[Birds chirping]
[Child] This sic/y ends before you were born.
Mother.
[Bell clanging]
[Door opens]
Again.
[Child] When we wake up feeling hands that were no longer there,
the elders told us that it was the work of ghosts or Satan.
[Clanging stops]
Or that we were lying to get attention.
Or that it was an act of wild female imagination.
It went on for years.
To all of us.
It felt I/ke weightlessness.
It felt like drifting over what used to be real.
It felt like a banishment,
as though we had no in vitation anymore to be a part of the real.
[Chafienng]
I used to wonder who I would be ifit hadn't happened to me.
I used to miss the person I m/ght have been.
I don't anymore.
Because it's doomsday and a call to prayer.
It's bath.
[Dog barking in distance]
We caught one of them. I saw his face.
And then he named the others.
[People chattering]
[Screaming, grunting]
[Attacker exclaiming, grunting]
[Child] Eventually the attackers were taken
to the police in the city
for their own protection.
[Screaming]
Almost all of the men of the colony went to the city
to post ball for the attackers.
We were given two days to forgive the attackers before they returned
if we did not forgive them, we would be ordered to leave the colony
and be denied entry into the kingdom of hea ven.
[Colonist] Do nothing.
[Colonist 2] Stay and fight.
[Both] Leave.
[Chattering softly]
Girls in our colony had very little schooling.
We hardly knew how to read or to write.
But that day, we learned how to vote.
[Baby crying]
[Baby cries]
- [Baby cries] - [Baby coos]
The vote was tied between staying and fighting, or leaving.
80 three families, including yours and mine,
were elected to decide what the women of the colony would do.
Your mother had asked a ugust, the schoolteacher,
to take the minutes of our meeting.
August came back to the colony just recently
his family had been excommunicated years ago.
A ugust had lo ved your mother since he was a boy.
- [Chuckles] - [Water trickling]
Before we began, your grandmother, agata,
told us we had to honor our service to each other.
We had to represent it.
Just as the disc/pies were washed by Jesus at the last supper,
knowing that his hour had come.
We only had 24 hours to imagine what world you would be born into.
It is a part of our faith to forgive.
We have always forgiven those who have wronged us. Why not now?
Because now we know better.
We will be excommunicated,
forced to leave the colony in disgrace if we do not forgive these men.
And if we are excommunicated, we forfeit our place in heaven.
How could any of you live with the fear of that?
These are legitimate fears. How can we address them?
The only important thing to establish is if we forgive the men
so that we will be allowed to enter the gates of heaven.
[Chuckles]
You can laugh all you like, salome, but we will be forced to leave the colony
if we don't forgive the men.
How will the lord, when he arrives, find the women if we aren't in the colony?
If Jesus was able to return to life, live for thousands of years
and then drop down to earth from heaven to scoop up his supporters,
surely he'd also be able to locate a few women who left their colony.
- [Agata] Let's stay on track. - All right. I'll stay on track.
I cannot forgive them. I will never forgive them.
I... I can't either.
But we want to enter the kingdom of heaven when we die.
- [Exclaims] - [Bucket clatters]
We have everything we want here.
- [Salome] No. - Want less.
[Chuckles]
Does entering the kingdom of heaven mean nothing to any of you?
Surely there must be something worth living for in this life,
not only in the next.
[Scoffs]
Autje!
- See you soon. It'll be all right. - Sorry.
[Child gasps]
[Footsteps receding]
[Autje] Your grandmother used to say, ”find out where you can be of help
and leave what you can't help behind ”
I think that's easier when you're old like her.
So we must decide now to stay and fight, or leave.
Those are the options in front of us.
We will not do nothing.
I want to talk about my horses, Ruth and Cheryl.
[Dogs barking]
When Ruth and Cheryl are frightened by dueck's dogs on the mile road
that leads to the church,
their rn/t/al instinct is to bolt
[barking continues]
These horses don't organize meetings to decide what they will do.
They run.
But, Greta, we are not animals.
We have been preyed upon like animals. Maybe we should respond like animals.
[Agata] In my lifetime, I have seen horses confront angry dogs
and try to stamp them to death.
Animals don't always flee.
Is this how we want to teach our daughters to defend themselves? By fleeing?
Not fleeing but leaving. I was talking about leaving.
I would rather stand my ground and shoot each man in the heart
and Bury 'em in a pit than flee.
And I'll deal with god's wrath iflhaveto.
Salome, aunt Greta is talking about leaving, not fleeing.
The word "fleeing" wasn't what she meant.
Please forgive my mother for using the wrong word.
It's a sin so outrageous that salome has taken it upon herself
to rectify for the sake of all humanity. [Chuckles]
[Agata] "Leaving" and "fleeing" are different words
with different meanings.
They each say something about us.
August, what do you make of all of this? Do you have an opinion too?
I think...
I think that it is possible to leave something or someone...
In one frame of mind
and arrive elsewhere in another...
Entirely unexpected frame of mind.
I want to stay and fight.
But won't we lose the fight to the men and be forced to forgive them anyway?
I want to stay and fight too.
No one's surprised that you do. All you do is fight.
Is this really how we are to decide the fates of all the women in this colony?
[Scoffs] Just another vote where we put an x next to our position?
I thought we were here to do more than that.
You mean talk more about forgiving the men and doing nothing.
Everything else is insane. But none of you will listen to reason.
Why are you here with us?
Why are you still here with us if that is what you believe?
Just leave with the rest of the "do nothing" women.
She is my daughter and I want her here with us.
Is forgiveness that's forced upon us true forgiveness?
Keep nonsense like that to yourself, please.
- Autje, get down! - [Greta] Autje, listen to your mother!
- [Rafters creak] - Behave yourself.
Don't you hear the rafters creaking?
Do you want the roof to cave in?
[Autje] Ll/lan y of us saw ourselves from abo ve.
I'm not sure if it was god and we were seeing ourselves through his eyes...
[Object tapping]
Or /f we just couldn't be there...
In our own bodies.
- How'd you get up there? - [Autje] It was a miracle.
[Chuckles] A miracle from god.
Of course. Where else?
[Autje] Where lcome from, where your mother comes from,
we didn't talk about our bodies.
So when something like this happened there was no language for it.
And without language for rt, there was a gaping silence.
And in that gaping silence was the real horror.
Neizy'e's mother hanged herself after the attacks had gone on for a while.
It made us wonder, why did our feet keep moving forward when hers just couldn't?
What sets us apart from the ones who get left behind?
[Whispers] This is never going to end.
[Whispers] We'll be dead and they'll still be talking.
- Or worse, we'll have to live through it. - [Chuckling]
August, I think you should make lists of the pros and cons of both options,
"staying and fighting" and "leaving."
Post it on the wall.
Make sure and write large.
Why? We can't read it.
No, but we'll keep it here as an artifact for others to discover.
I think the first heading should say, "staying and fighting"
and under that write "pros."
[Agata] Who will go first?
[Salome] We're starting with staying and fighting, pros.
- [All chattering] - [Greta] I think we should make a list...
[Parent] That's what you believe, not what everyone believes.
[Salome] How many times do I need to say it?
[August] Excuse me. Forgive me.
Um, may I request that you take turns speaking
so that I can understand each of you?
It takes me a second to transcribe.
Should we put up our hands as though we are children in your schoolhouse?
I... I apologize.
[Salome] We won't have to leave.
- Sorry. - Will you just write it down?
Under pros.
Salome has had a brilliant idea
that if we stay, we won't have to leave. [Chuckles]
We won't have to figure out where we are going
or experience the uncertainty of not knowing where we are going.
- We don't have a map. - [Salome] That's absurd.
The only certainty we'll know is uncertainty, no matter where we are.
[Agata] Neitje? Autje? Do you have something to add to the list?
We won't have to leave the people we love.
Well, we could bring our loved ones with us if we leave.
How? What does that mean? That we move the whole colony?
What could that possibly mean?
[Agata] We could create the possibility of a new order right here
in a place that is familiar to us.
[Salome] Not simply familiar, but a place that is ours.
Do we need to write the cons? Isn't it obvious we must stay and fight?
Cons. We won't be forgiven.
May I say something?
Please.
Would it be a good idea, before we list the pros and cons of staying and fighting,
to talk about exactly what it is we're fighting for?
It's obvious. We are fighting for our safety and for our freedom from attacks.
But what would that mean to us?
Perhaps we need a statement which describes
what we want the colony to be like after winning the fight.
Perhaps we need to understand more what it is we are fighting to achieve,
not only what we are fighting to destroy.
[Grunts, chuckles] Are we staying or are we going?
[Both laughing]
Ona, please tell us more about the statement you're thinking about.
Men and women would make all decisions for the colony collectively.
Women would be allowed to think.
Girls wrll be taught to read and to write.
The schoolhouse must display a map of the world
so that we can begin to understand our place in it.
A new religion, taken from the old but focused on love,
would be created by the women of the colony.
Our children would be safe.
"Collectively."
You sound like August's mother.
[Chuckles]
Ona, you're a dreamer.
We're women without a voice. We have nothing to return to.
Even the animals are safer in their homes than we women are.
All we have are our dreams.
So of course we are dreamers.
And you want to hear my dream?
I dream that people who speak nonsense, who have no grasp on reality,
are not put in charge of making statements.
What if the men refuse to meet our demands?
[Bucket clatters]
Sorry. [Giggling]
We'll kill them.
No, ona.
[Chuckles]
What if the men who are in prison are not guilty?
[Bell clanging]
Mother?
[Parent] A... a... autje.
- Why are you asking if they're... - Shush.
- We caught one of them. - [Screams]
I saw him.
[Parent] But only one.
[Salome] Yes, only one, but he named the others.
But what if he was lying?
We must consider this.
No, that is not our responsibility
because we aren't in charge of whether or not they are punished.
We know that we've been attacked by men.
Not by ghosts or Satan, as we were led to believe for so long.
We know that we've not imagined these attacks,
that we were made unconscious with cow tranquilizer.
We know that we are bruised, and infected,
and pregnant, and terrified, andinsane,
and some of us are dead.
We know that we must protect our children, regardless of who is guilty.
All right, salome. Thank you. Please, sit down, mmm?
Mmm.
Shall we move on?
It is possible the men in prison are not guilty of the attacks,
but are they guilty of not stopping the attacks?
Are they guilty of knowing about the attacks and doing nothing?
How should we know what they're guilty of or not?
But we do know.
We do know that the conditions have been created by men
and that these attacks have been made possible
because of the circumstances of the colony.
And those circumstances have been created and ordained by the men.
But wait, aren't you suggesting that the attackers are as much victims
as the victims of the attacks,
that all of us, men and women, are victims of the circumstances
from which the colony has been created?
In a sense, yes.
So then, even if the court finds them guilty or innocent...
[Inhales]... they are... [Exhales]... after all, innocent.
Yes, I would say so.
- The elders called them evil. - [Ona] That's not true.
It's the elder's quest for power that is responsible.
- Because they needed to have those... - Those they'd have power over.
And those people are us.
And they have taught the lesson of power to the boys and men of the colony
and the boys and men have been excellent students.
Don't we all want some sort of power?
I think so. But I'm not sure.
But we caught them. We caught them.
Yes, you did.
Then why are you making it so complicated?
This is very, very boring.
We could ask the men to leave.
Ask the men to leave?
None of us have ever asked the men for anything.
Not a single thing.
Not even for the salt to be passed.
Not even for a penny, or a moment alone.
Or to take the washing in, or to open a curtain,
or to go easy on the small yearlings.
Or to put your hand on the small of my back
while I try again, for the 12th or 13th time,
to push a baby out of my body.
Isn't it interesting that the one and only request
we women would have of the men
would be for them to leave?
[All laughing]
[Greta] Asking the men to leave is not an option. Oh.
I'd like you to imagine Ruth and Cheryl.
- [Laughter continues] - Oh, no! Not again!
[Agata] Please stop.
Look. August is still taking the minutes.
Can you believe August is still taking the minutes?
[Autje] Sometimes I think people laugh as hard as the y'd like to cry.
[Agata] August, you must think we're all lunatics.
- I don't. - [Laughter subsides]
And it doesn't matter what I think, anyway.
Is that true? Do you really think it doesn't matter what you think?
How would you feel if in your entire life it never mattered what you thought?
But I'm not here to think.
I'm here to take the minutes of your meeting.
But if in your entire life you truly felt it didn't matter what you thought,
how would that make you feel?
When we've liberated ourselves, we will have to ask ourselves who we are.
[Children chattering in distance]
[Horse nickers]
Will we be done by suppertime?
I have to give little miep her antibiotics.
Where did you get antibiotics?
[Agata] She walked
she walked for a day and a half to the mobile clinic
with ll/liep on her back
[Agata] The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in lo ving-kindness and forgiveness.
The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
I have to hide the antibiotics in miep's applesauce or she won't swallow them.
The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
- The lord is gracious and compassionate... - [Greta sniffles]
Slow to anger...
Forgive me. They're too big for my mouth.
[Agata] The lord is gracious and compassionate...
[Bells clanging]
[Agata] The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger,
rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness.
Well, let's take a break.
[Agata humming]
- [Child chuckles] Melvin. - [Shouts]
- [Child screams] - You're it. Uh-oh.
[All laughing]
[Child imitating animal call]
[Chuckles]
Not one word about my smoking.
Honestly, I'm sick of it.
Coming over here. Watch out!
[Children yelp]
Is she always going to be like this now?
Like what?
A man. Is nettie always going to be a man now?
[All chattering]
[Autje] Later, we understood that nettie didn't become a man
because of what happened
nettie had never felt like a woman.
Now pretending had become rmpcssib/e.
[Colonists chattering inside]
Is my brother listening?
Hello, little brother.
Ilovedil
I think.
Isn't that strange?
I... I won't speak of it
or anything else...
Ever again.
[Sighs]
[Autje] But...
- [Colonist] But what? - [Autje] She doesn't speak anymore.
You all right?
[Colonist] She speaks to the children.
[Injured child] Kind of.
I think they call her Melvin.
[Child yelps]
You know, during the second world war in Italy,
civilians would hide in bomb shelters.
Volunteers were needed to power the generators that provided electricity.
They rode bikes.
[Chuckles]
And when you were swinging from the rafter earlier,
I was, uh, reminded of this.
You would have been the perfect volunteer.
If we were in a bomb shelter.
Where would I ride the bike to in such a small space?
Oh, well, uh, the bike would be stationary.
I have to get the water to the horses.
Watch this.
[Water sloshing]
[Chuckles]
I'll bet you didn't learn how to do things like that when you went to university.
Only facts about stationary bicycles in far-off places.
I suppose I shouldn't be too sad, then, that I won't ever go.
Why were you forced to leave the colony?
My mother questioned things.
She questioned god?
Not god. Power.
The rules made in the name of god.
And she encouraged others to question things too.
- Like ona? - Yes.
Ona knew her well.
Did she die?
But sometimes, listening to you all speaking today, I can hear her so clearly.
[Chuckles]
Why did the elders let you come back?
Well, I went to university, so I could serve a purpose and teach the boys.
Too late.
I... I want to help.
And I don't know how.
You came back for ona, didn't you?
The way you look at her is... funny. [Chuckles]
I don't know why she won't just marry you.
You both say so much that doesn't make sense. [Chuckles]
["Daydream believer" playing on loudspeaker]
J” oh, lccu/d hide 'neath the wings j”
j” of the bluebird as she sings... j“
[children laughing, chattering]
J” the six 0 'clock alarm would never ring... j”
shoo! Shoo! Shoo! Away! Away!
J” but it rings, and / rise... j”
[announcer over loudspeaker] Please come out and be counted now.
Please come out of your homes to be counted for the 2070 census.
J” ll/ly sha vin'razor's cold and it stings... j”
[chickens clucking]
J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean... j”
[announcer] All residents must come out of their homes
to be counted for the 2070 census.
J” and a homecoming queen? J”
j” you once thought of me j”
[yelps]
J” as a white knight on his steed j”
j” now you know how happy I can be... j”
all right. You want to try this one?
J” and our good t/mes start and end... j”
[announcer] This is the 2070 census.
Please come out of your homes to be counted for the 2070 census.
J” but how much, baby, do we really need? J”
- tickle, tickle, tickle. - [Chuckles]
J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
[announcer] Here to collect data for the 2070 census.
Please come out of your homes now to be counted
j” oh, what can it mean... j”
- let's go. - Why?
Let's just... let's go.
J” and a homecoming queen? J”
J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
- [chattering, inaudible] - J” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
[August] J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
-j” and a home... j” -[Bird calling]
[Cups rattling, clinking]
[Footsteps approaching]
Where is autje?
[Agata] Well, we must begin without her.
Thank you.
Were you smoking?
- Is that any of your business? - Please.
[Crying]
I can't live a second longer!
- [Parent] Autje? - [All scream]
No, autje!
[All clamoring]
[All sighing, laughing]
Autje, wait until I get a hold of you.
The census-taker told us one of our men is returning from the city late tonight.
They need more bail money for the attackers.
Which man?
Your klaas.
[Agata] So time is of the essence. Everyone, get back to your seats.
[Greta] August, please. Pros for leaving.
Pros for leaving.
[Colonist] We will be gone.
[Greta] We will be safe.
Maybe not. The first is most definitely a fact that if we leave, we will be gone.
Do we really need to state the obvious over and over?
[Agata] Yes, autje.
We will see a bit of the world.
[August] Let's move on to the cons of leaving.
We, the women, will decide what happens in these meetings.
Not a two-bit failed farmer who must teach.
You have been invited here.
You have been invited here to listen to what we have to say and write it down.
Nothing more. Just listen!
Mariche.
Klaas will be returning soon and you are wasting time.
He will come to your house just long enough
to take his animals in order to sell for bail money
that will see the rapists return to the colony,
and he will lay his hands on you and on your children.
And you, as always,
do nothing but fire away at us with all of this rage.
I would like to apologize for wrongly attempting
to nudge the proceedings.
That's not my place.
[Laughing]
Mejal.
I'll stop.
[Miep] Mama.
What's the matter? What's the matter? Oh.
What is it? Hmm?
Miep, what is it?
[Miep] I hurt.
Miep.
It's all right.
There are no cons of leaving.
It's all right.
Not to worry, nettie.
J” ch/ldren of the heavenly father j”
[all] J” safely in his bosom gatherj”
j” nestling bird nor star in heaven j”
j” such a refuge e'er was given j”
j” though he giveth or he taketh j”
j” god his children ne 'er forsaketh j”
j” his the loving purpose solely j”
j” to preserve them pure and holy j”
j” ch/ldren of the heavenly father j”
j” safely in his bosom gatherj”
j” nestling bird nor star in heaven j”
j” such a refuge j”
j” e 'er was given j”
if we do leave the colony, how will we live with the pain
of never seeing our brothers and our sons again?
The men.
[Greta] 77me wrll heal.
Our freedom and safety are the ultimate goals.
And it is men who prevent us from achie ving those goals.
[Marich e] But not all men.
[Ona] Perhaps not men, but a way of seeing the world and us women,
which has been allowed to take hold of men's hearts and minds.
[Neitje] So if we leav... if we leave, I w/ll never see my brothers again?
[Autje] Who will take care of them?
Of them all?
[Greta] We can't know if we will stay or leave
before we've resolved these last-minute concerns.
I wouldn't call the future of our relationship
with the boys and men we love "last-minute concerns."
Here we go.
[Grunts]
[All chattering]
[Autje] It was all waiting to happen before rt happened.
You could look back and follow the bread crumbs
along the path that led to violence.
When we looked back, we could see that it had been everywhere,
whether it was happening yet or not.
Hi!
[Children chattering]
[Miep] Hi!
[Retches, coughs]
I'll get you some water.
There is no cup or anything.
[Slurps]
[Children continue chaflenng]
It's good that you're here, August...
To remind us of what's possible.
Because it's easy to forget.
I'm so sorry, ona.
Yeah.
One day I'd like to hear that from someone who should be saying it.
Why does love,
the absence of love, the end of love, the need for love,
result in so much violence?
Ona...
I could take care of you and your child.
I would like to.
- I, um... - I know.
You don't have to say the words.
If I were married, I wouldn't be myself.
So the person you love would be gone.
[Chuckles]
If we stay and we don't win the fight, my child will be given to
another family here.
Maybe even the family of my attacker.
If we stay and don't win the fight...
But you won't let that happen. No.
No, I won't.
[Footsteps approaching]
[Inhales, exhales]
[Greta] August, we need to discuss options
for the men and the older boys if the women decide to leave.
Which is a waste of time, because we're not leaving.
The men should leave with us if they wish.
Then what on earth is the point of us leaving?
Well, they could be allowed to join the women later,
once the women have established themselves and are thriving.
Should we add thriving as a collective, literate community?
"Literate" is your word, not ours.
We don't need your university language to make our plans.
Put it in. We know what it means. Continue, Greta.
Uh, young boys, simple-minded boys of any age.
Cornelius, who's confined to a wheelchair, will accompany the women.
I vote for the first option. The men should leave with us if they wish.
The first option is ridiculous and should be crossed off the list.
Why are some ideas written down and considered, and others crossed out?
[Sighs] I'm gonna leave. I'd like to strangle myself.
Mariche, it's possible that all the men would choose to leave with us,
and then all we'd be doing is recreating our colony,
- with all of its dangers elsewhere. - [Match strikes]
[Agata] And the men would definitely leave with us
because they can't survive without us.
- Not for longer than a day or two. - [Salome] We have not decided to leave.
- I'd like to remind everyone of that. - [Agata] And how can we leave at all
if we've never been allowed to even see a map of the world?
[August] I can secure a world map for you.
I also have, um, a map of this specific region.
Well, that will do. It's not like we're planning to travel the planet.
[Ona] Perhaps we are.
Did you know that the migration period for butterflies and dragonflies is so long
that it's often only the grandchildren that arrive at the intended destination?
Yes. So it...
Yes.
Perhaps if we went beyond where the map showed us,
we could create our own map as we go.
So now you wanna leave, ona?
[Gasping, panting]
[Greta] Are you all right, mejal?
No. She's having one of her episodes.
[Hyperventilating]
[Agata] Father almighty, in all humility and supplication
we ask thee for thy abundant kindness at this moment.
- Please, in your beneficence, heal her. - [Screams]
[Agata] Please, we ask of thee,
envelop her in your strength and everlasting love,
and please drive out the sickness which afflicts her now.
- Help me up. - [Agata] Oh, praise be to god.
- Why is it only mejal has these... - Be quiet.
We were all attacked.
Not all of us need to draw so much attention to ourselves.
[Chuckles, laughing]
What attention? I speak less than all of you put together.
- How have I offended you? - [Mariche] You have these attacks.
You smoke!
Why? Why is it so much harder for you than for us?
We were all attacked, all of us.
We are wasting our time by passing this burden, this sack of stones
from one to the next by pushing our pain away.
Let's absorb it ourselves. Let's inhale it, let's digest it.
Let's process it into fuel.
[Mejal breathing heavily]
Speak, mejal.
We are listening.
They made us disbelieve ourselves.
That was worse than...
Mejal.
Klaas, when he returns, may take horses or livestock we would need along the way.
[Salome] Along the way?
We're not leaving.
You are changing your mind, ona.
I don't believe that's a sin, is it?
[Mariche] How will we be forgiven for all this?
How will we be forgiven,
if not by the elders whom we have disobeyed?
Perhaps there will be other elders or men of god
who will be able to forgive our sins.
We do not need to be forgiven by the men of god
for protecting our children from the depraved actions of vicious men
who are often the very same men we're meant to ask for forgiveness.
If god is a loving god, then he will forgive us himself.
If god is a vengeful god, then he has created us in his image.
If god is omnipotent,
then why has he not protected the women and girls of this colony?
I will destroy any living thing
that harms my child.
I will tear it limb from limb.
I will desecrate its body
and I will Bury it alive.
I will challenge god on the spot to strike me dead
if I have sinned by protecting my child from evil
and by destroying that evil that it may not harm another.
I will lie, I will hunt, I will kill.
I will dance on graves and I will burn forever in hell
before I allow another man to satisfy his violent urges
with the body of my four-year-old child.
I suggest we think about what is good.
"Whatever is true..."
[All] "Whatever is honorable, whatever is just,
whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing,
whatever is commendable,
if there is any excellence
and if there is anything worthy of praise,
think about these things,
and the peace of god be with you."
I will become a murderer if I stay.
I know what these are. These are letters.
But what are these?
They're commas.
They signify a short pause or a breath in the text.
There's also a butterfly called a comma.
- Is that so? [Chuckles] - Mm-hmm.
Salome.
If you will become a murderer by staying here in the colony,
side by side with the men who are responsible for the attacks,
then you must...
To protect your own soul,
leave the colony.
- We are not all murderers. - Not yet.
[Agata] I have done what the verse from philippians instructed,
which is to think about what is good, what is just,
what is pure, what is excellent.
Pacifism.
Pacifism is good.
Any violence is unjustifiable.
By staying here, we women will be betraying
the central tenet of our faith, which is pacifism...
Because by staying...
We will knowingly be placing ourselves
in a direct collision course with violence.
Either by us or against us.
[Crying] This colony is the only home I've ever known.
And I don't want to leave.
But by staying, we'll be inviting harm.
We will be in a state of war.
We will turn this colony into a battlefield.
[Ona] We cannot become murderers,
and we cannot endure anymore violence...
Which is why we must leave.
I've also been thinking about the verse from philippians...
And I've been thinking about what is good.
Freedom is good.
It is better than slavery.
Forgiveness is good.
It's better than revenge.
And hope for the unknown is good.
It is better than hatred of the familiar.
What about security?
And safety and home and family?
What about marriage...
And lo ve, ona?
[Ona] I don't know about those things, any of them...
Except for love, and...
Even love is mysterious to me.
And I believe that my home is with my mother and my sister
and my unborn child, wherever that may be.
Will you not hate that child?
That child is the child of a man who inspires violent thoughts in you.
I already love this child more than anything.
He or she is as innocent and lovable as the evening sun.
So, too, was the child's father when he was born.
But if you're saying that forgiveness is better than revenge...
Aren't you saying that we must stay here and forgive the men?
We cannot forgive because we are forced to.
But with some distance,
perhaps I'm able...
To understand how these crimes may have occurred.
And with that distance,
maybe I'm able to pity these men.
Perhaps forgive them
and even love them.
Not fighting, but moving.
Always moving, never fighting.
Just moving.
[Whispering] Never fighting. Just moving.
- Never fighting. Always moving. - Would you snap out of it?
- [Salome] You snap out of it. - [Mejal] All of you snap out of it.
Have you lost your minds? The sun is gone.
I want to tell another story about Ruth and Cheryl.
[Chuckles]
[Greta] / was always frightened of the northern read out of the colony
there are so many gull/es on either side of the road.
The buggy used to lurch side to side.
Ruth and Cheryl were srmply fol/o wing my commands of the reins,
but they were jerky and frenetic,
and it was dangerous.
It was only when I/earned to focus my gaze
far down ahead of me,
and not on the road immediately r'n front of Ruth and Cheryl,
that I started to feel safe.
[Inhales, exhales]
Leaving will give us
the more farseer'ng perspective we need to forgive...
Which is to lo ve properly...
And keep the peace according to our faith.
Therefore, our leaving wouldn't be an act of cowardice or abandonment.
It wouldn't be because we were excommunicated or exiled
it would be a supreme act of faith.
A step towards love and forgiveness.
Leaving is how we demonstrate our faith.
We are leaving because our faith is stronger than the rules.
Bigger than our life.
I'm sorry, but I think I might be dying.
Mother, you're not dying.
Your glasses need cleaning.
[All laughing]
Why are you laughing?
We cannot leave.
We... w...
It would be better to stay and fight than leave.
Do you really mean that you wanna stay and not fight?
Because when was the last time you had the strength
to stand up to the aggression of klaas,
to protect your children or to get out of harm's way?
Who are you to tell me what kind of wife and mother to be
when you are neither one yourself?
You are a spinster. A *****.
- An unwed mother. - Stop.
[Salome] Ona was made unconscious and raped like the rest of us.
How dare you call her a *****.
Are you not afraid your own sweet boys will become monsters like their father
because you do nothing to protect them?
- Stop it. - [Salome] Nothing to educate them.
Nothing to teach them the horror of their father's ways.
[Agata] I have heard enough!
Do you women realize we are talking about leaving?
We are a large group.
Many things could go wrong and time is fleeting.
For the love of our lord Jesus Christ and precious savior,
shut your pieholes, please!
How dare you pass judgment on me.
It wasn't a judgment. It was a question.
[Scoffs]
[Whispers] Tell her you're sorry.
I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry that what I said hurt you. - Oh, **** it off!
Sit down, mariche!
- It's "**** off," I think. - Shh!
I am sorry.
I'm saying sorry, not just to leave the hurt behind,
but because I feel truly that I should not have said something harmful to you.
And, mariche, I'm sorry
because you do not need or deserve any more harm.
Who are you?
Who are any of you
to pretend I have had a choice?
I am also sorry, mariche.
I didn't try to protect you or your children from klaas.
And what you say is true. You had no choice.
You forgave him, again and again,
as you were told to.
As I told you to.
[Whispers] I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
It's not only the men and boys who have been excellent students.
[Agata] I think, mariche, we are all very sorry.
What you were required to endure was a...
Misuse of forgiveness.
Is there such a thing, a forgiveness that is not good?
Well, perhaps, forgiveness can, in some instances,
be confused with permission.
[Crying]
[Footsteps approaching]
[Greta] What in heaven's name?
- [Child crying] - What is it? Julius, what is it?
Nettie, please, make an exception and tell us what is happening.
What has happened to him?
Nettie, be realistic. Tell us what has happened to Julius.
Speak, just this once.
What's wrong, sweetheart?
My nose. There's a cherry up my nose.
Okay, well, blow.
- [Inhales, blows] - Harder. Again.
[Inhales, blows]
Oh. There you go.
We have no cherries in the colony.
Klaas sometimes brings them back from the city.
Who gave you the cherries, Julius?
Papa.
Why don't you... You go and play with nettie, all right?
[Greta] Have... have we made a decision? Are we leaving?
Yes.
- We are leaving because... - We know why we are leaving.
We are leaving because we cannot stay.
Mmm.
We will take young boys of 12 with us
and allow the men to join the women later under certain conditions.
Aaron. I know.
Aaron is just over 12. Just barely.
Why would boys of 13 and 14 be left behind? Why wouldn't they leave with us?
Surely we don't have to be afraid of the boys of this age.
August, you're the boys' teacher. What is your feeling about this?
Do boys of that age pose a risk to our girls and women?
Yes, possibly.
Boys of 13 or 14 are capable
of causing great damage to girls and women...
And to each other.
It is a brash age.
They are possessed of reckless urges, physical exuberance,
intense curiosity that often results in rnjury.
Unbridled emotion,
including deep tenderness and empathy,
and not quite enough experience or brain de velopment
to fully understand or appreciate the consequences
of their words or actions.
They're like the yearlings.
Young, awkward, gleeful, powerful
they're tall, muscular, ***ually inquisrtive creatures
with little impulse control,
but they are children.
They're children and they can be taught.
I'm a two-bit schoolteacher, a failed farmer
and, above all, a believer.
And / belie ve that with guidance,
firm lo ve and Patience,
these boys are capable of relearning their roles as males in the colony.
I believe in what the great poet, Samuel Taylor coleridge,
thought were the cardinal rules of early education...
”To work by love...
And so generate lo ve.
To habrtuate the mind to intellectual accuracy and truth.
To excite rmaginative power."
He sard, "little is taught by contest or dispute.
Everything by sympathy and lo ve. ”
I believe the boys should be allowed to leave with the women...
Providing the women choose to leave.
[Mariche] It was a yes or no question.
You shit like any other man. Why don't you talk like one?
Sorry.
[Agata] I have a proposal to make.
We have to protect all of our children, not only our daughters.
Every boy under 15 and the ones who need special care
must accompany the women.
How do you mean "must"?
What if they refuse? What if they don't wanna leave?
We can't carry teenagers on our backs.
We will try to influence our sons, but we cannot force them.
And they might refuse, it's true.
August.
You would stay and teach the boys who remain?
Of course.
He's right outside.
Klaas?
[Gasps] He has Ruth and Cheryl.
Everybody, back to your houses and pack up.
If anyone asks, we were quilting.
August, uh, get the map.
Neitje and autje, you must run right now to every house
and tell the women we are leaving.
Tell them to pack up everything they can
and to meet us outside the washhouse an hour after sunrise.
[Agata] We need to get an early start in the morning.
Let's all meet back here at sunrise. All of us.
An hour after sunrise, we congregate on the road by the washhouse.
- Do we bring... - Everything.
- Bring everything. - Why?
- [Autje] After sunrise, all right? - [Neitje] Wake up.
- Tomorrow, one hour after sunrise. - [Autje] We're leaving after sunrise.
We meet an hour after sunrise on this road.
- Bring your buggies. - Thank you, sister.
[Children chuckling]
[Dog barking]
Who can get home the quickest, huh?
- She has a cricket in her hands. - [Mariche gasps]
You do?
Can I see? Okay.
[Children shouting]
Yes. Bedtime.
[Chuckles] Yes.
[Greta] Don't go.
Stay with me tonight, or I will go with you.
If I don't go home, it'll draw attention to all of us.
- Mariche. - Go home, mother.
I'll see you at sunrise.
[Barking continues]
[Autje] They said later, it should have taken longer to pack up a whole life.
It was disappointing to realize that everything that ever mattered to you
could be gathered up in a few short hours.
We would leave only traces of ourselves.
[Dog barking]
[Horse nickering]
Go. Go.
Psst. August.
Come sit with me.
Here's the map.
Where are we?
Here.
- Here? - Mm-hmm.
- This is where we are. - [Chuckles]
[Chuckles]
This is north, south, east and west.
But the map moves. How do you know which way it should be facing?
Celestial navigation.
I can show you.
Do you know of the southern cross?
Mm-hmm.
You and the women can use the southern cross to navigate.
If you make your right hand into a fist...
Align the first knuckle with the axis of the cross...
And then the tip of your thumb here will indicate south.
[Both chuckle]
Will you show the others?
We will have a lesson in navigation.
Did you already know about this little trick?
[Laughs]
Of course I did.
I wish there was something I could teach you that you didn't already know.
[Chuckles]
What will become of you when we leave?
You make a fist with your right hand
and you point your two knuckles to the southern cross.
It's called celestial navigation.
Point these two knuckles.
- Like that? - Mm-hmm.
And wherever your thumb is pointing, that's south.
[Autje] We like to put frames around things,
even when they are spilling out the edges.
So we gathered one last time r'n the ha yloft,
where so much had been sa/d,
so much that your grandmother would have told you, had you ever met.
[Breathing heavily]
[Greta] Is he gone?
He's sleeping. Dead to the world.
He was very drunk.
And he caught me sneaking back into the house late.
And then he went to the barn and found we had taken the horses.
[Salome] Mariche, did you tell him what we were planning?
She did, but only because he wouldn't stop hitting me
and she was trying to distract him.
[Mariche] I don't think he believed me.
And even if he did, I don't think he'll remember.
He'll be passed out all morning, I'm sure.
But I also told him because I suddenly felt very...
We have decided that we want...
That we are...
We are entitled to three things.
[Greta] What are they?
We want our children to be safe.
We want... We want to be steadfast in our faith.
And we want to think.
[Greta] Yes.
Praise god.
[Chuckles]
Yeah.
We all want that.
J” nearer, my god, to thee j”
[all] J” nearer to thee j”
j” e 'en though it be a cross j”
j” that raiseth me j”
j” still all my song shall be j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer to thee j”
j” though I/ke the wandererj”
j” the sun gone down j”
j” darkness be over me j”
j” ll/ly rest a stone j”
j” yet r'n my dreams I 'd be j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee... j”
[grunts]
J” nearer to thee j”
[breathing heavily]
J” there let the way appearj”
j” steps unto heav'n j”
j” all that thou sendest me j”
j” in mercy giv'n... j”
let's go!
J” angels to beckon me... j”
[children chattering]
J” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer to thee j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer j”
j” to thee j”
Just...
August, you can speak whenever you want. You don't have to raise your hand.
It's all right.
It wasn't important.
[Footsteps approaching]
[Agata] Oh.
Are the children clean and ready?
Thank you, Melvin.
Thank you for saying my name.
We hid Ruth and Cheryl for you.
- They're ready to go. - Really?
[Gasps] Well! Oh, my girls.
Has Aaron readied the horses for us?
What? Well, where is he?
Where is he?
- Speak to me. - [Agata] You're safe, Melvin.
- I won't harm you. I'm not your enemy! - Calm, salome. Aaron will be found.
I'm not leaving without him.
[Agata] Salome, come back!
[Ona] What if she doesn't convince him?
[Gasping softly]
Mother?
{gasps} -Breathe.
Breathe.
[Inhales, exhales]
We are going to go now.
[Crying]
I'm all right. Please go.
Come on, let's go.
- Now? - Yes.
Make a list, August. [Chuckles]
- A list of what? - [Agata] Of good things.
Of plans, of memories.
Whatever you feel goes into a good list.
What we, the women, will want there. Please write it down.
August.
Thank you for all you've done.
We are all so proud of you.
[Crying]
And your mother would be proud too.
[Ona sobbing]
I'll make a list.
This is going to be a difficult trip.
"Today is the day the lord hath made.
Rejoice...
And be glad in it."
Go join the others.
Please.
[Sobbing continues]
I will not be buried in this colony.
[Sobbing continues]
Get me into a buggy now and let me die on the trail. [Chuckles]
But what about August?
[Agata] Oh...
Stand. Stand.
He'll be fine.
Hang on with both hands.
[Chuckles]
[August] Ona!
I will always love you.
She loves you too, August.
She loves everyone.
[Agata] Sun.
[N eitje] Stars.
[Miep] Pails.
[Mariche] The harvest.
[Salome] Numbers.
[Ona] Window.
[Greta] Straw.
[Chafienng]
[Autje] Sounds.
[Ona] Beams.
[Salome] Love.
[Spraying]
[Nickers softly]
All right. We'll go.
[Melvin] Language.
[Autje] Wind.
[August] Women.
[Objects clattering]
Salome?
We may need to protect ourselves.
Where is Aaron?
He's in the buggy, waiting.
You convinced him to leave?
You may need this...
For protection.
Did you...
- Did you have... - Yes!
He's coming with me. He's my child.
Goodbye, August.
Good luck.
Please take care of ona and her baby.
Of course. I promise.
- Wait. I need to give you something. - No. I have to go!
Here.
Why have you got a gun, August?
Don't kill yourself, August.
You have important work to do.
[Whimpering]
You are the boys' teacher.
Don't come back.
Don't ever come back, any of you.
Oh, wait. I need...
No... [sighs]
Please. Please, salome, give these to ona.
Oh, no. But she can't read them.
Her child will read them.
No, August,
the purpose was for you to take the minutes.
We'll meet again.
[Weapons clank]
[Horse whinnies]
[All chattering]
[Greta] We have more room back here.
Melvin, thank you.
[Child] Do you have anymore room?
[Colonist] We have room for one more.
She can sit on my lap.
[Chickens clucking]
Up, up.
[Panting]
Autje!
All right. Come on.
[Horse whinnies]
Hup.
[Shushing]
[Autje] Your story will be difi'erent from ours.
[Birds chirping]
- [Chirping continues] - [Rooster crows]
["Daydream believer" playing]
J” oh, lccu/d hide 'neath the wings j”
j” of the bluebird as she sings j”
j” the s/x 0 'clock alarm would ne ver ring j”
j” but rt rings and / rise j”
j” wrpe the sleep out of m y eyes j”
j” m y sha vin ' razor's cold and it stings j”
j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
j” you once thought of me j”
j” as a white knight on his steed j”
j” now you know how happy I can be j”
j” oh, and our good times start and end j”
j” without dollar one to spend j”
j” but how much, baby, do we really need? J”
j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
j” oh, what can it mean j”
j” to a daydream belie verj”
j” and a homecoming queen? J”
[song fades] J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j”
[crickets chirping]
[Bird chirping]
[Owl hooting]
[Thunder rumbling]
[Rain pattering]
[Rain continues pattering]
[Bird chirping]
[Rooster crowing]
[Bird continues chirping]
[Children] J” there let the way appearj”
j” steps unto heav'n j”
j” all that thou sendest me j”
j” in mercy giv'n j”
j” angels to beckon me j”
j” nearer, my god, to thee j”
j” nearer j”
a to thee j”