessed with this verse. 1626 01:35:29,229 --> 01:35:30,997 He knew that he was living in the flesh, 1627 01:35:31,310 --> 01:35:32,265 and not in the Spirit. 1628 01:35:32,298 --> 01:35:35,668 He never prayed for salvation, but it's not too late for you. 1629 01:35:35,702 --> 01:35:37,237 Through the Spirit, you can put to death 1630 01:35:37,270 --> 01:35:39,639 the misdeeds of the body, and you will live. 1631 01:35:41,207 --> 01:35:43,743 You think Alan died because he chose to be with me? 1632 01:35:46,460 --> 01:35:47,714 You think God turned his back on him 1633 01:35:47,747 --> 01:35:48,882 because he and I were in love? 1634 01:35:53,119 --> 01:35:54,120 Yes. 1635 01:35:59,250 --> 01:35:59,959 (SIGHS) 1636 01:36:02,762 --> 01:36:05,310 You know something? I wasn't always this big. 1637 01:36:06,399 --> 01:36:08,702 Yeah, I know. 1638 01:36:08,735 --> 01:36:11,400 I mean, I wasn't the best-looking guy in the room, but... 1639 01:36:12,739 --> 01:36:13,740 Alan loved me. 1640 01:36:16,810 --> 01:36:17,877 He thought I was beautiful. 1641 01:36:22,415 --> 01:36:23,650 Okay. 1642 01:36:25,852 --> 01:36:27,620 Halfway through the semester, 1643 01:36:29,220 --> 01:36:32,692 he started meeting me during my office hours. 1644 01:36:32,726 --> 01:36:36,863 And we were... We were crazy about one another. 1645 01:36:36,930 --> 01:36:38,932 But we waited 1646 01:36:38,998 --> 01:36:41,735 until the class was over before... 1647 01:36:41,768 --> 01:36:42,802 This isn't, uh... 1648 01:36:42,836 --> 01:36:46,139 It was just after classes had ended for the year. 1649 01:36:46,172 --> 01:36:48,740 It was perfect temperature outside. 1650 01:36:49,142 --> 01:36:51,440 We took a walk in the arboretum, 1651 01:36:53,713 --> 01:36:54,748 and we kissed. 1652 01:36:55,215 --> 01:36:56,983 Charlie, stop. 1653 01:36:57,170 --> 01:37:00,353 We would spend entire nights lying together, naked. 1654 01:37:02,989 --> 01:37:04,570 We would make love. 1655 01:37:09,796 --> 01:37:10,864 We would make love. 1656 01:37:14,134 --> 01:37:15,835 Do you find that disgusting? 1657 01:37:15,869 --> 01:37:17,437 Charlie, God is ready to help you. 1658 01:37:17,470 --> 01:37:21,700 Oh, I hope that there isn't a God, 1659 01:37:21,410 --> 01:37:23,777 because I hate to think that there's an afterlife, 1660 01:37:23,810 --> 01:37:27,247 and that Alan can see what I have done to myself. 1661 01:37:27,280 --> 01:37:30,350 Charlie... That he can see my swollen feet 1662 01:37:30,383 --> 01:37:32,252 and the sores on my skin, 1663 01:37:32,285 --> 01:37:33,753 and the patches of mold 1664 01:37:33,787 --> 01:37:35,210 in between the flaps. Stop. 1665 01:37:35,550 --> 01:37:37,900 The infected ulcers on my ***, 1666 01:37:37,123 --> 01:37:40,827 and the sack of fat on my back that turned brown last year. 1667 01:37:40,860 --> 01:37:42,829 Okay, stop! This is disgusting? 1668 01:37:42,862 --> 01:37:44,898 Yes! I'm disgusting? 1669 01:37:44,964 --> 01:37:46,833 (SHOUTING) Yes, you're disgusting! You're... 1670 01:37:58,244 --> 01:38:00,130 (BREATH SHUDDERING, WHISPERING) I'm sorry. 1671 01:38:03,850 --> 01:38:04,851 What? 1672 01:38:08,154 --> 01:38:10,156 Go home to your family. 1673 01:38:20,867 --> 01:38:23,360 (CHARLIE COUGHS) (DOOR OPENS) 1674 01:38:24,437 --> 01:38:28,775 (DOOR CLOSES) (CONTINUES COUGHING) 1675 01:38:30,410 --> 01:38:32,450 (COUGHS HEAVILY) 1676 01:38:59,372 --> 01:39:02,242 CHARLIE: Well, your complaints have been heard. 1677 01:39:03,109 --> 01:39:04,244 I've been replaced 1678 01:39:04,277 --> 01:39:06,413 by someone who will, no doubt, 1679 01:39:06,446 --> 01:39:09,916 have you rewrite, and rewrite, and rewrite, 1680 01:39:10,350 --> 01:39:12,886 be more objective, 1681 01:39:13,520 --> 01:39:14,954 less authentic, 1682 01:39:14,988 --> 01:39:17,457 less you, with every draft. 1683 01:39:20,427 --> 01:39:24,130 But some of you saw my post 1684 01:39:24,164 --> 01:39:27,100 about writing something honest. 1685 01:39:30,437 --> 01:39:31,438 And... 1686 01:39:32,872 --> 01:39:33,873 (SIGHS) 1687 01:39:35,800 --> 01:39:36,810 ...the things that some of you wrote... 1688 01:39:38,611 --> 01:39:40,460 Kristy, you wrote, 1689 01:39:41,147 --> 01:39:44,217 "My parents want me to be a radiologist, 1690 01:39:44,250 --> 01:39:46,886 "but I don't even know what that is." 1691 01:39:53,393 --> 01:39:54,961 Julian, you wrote, 1692 01:39:54,994 --> 01:39:58,264 "I'm sick of people telling me that I have promise." 1693 01:40:06,106 --> 01:40:07,140 Adam, you wrote, 1694 01:40:08,308 --> 01:40:10,210 "I think I need to accept that my life 1695 01:40:10,243 --> 01:40:12,579 "isn't going to be very exciting." 1696 01:40:15,949 --> 01:40:20,286 You all wrote these amazing, honest things, and... 1697 01:40:22,422 --> 01:40:24,524 you've been so honest with me that I... I... 1698 01:40:28,128 --> 01:40:29,229 (GRUNTS SOFTLY) 1699 01:40:30,196 --> 01:40:31,531 ...I just want to be... 1700 01:40:33,133 --> 01:40:34,501 honest with you, too. 1701 01:40:35,568 --> 01:40:36,936 (EXHALES) 1702 01:40:40,373 --> 01:40:42,409 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 1703 01:41:10,136 --> 01:41:11,337 (SIGHS HEAVILY) 1704 01:41:16,710 --> 01:41:18,411 These assignments don't matter. 1705 01:41:20,246 --> 01:41:21,448 This course doesn't matter. 1706 01:41:23,583 --> 01:41:24,951 College doesn't matter. 1707 01:41:27,253 --> 01:41:30,190 These amazing, honest things that you wrote, 1708 01:41:34,260 --> 01:41:35,328 they matter. 1709 01:41:39,366 --> 01:41:40,467 (LAPTOP CRASHES) 1710 01:41:42,702 --> 01:41:44,571 (CHARLIE WHEEZES) 1711 01:41:54,714 --> 01:41:56,116 (CHARLIE COUGHS) 1712 01:42:10,697 --> 01:42:12,565 (WHEEZING CONTINUES) 1713 01:42:16,770 --> 01:42:18,405 I'm sorry. Don't. 1714 01:42:25,178 --> 01:42:26,646 (BREATHES ERRATICALLY) 1715 01:42:29,716 --> 01:42:31,117 (SUPPRESSES GRUNT) 1716 01:42:35,550 --> 01:42:37,457 I really hate you for putting me through this again, you know that? 1717 01:42:40,593 --> 01:42:42,128 Those last few months before Alan... 1718 01:42:43,630 --> 01:42:46,132 I'd come over here, shake him, scream at him, 1719 01:42:46,199 --> 01:42:48,168 just trying to get him to ****ing eat something. 1720 01:42:48,234 --> 01:42:50,737 God, that was awful! It was awful for me, too. 1721 01:42:50,770 --> 01:42:52,138 Yeah? Well, you weren't the one 1722 01:42:52,205 --> 01:42:53,573 who had to identify his body, 1723 01:42:53,606 --> 01:42:55,308 all bloated... They wouldn't let me. 1724 01:42:56,776 --> 01:42:58,178 I wasn't family. 1725 01:42:59,746 --> 01:43:01,810 (SIGHS) 1726 01:43:07,354 --> 01:43:09,322 (CHARLIE COUGHS AND WHEEZES) 1727 01:43:12,359 --> 01:43:14,427 I got you two meatball subs. Extra cheese. 1728 01:43:19,799 --> 01:43:21,534 (SIGHS, SNIFFLES) 1729 01:43:21,568 --> 01:43:22,702 I don't know what I'm doing. 1730 01:43:29,209 --> 01:43:31,411 (BREATHES HEAVILY) 1731 01:43:31,444 --> 01:43:33,580 I'm not going to the hospital. 1732 01:43:33,613 --> 01:43:35,181 I'm not asking you to. 1733 01:43:40,553 --> 01:43:42,389 I can't do this anymore. 1734 01:43:45,492 --> 01:43:47,227 I tried to save him, Liz. 1735 01:43:50,497 --> 01:43:52,432 I thought that if I just loved him, 1736 01:43:55,368 --> 01:43:57,203 that he wouldn't need anyone else. 1737 01:44:00,173 --> 01:44:01,574 I told him he didn't need God, 1738 01:44:02,876 --> 01:44:06,212 he didn't need anyone but me. 1739 01:44:08,148 --> 01:44:09,149 Charlie, 1740 01:44:10,583 --> 01:44:12,385 all I know is that you gave Alan 1741 01:44:12,419 --> 01:44:13,653 the best years of his life. 1742 01:44:13,687 --> 01:44:15,255 If it weren't for you, he would have jumped off 1743 01:44:15,321 --> 01:44:17,257 that bridge years earlier. (SHUDDERS) 1744 01:44:17,857 --> 01:44:19,225 Nobody could've saved him. 1745 01:44:19,292 --> 01:44:21,161 Believe me, I spent years trying. 1746 01:44:21,761 --> 01:44:23,396 (BREATHES HEAVILY) 1747 01:44:25,198 --> 01:44:27,767 I don't think I believe anyone can save anyone. 1748 01:44:34,274 --> 01:44:35,308 She saved him. 1749 01:44:37,777 --> 01:44:41,881 She wasn't trying to hurt him. She was trying to help him. 1750 01:44:41,915 --> 01:44:43,850 Who are you talking about? 1751 01:44:43,883 --> 01:44:46,319 He's going home. She did that. 1752 01:44:47,587 --> 01:44:49,689 Charlie... She didn't do it to hurt him, 1753 01:44:50,490 --> 01:44:52,726 she did it to send him home. 1754 01:44:54,327 --> 01:44:56,629 Do you feel light-headed? Charlie, look at me. 1755 01:44:56,663 --> 01:44:59,265 She was trying to help him. Who? 1756 01:45:00,367 --> 01:45:03,870 Ellie. She was trying to help him, 1757 01:45:03,903 --> 01:45:05,805 She just wanted to send him home. 1758 01:45:08,508 --> 01:45:12,345 Do you ever get the feeling that... 1759 01:45:14,280 --> 01:45:17,617 people are incapable of not caring? 1760 01:45:23,223 --> 01:45:24,624 People are amazing. 1761 01:45:26,226 --> 01:45:27,260 (DOOR OPENS) 1762 01:45:28,361 --> 01:45:29,396 What the **** did you do? 1763 01:45:32,532 --> 01:45:33,566 What's wrong with him? 1764 01:45:35,735 --> 01:45:36,736 He's dying. 1765 01:45:38,638 --> 01:45:40,306 So, call someone. 1766 01:45:40,373 --> 01:45:42,208 (SOFTLY) No. Call a ****ing ambulance! 1767 01:45:42,809 --> 01:45:43,810 Liz. 1768 01:45:44,811 --> 01:45:46,246 I need to talk to him. 1769 01:45:46,279 --> 01:45:47,480 I'm not leaving you alone with him. 1770 01:45:47,514 --> 01:45:48,948 I need to talk to him alone. 1771 01:45:48,982 --> 01:45:50,216 (SOFTLY) Liz. 1772 01:45:52,986 --> 01:45:54,254 Please. 1773 01:45:58,792 --> 01:45:59,793 Okay. 1774 01:46:06,433 --> 01:46:08,234 (STIFLED SOBBING) 1775 01:46:17,544 --> 01:46:18,678 LIZ: I'll call someone. 1776 01:46:21,614 --> 01:46:22,615 Charlie. 1777 01:46:25,752 --> 01:46:27,354 I'll wait downstairs. 1778 01:46:34,828 --> 01:46:36,830 Why did you do that? (CHUCKLING) What? 1779 01:46:39,299 --> 01:46:40,300 I failed. 1780 01:46:40,900 --> 01:46:42,502 It's a really good essay. 1781 01:46:42,535 --> 01:46:45,472 Are you just trying to screw me over one last time? 1782 01:46:45,538 --> 01:46:47,507 I don't care about you! I don't care that you're dying. 1783 01:46:47,540 --> 01:46:48,875 Do you want me to fail out of high school? 1784 01:46:48,908 --> 01:46:50,877 Is that why you did this? I didn't write it. 1785 01:46:50,910 --> 01:46:53,413 This is the essay that you gave me yesterday. 1786 01:46:53,480 --> 01:46:55,315 You didn't read it. I don't need to read it. 1787 01:46:55,749 --> 01:46:56,750 Read it. 1788 01:47:00,887 --> 01:47:02,789 (BREATHING LABORIOUSLY) 1789 01:47:08,395 --> 01:47:09,396 This is... 1790 01:47:10,764 --> 01:47:12,332 I know what this is. 1791 01:47:12,365 --> 01:47:14,401 (CHUCKLING) I knew you would. 1792 01:47:15,502 --> 01:47:16,469 I wrote this. 1793 01:47:18,738 --> 01:47:20,473 You never forget anything. 1794 01:47:20,540 --> 01:47:23,376 I wrote this in eighth grade for English. Why do you... 1795 01:47:23,443 --> 01:47:25,478 "And I felt saddest of all 1796 01:47:25,545 --> 01:47:27,747 "when I read the boring chapters 1797 01:47:27,781 --> 01:47:30,617 "that were only descriptions of whales, 1798 01:47:30,650 --> 01:47:33,653 "because I knew that 1799 01:47:33,687 --> 01:47:37,357 "the author was just trying to save us 1800 01:47:37,390 --> 01:47:39,626 "from his own sad story, 1801 01:47:41,628 --> 01:47:43,496 "just for a little while." 1802 01:47:43,563 --> 01:47:45,331 (CHARLIE CHUCKLES) (SNIFFLES) 1803 01:47:45,365 --> 01:47:48,100 How do you have this? Your mother, 1804 01:47:48,340 --> 01:47:50,700 she sent it to me four years ago. 1805 01:47:50,103 --> 01:47:52,839 I wanted to know how you were doing in school, 1806 01:47:52,872 --> 01:47:54,641 and she sent it. 1807 01:47:54,674 --> 01:47:57,911 And it's the best essay I've ever read. 1808 01:47:57,944 --> 01:47:59,646 (SOBBING) Why are you ****ing with me like this? 1809 01:48:00,613 --> 01:48:01,614 I'm not. 1810 01:48:02,682 --> 01:48:06,520 (SOBS) I'm sorry for leaving you. 1811 01:48:08,421 --> 01:48:11,791 I was in love, and... 1812 01:48:11,825 --> 01:48:13,693 (INHALES LABORIOUSLY) I left you behind. 1813 01:48:15,628 --> 01:48:18,998 You did not deserve that. I don't... 1814 01:48:19,320 --> 01:48:21,468 I don't know how (INHALES LABORIOUSLY) 1815 01:48:21,534 --> 01:48:23,436 I could have done such a thing. 1816 01:48:23,470 --> 01:48:25,705 You're so beautiful. (SOBS) 1817 01:48:25,739 --> 01:48:27,640 You're amazing. Stop. 1818 01:48:29,943 --> 01:48:32,679 You're amazing. (SOBS) 1819 01:48:33,546 --> 01:48:35,648 This essay is amazing. 1820 01:48:37,450 --> 01:48:39,886 This essay is you. 1821 01:48:39,919 --> 01:48:41,540 Stop saying that. 1822 01:48:41,870 --> 01:48:44,691 This essay is you. Stop saying that! 1823 01:48:44,724 --> 01:48:47,827 You're the best thing I have ever done. 1824 01:48:47,861 --> 01:48:49,429 (CRIES OUT IN PAIN) 1825 01:48:49,462 --> 01:48:51,531 (COUGHS) What's the matter? 1826 01:48:51,598 --> 01:48:52,599 Ellie! 1827 01:48:52,665 --> 01:48:54,567 No. Okay, I can't be here right now. 1828 01:48:54,634 --> 01:48:55,969 I have to go. You're perfect. 1829 01:48:56,603 --> 01:48:57,704 You'll be happy. 1830 01:48:59,390 --> 01:49:01,908 You care about people. (SOBS) 1831 01:49:01,941 --> 01:49:03,576 The ambulance is coming, they'll help you. 1832 01:49:03,643 --> 01:49:05,450 No. They won't. 1833 01:49:05,780 --> 01:49:07,947 You're going to the hospital. No. 1834 01:49:07,981 --> 01:49:10,160 You just need surgery, or something! 1835 01:49:10,500 --> 01:49:13,987 Read it to me. (GRUNTS) What? 1836 01:49:14,200 --> 01:49:17,524 (STRUGGLING) If you want to help, read it to me. 1837 01:49:18,558 --> 01:49:21,494 You'll help if you read it. 1838 01:49:21,561 --> 01:49:23,797 You ***hole. You fat ****ing ***hole! 1839 01:49:23,830 --> 01:49:24,864 You'll help... **** you. 1840 01:49:24,898 --> 01:49:26,166 Please. **** you! 1841 01:49:26,199 --> 01:49:27,500 Ellie! 1842 01:49:30,904 --> 01:49:32,105 (SOBBING) Daddy, please. 1843 01:49:40,146 --> 01:49:41,681 (ELLIE SNIFFLING) 1844 01:49:51,910 --> 01:49:54,694 "In the amazing book, Moby ****, by the author Herman Melville, 1845 01:49:54,728 --> 01:49:57,630 "the author recounts his story of being at sea. 1846 01:49:57,697 --> 01:49:58,998 "In the first part of his book, 1847 01:49:59,320 --> 01:50:01,340 "the author, calling himself Ishmael, 1848 01:50:01,670 --> 01:50:02,802 "is in a small seaside town 1849 01:50:02,836 --> 01:50:05,872 "and he is sharing a bed with a man named Queequeg. 1850 01:50:05,905 --> 01:50:08,208 "The author and Queequeg go to church 1851 01:50:08,241 --> 01:50:09,676 "and later set out on a ship 1852 01:50:09,709 --> 01:50:11,144 "captained by a pirate named Ahab, 1853 01:50:11,177 --> 01:50:12,579 "who is missing a leg, 1854 01:50:13,646 --> 01:50:15,215 "and very much wants to kill the whale 1855 01:50:15,248 --> 01:50:18,518 "which is named Moby ****, and which is white. 1856 01:50:18,551 --> 01:50:20,553 "In the course of the book, 1857 01:50:20,587 --> 01:50:22,922 "the pirate Ahab encounters many hardships." (GRUNTS) 1858 01:50:22,956 --> 01:50:26,493 "His entire life is set around trying to kill a certain whale." 1859 01:50:26,526 --> 01:50:28,280 (PANTING) "I think this is sad 1860 01:50:28,610 --> 01:50:29,729 "because this whale doesn't have any emotions, 1861 01:50:29,763 --> 01:50:32,165 "and doesn't know how bad Ahab wants to kill him. 1862 01:50:32,198 --> 01:50:33,566 "He's just a poor 1863 01:50:34,670 --> 01:50:36,703 "big animal." 1864 01:50:36,736 --> 01:50:39,706 (CHARLIE GASPS FOR BREATH) 1865 01:50:39,739 --> 01:50:41,808 "And I feel bad for Ahab as well, 1866 01:50:41,841 --> 01:50:43,510 "because he thinks that his life will be better 1867 01:50:43,543 --> 01:50:45,450 "if he can just kill this whale, 1868 01:50:45,780 --> 01:50:46,913 "but in reality, it won't help him at all." 1869 01:50:47,947 --> 01:50:50,583 (CHARLIE BREATHING SHALLOWLY) 1870 01:50:50,617 --> 01:50:53,119 "I was very saddened by this book, 1871 01:50:53,153 --> 01:50:55,155 "and I felt many emotions for the characters. 1872 01:50:57,991 --> 01:50:59,526 "And I felt saddest of all 1873 01:50:59,559 --> 01:51:00,727 "when I read the boring chapters 1874 01:51:00,760 --> 01:51:02,796 "that were only descriptions of whales, 1875 01:51:02,829 --> 01:51:04,964 "because I knew that the author was just trying 1876 01:51:04,998 --> 01:51:06,833 "to save us from his own sad story, 1877 01:51:07,734 --> 01:51:08,802 "just for a little while." 1878 01:51:08,835 --> 01:51:10,203 (GASPING) 1879 01:51:10,236 --> 01:51:11,805 (WAVES LAPPING) 1880 01:51:11,838 --> 01:51:13,840 (EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING) 1881 01:51:16,843 --> 01:51:18,745 "This book made me think about my own life, 1882 01:51:20,113 --> 01:51:22,615 "and then it made me feel glad for my..." 1883 01:51:22,682 --> 01:51:24,150 (BREATHING ERRATICALLY) 1884 01:51:26,860 --> 01:51:27,153 (LAUGHING) 1885 01:51:27,187 --> 01:51:28,221 (CHUCKLES) 1886 01:51:28,254 --> 01:51:29,923 (MUSIC SWELLS) 1887 01:51:29,956 --> 01:51:30,957 (GASPS) 1888 01:51:39,165 --> 01:51:40,767 (WAVES CRASHING) 1889 01:51:42,102 --> 01:51:44,637 (EMOTIONAL MUSIC CONTINUES) 1890 01:53:05,885 --> 01:53:07,887 (GRIM MUSIC PLAYING) 1891 01:53:17,630 --> 01:53:19,650 (WAVES CRASHING GENTLY)